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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
BORING MONOTONE TASTELESS day

wednesday

hmmx,
boring.
monotone.
tasteless.
bland.
feelingless.
tireeddd!!!
HUNGRY! (not really but i didnt eat for 10+hrs... only water and air!)

-proper-
well woke up at about 7am plus plus plus...
mum at 7? to meet with aunty ada (states) for breakie...
and she went with dad... same car diff place... lol
racheal went for school...
guess what im alone... not, with my grammy...

i 4got to eat breakie...
well, went online for awhile...
watched Yours Mine Ours!
really nice, seriously the cover made it seem boring...
but its really nice... very straightforward, as in short and sweet...
not loso at all, and it ended in 1hr 15mins??

finally rembred to have breakfast at 9.30am plus plus...
changed and went for band...
reached on the dot of 11.15am...
and we were moving off le, after briefing...

the rehearsal was so a drag...
typical PHSians... so delayers...
so we did once through only...
and i snapped some fotos...
sneak preview eh?
can view at the link under my profile herre!

well, i didnt go eat lunch,
no money and cuz i wanted to watch...---
WASTE OF TIME...

finally reached back school at 6pm?
had some sec4 mtg lolx, and reached home at 7pm...
mummy not at home AgAiN...
but im too famished to care...

watched finish the 2nd half of Xmen3...
i think its a lame story...
mutants... and fight gd vs bad... "
in the end, so saddd... waliaox dumbb
at least Yours Mine Ours, with no logic, sounds sweet...
the children are CuTe!! (:
-end-

just glad that today isnt sour...
just that its blandd blandd bland...
actually not, lolx...
just that ive no feeling today...
hmmx, haiz... nvm...

*oh and beware of felicia... esp if you're a girl!! :P

just hope the coming friday isnt going to crash so badly...
in the sense, i really hope its gonna be as fun as Phantasy...
even though we may have another concert in dec... "

yay, bbq on sat... i hope i can go lolx, most likely...

and im sleepy now... really tired... plus tmr got chem pract!! haiz...

becca (: ♥ 9:08 PM


Tuesday, May 30, 2006
true holidays, far are they...

tuesday

well, "true holidays, how far are they"...
im dreaming as though everyday is really a holiday...
well, im having fun... until im almost bored...
actually that only includes the fun i get with my family..
well, they are nice and fun too...
but its boring me now...
HOW I MISS GOING OUT, with my close peeps... :P

-proper proper gummiex- "
hmmz, well woke up close to 6.30am?
took my own sweet time to do stuff...
went to sort out files... (due by yesterday!)
but well, in the end i figured out that i cant settle by morning...
because i need to do up the articles first...
plus dad wanna chiong his stuff through comp too... lolx
*farni how he did all his work but forgot to save to thumbdrive!*

left house at 7.20, after 5mins of breakie-dumplings lolx..
well, i expected to reach by 7.50, but dad fetch me to sch...
reached at 7.30, and guess what literally EVERYONE was there le...
scared me, i thought i late... well, heard that baoren asked to meet at 7.10am??
lucky i nv receive msg... hahax

well, practical was so not for me...
in the sense i couldnt care less...
took my own time until i realised no time le...
anyway i know that physics die liaox... gd siahx...
main cant even hold, still want to collapse with pract. haiz

then was pissed at my mum for changing meeting time...
refused to go home, so i went to sarah's house...
oops, she pissy... and im bored and dead hungry... we were...
and i was momentarily pissed, but she was permanently done for...
haiz, it isnt totally your fault larhx!

and well, met marmi at 12.30pm at depot...
took 950 to JB!!
guess what, still dead hungry... but i finally regret taking bus!
cars rox a whole lot... cuz i can sleep while my dad drives "patiently" thru congestion!
wahahax, and this was to show where to meet on 7.8.9 of june...
SERIOUS: i wanna pon at least one lesson... this is so not good... i wan to go church camp!

had RAMEN, tom yum de... *yumiiex!*
mum had tempura...
restaurant name= Kinashi? at Citysq
had a grape juicy drink... nice!

bought DRAGON BEARD CANDY...
btw, that's another of my favs!
specially, down there had strawberry/coffee/orange/plain flavours!
all are nice i guess.. but i like the 1st 2 very much! cheaper than in Sg!

promised to get some dark/white choco back for Sarah...
but realised it wasnt worthit, lolx... sry la...
will buy some to cheer up for the next few days...

went to chem tuition (the main reason why we cant stay in Msia longer!)
well, its more meaningful this lesson, because we managed to cover a whole chapt in 2 hrs?
dun worry, we all gonna quit soon...
i really hope we all will jiayou (we= mel/baoyue/audrey/me!)
we dun deserve the noise and lameness for money!
and we all will be fine even if we quit...
actually, i guess im the one worried... my only supporting A!
haiz, sounds pathetic, but i know its a far lot better than nothing... lolx

reached home and baked chicken wings for dinner...
well, at least they are not burnt! but mummy says they are not tasty enough!
hurmphx, well, it will be better next time...
btw, watched tv for some time and waited for dad to come home...
had dinner and a nice whole lot of dragon beard candy waiting for us...
its not very cheap but worth!

got to go watch tv soon!
-the end-

hmmx, i sounding alot crappier, very loso...
but well, i just hope tmr isnt going to crash because of bannddd!
i really really really do hope that... and really pretty pls..
even if its gonna be superficial... dun kill it!

next, i just have to say, im excited about the coming camp...
not as if im spending even 75% of camp in camp!
but i hope we have loads of fun...
(miss waterpolo 2004, shopping 2005, foody stuff and running from rm to rm!)
oh it reminds me, i gtg check out the webby...
see what we can do there!

well, nth much and
oh when at the bus stop outside sarah's condo...
saw ZHIWEI! then she screamed for me... i was really stunned
imagine across the roads larhx!
and seriously embarrassing lorhx... so i waved back...
lolx, and she was laughing too... LOL

and im really doubly longing for choco..
have been eating lots!
good food la duhhs...
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HAIX...
i dunno larhx...
am i faking or what...
okay im so not...
i should have...
it was suppose to endd...
and i dunno what happened
crappx, i musnt fall for it againn...
soon it will be known as another facade...
i know it will, i wunt forget it, i just CaNt
well, that's almost all that is in my mind right now!
assy...

but at least music is brought back into my life now...
im thankful though... and im glad...
that i have learned to luv life
as it is... well, ive learned alot...
compared to sec1...
and cheered up alot more...

but still haiz... and i should just remind myself
that all is pretense... utter pretense
just cannot believe
how one person can pretend until like that...
i shld really just stop here, HAIX!
(i guess its partially my fault too...)

becca (: ♥ 9:35 PM


Monday, May 29, 2006
im nvr going to go chinesy EVA again!!

saturday
crappy crappy day...
started great woke up early...
my hopes flew high...
even the night b4...
but i suddenly felt horrible...
well, it WAS HORRIBLE!

let's not make it sound worse than it already is...
haix, but everything seemed hopeful...
even with an awkward lunch break...
and whatsmore is that,
this is the FIRST time in history...
that i practised fo one half hour...
without taking breaks...
and WILLING!!

well, the saddest thing was when...
Joelang said we did it 'in vain'...
and sam was angry too,
that we came for nth...
im pissed with mr tan...
thinking that he calls the shots... of his ass??!
well, so much for getting a spoilt day in return...
i was more pissy that i didnt use the time to study chinese..!
spoilt my plans...
because the night before i happily did 1hr + of Amaths instead... (:
i dunno why but im addicted to basic integration!!
so i cannt rmbr what i did at night...
lolx, well 4get it...
i only recall chattin with mummy...
not wanting to sleep...?
guess so...
*when will band straighten out... and how soon...
i know the stress on the leaders...
but they too cannot add on right?

well, pretty please... let band hang on at least until 2nd june...
**i dunno if its gd news or bad... dajie (char) is coming back to Sg on 2nd june 6.30am...
dunno if she will get jetlag... but she wants to come to the concert... and mum's paying for her first...
i hope she enjoys it nevertheless... well, im looking forward to her CHOCOS!! everyone of my dear frens will get a share too... dun worry (:
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sunday
sunbeam choir...
quite okay, im more into it now...
we gonna have abreak till 2 wks later...
we shld have breaked earlier...
that way i can settle Os feeling less stressed...
but anyway, service was erh...
surprise...
daddi (jared)'s family... up onstage...
it felt like Sound of music...
because got 2 guitars and a few parts...
that's why he's my daddy... marmi too...
all muscial de... plus all my jies... all piano-inclined...
just realised it... lolx
well, sunday school was debate...
and lots of secretive laughter, wahahx...
aiyoz... well, it was fun...
I HATE SUNDAYS THAT HAVE TO RAINN!!
it makes moving ard very troublesome!
we went opp for lunch... 3 to one umbrella...
went home, did chinese.. like real...
slept first... for 2 hours... on mama's bed...
then woke up sleepily... to do FOUR hours of chinese...
i cant believe it... first in my life ever...

but i definitely i WONT LIE about studying... and i dunt anyway..
if i feel its insufficient to my expectations... i say so...
if i really never did... i will say i didnt...
if i did, well i say yep...
this time, i nearly thought it was insufficient because i was nervous all day...
but right into the night, i slept at 10.30pm, and i think yep, its enough!
watched Xmen 3... erh, worst quality ever... what to do sg$2/-
and only watched 40mins... lolx, thnks to my mum naggy nag nag....
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monday
i thank God for today...
no matter how it really went...
i think its enough...
i felt his presence in a way...
since home the moment i wake up...
since few days ago... i was scared...
today morning, jittery... super nervous...
woke up so many times LOL

finally got out of bed at 5.45am... (earlier than sch day!)
then had bathed for 20mins? eat a complete breakie? played piano? walked the house down?
then finally went into ma's bedroom... asked for a prayer...
im scared... worse still, i got to sit next to the jerkass
i dunno what may happen anyway but i guess it was sort of testing?
but well, i dont hate him but thinks he's really dumb in a jerky way...
well, got on the 7.05am from wdlands train...
got freaking nervous about being late...
the timing seemed weird...
the first 2 stations, not a single PHS soul...
it freaked me... because i dont go to school so late...
so well saw one or two souls at sbg... felt better... but weird!
reached sch, realised its not very early but sort of actually...
well, paper 1 was okay... 1/2 hour to waste...
my plan of narrative got ruined... lolx
wrote baozhang instead... 3pg!?!
the procedures were freaking me nervous... lolx
ps: huili is a GOOD HAND SQUEEZER! (it relieved 75% of my nervousness)
and paper 2 i was just on the last minute... great...
i guess its nice to be able to understand what you read?
so im happy with the paper... just hope it doesnt turn out less than expected...
just dont fail can liaox... im SO NOT going to retake! im OVER with chinese! for life...
that is if i really go POLY (:
well, meet up sis and mum at Lavender...
wanted to get done with passport...
and pack up to leave for Msia...
actually, its not going there that's fun...
but the ppl going...
esp the grp of ppl, hu has to poor-thingly travel from Msia to Sg, every other day...
LOLx, dumbb... but that's what our parents all surprisingly agreed to... tRaVeLiNg hahax
well, so sad dith cannot go le, i think...
and had a $5 lunch at ICA... so NOT WORTH! crap meall...
fish that smelled of corn? curry chicken that's made up of BONES!
noodle overcooked? only nice thing is Mountain Dew! (:
well, hmmz, mum gotta go Aunty Hannah's house...
so me and racheal took train home...
guess what... while going to meet them...
i was playing hp game, and i blurly got out at Dhoby Ghaut!
going home, rach was reading and i was replying Yiling (cuzzie)
and we missed the station to land in Tanjong Pagar!
waliaox... so blur today...

and reached Causewaypoint...
i treated my sister to GELARE... o level chinese celebration!
lolx, well then went shopping... racheal bought ear studs...
got stuck in every single shop! until mum called like 5 times?
went over to civic centre, got stuck in the library...
finally got home by 5.30pm...
i so damned happy...
O levels off my shoulders...
too crazy to even forget that tmr still got pract exam...
LOLX, i still wanted to go shopping...
* i was thinking of types of rewards i might want... (exam hall lolx)
toapayoh/orchard/bugis... SHOPPING LARHX!
or moviieing... i miss moviieing with that bunch of ppl... (daddi, dith, joan, george blarhx...)
or going shopping with pam/jes/yiling (cuzzie) plus jolene dey all probably...
but i promised pam we'd shopped till we'd drop in Msia... and at all cost of HOL' lessons... :P

**well, our last concert... i did dream that it turn out great... not literally...
but in the sense of a wish... sadly, even before i finished wishing... a disaster came...
how worse can it be... i still wish to have a good memory of it...

***was thinking back... 2i and stuff... plus church close ppl...
suddenly mt ophir came back to me... [miss my jie who will never come back to us]
well, we had a GREAT time... and i really mean great... the water was cool and refreshing...
and i was missing tioman times too... SCUBA DIVING ROX! its almost like full-time scubadiving?

becca (: ♥ 5:51 PM


Friday, May 26, 2006
Last day of sch... HAIX

friday

it's the last day of school...
and i feel like crying...
i cant cry anyway...
but lots of things have happened
and more are still to happen...
and are currently happening too...

*how i dont like my mum to disrupt atmospheres...
as in chains of thoughts!! arghx!

**currently listening to Phantom of the Opera

***was playing phantom awhile ago...
i never play piano or listen to this for so longg lerhx...
actually i was escaping the songs...
it will simply bring back too many memories... (ryke knows)
and im scared i cant handle...
haiz... so today i wanna face it... i dunno larhx...

****looking back at some photos i chanced upon...
i so miss the days we can go to the Airforce/Navy openhouses...
they rocked so well... its in the blood i guess...
my dad's craze... whahax since i was young...

-proper blogging-
today started fine...
i woke up early...
in time to take the once 'usual' train...
but i chose to take my own sweet time...
so i was like dots... 2 trains later than 'usual'...

so i reached school at 7.08 like that...
and assembly was freaky...
yesterday i saw janice lim againn...
and each time i wear slippers, i always see her...
how sueh... (sports day also)
and whatsmore... i will keep seeing her for awhile...
so she sat infront of our class today...
staring at people who talked...
and i was quiet okay... but she looked at me as if familiar...
waliaox... sibei freaky siahx... lucky she didnt bother me... (:

had english lesson... briefing... whahax
of holiday hw... wonderfulll...

had PE... played vball...
after a very long time...
i thought i wouldnt play...
but i did... and it went great i guess...
only when mr sim there to count then we managed to do a 10-cont...
after he left, we cant even manage a 5?
and the ball landed near mr wee twice and mr lim once... haiz...
so freaked shuman out... lolx

had social studies lesson...
guess what i ponned... but seriously i cant feel guilty...
im too bothered to care....
it is seriously a band crisis larhx...
what else can you call a collapsing band...
with no leader/teacher/instructor to fend for us...
and yet people to destroy our moods further...!?
well, and disunity at the wrong time...!?
well, so band members were gathering at every possible corner...
and for once, in a whole lifetime's MIRACLE!
debbie foo, is the calmest and coolest-headed...
when everybody is practically going nuts...
because usually, she's the first to stress up
anyway, it is a compliment, girl... (:

well, i did so love to play Indiana Jones...
seriously.
i love movie soundtracks!
but i guess we got to forgo it larhx...
but it is partially the school's fault too!
how can they arrange a concert to be in the same week as O levels?!
freaking STUPID! *speechless*

school ended...
watched the tribute we put up for lily teo...
its nice, serious... and sweet and emotional...
FAREWELL ZHANG LAOSHI! will always remember youu! (":

class window pane broken... hahax
lame sehx...
then hang around in school...
waiting for sarah...
then with biehoon and lihui...
and then with yang, cathi, xp, fishyy, priscilla...
because im suppose to reach causeway at 3pm... siianx
lolx, and worse still, hp no batt...

went to macs in civic centre to study chinese...
well, then lunch at pizza hut in woodlands...
saw a few familiar faces... (graduates and sec3 phs peps)
and then we had pasta!! *chicken baked royale*
PLUS pizza *personal pan*
super nice siahx...
then went popular to buy stuff...
met my junior...
then went home...
-end of proper-

how i wish today didnt need to be so sadd...
because its the last day of school...
for recess was with zhiwei... talking about band stuff

siianx!
today it gave me lots of vague images of my memories...
how 2integrity was lively and playful and noisy...
and how the old days used to be...

how we were never ever so divided in a band...

how we used to have fun during PE, in the sense of real long fun...
and how we never treasured it enough...
how the last day of school in 2I felt...
how sadd... how happy... how nervous to part...

how exams and studies didnt really matter a life and death...
how we bonded as a class... when teachers complained we were not at all...

how we went out to play... even as in sec3...

how music dominated my life...
how im never too busy to think...
how time is so short now...


how even the 4th floor seems so deserted to us...
how we are not free to be as a class... even as a gathering...


how i very much want to let tears flow like burdens... and sad memories... and sentimental ones...
how i feel sad when i see the photos that once dominated my life...


well, i really want to re-live those moments...
most of all, i wished everything was as it was...
how 2I rawked my life...
it wont ever be the same...
*evidence: how our sec4 express cohord is the most bonded batch as a whole... throughout our senior's history!!*


**dajie is in California now!! and she's chatting with me!!! charmaine totally rawks... she says she's bought lots of chocolate!!! wowx... i wan the whole factory... whahax, so much for a chocolic... lolx... haiz... do come back soon, and safely! (": **

btw, jiayou everybody... the LAST MILE for chinese! (:

well, yep back to it
i so felt like going somewhere to scream actually... lolx
but nevermind larhx... everybody also barhx...
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i feel so like blogging about you...
but i shall just be vague...
my head is so gonna burst...
i hate that side of a mean you...
occasionally coming up...
and i dont like it... totally...


but...
nevermind... i shant say anything more...
but i guess one week is just not enough to end this...
arghx! i so hate you mann...

i know who i saw in you...
and i know its there...
but your other side is just not right...


i promised by graduation it will end...
but i thought i should try again...
but sounds like it sort of failed? no...
haix, i dont know larhx...
i wont live as though im blind either...
because im not...
that's what i dont like... the pretense! ass
`so when are you youu?` *tearx*

becca (: ♥ 5:07 PM


Thursday, May 25, 2006
wellx, hurmphx...

tuesday

hmmz, i think all went fine?
boring intensive...
but seriously, it made me more serious about O levels...
more scared in fact...
and more into doing something about it...
haiz...

well, i ponned class after recess
*guilty* alright...
well was in the library...
with cathi...
with B' chinese and malay ppl...
well, see some ppl play monopoly... boringgg siahx...
but anyway, i made it up to myself...
i finished the entired 10+ close passages to be done... (":
so im satisfied...

didnt go band... anyway i had headache all day the day b4...
and a brewing sore throat coming up...
well, i should really takaire of my throat i guess...

lucky never go bukit panjang again... sooo farr!
we went causewaypoint and had pasa malam food for lunch...

then went home before i had to go tuition...
got the same chatterbox again... everybody pissing off lehx..
next wk got "plot" LOL
discussed lots about baoyue coming to our sch concert... (for yiyuan or for us!?!?)



wednesday

quite an okay day..
had a very very bad sore throat in the beginning of the day...
strepsils was helpfull... the very very strong one... i sneezed like siaox...
but it didnt really help debbie, who lost her voice...
but miraculously she found her voice by the end of the day... (:

well, felt relieved when there was chapel before intensive chi...
well, we sang God is good... and For You alone
quite a gd start i guess...
i dunno y, nth speciall... but it just was a gd start for me...
stayed back for the Global Prayer thing... -i dun tink i gg-
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this is the moment ive been waiting for...
even as my dreams...
the day i c u stand out... as a child of God...
cuz i wldnt believe myself anymore... i wldnt b fooled time and time again...

till i really see it...
it brought my smile...
built upon a long awaited dreamm... wahhax whatever

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intensive chinese was recess the moment we went back to class...
how does that rox!
then we got to leave early at 12pm...
well, for concert rehearsal?
and i slept until people wake me up say gotta go... lolx

and i went band... as promised...
well, the rehearsal was time-wasting...
and mr tan very pissy...
lucky he never pissed off at my attendance anyway...
as long as he doesnt piss off at me, i cant be bothered any more...
wahahx, but i didnt like play very lan or whatever...
just that i was mind-wandering, until justina got pissed at me... lolx

reached home at about 7pm...


thursday
well, okay-day... then fun, then spoilt-rotten.. then okay again...

erm, hitched a ride from yang's car...
dunno y, im on time to take the train but very lazy to even walk anywhere..
then reached school... turned crazy in the happy sense...

then class was boring and longg...
mock exam? fail??! noisy HCL... lolx

then we had photography in seminar rm...
slacked in 4h all the way until sch end...
then pizza craze...
oh btw i got 13th position in class... "
gd/bad? i think improved right?
but its still far from expectations...
51+% => 13th??
haiz, so lan...

and then, had photography craze again...
until i eat pizza oso must take foto...
lolx, well its pathetic... nearly hand cramp...
imagine larhz left hand camera, right hand pizza?

then rushed home...
then uploaded fotos... bathed...
and guess what its crazy raining cats and dogs outside...
from Msia i guess... the mrt not so badd... sch also okay de...
my house rain until got mist... bus swimming on the road...
LOLX!
seriously larhx... the shelter oso like attap roof lidat...
an old man was hugging pole trying to balance on the curb...
so that he wldnt touch the water below it... lolx!

then rushed to band... i planned to stuf but cannt leh...
then practised abit before combine awhile...
and then kena kaopehed...
and band ended in a sad tone... i mean everybody...
and lucky ive mel to be there for me...
*thanks*

then went to amaths tuition by bus 852...
i didnt want to meet anyone on the train...
1st time i take bus there from sch though...
but i dunkaire...
i went to buy Hello Pandas to eat b4 i went up...
and i fully understood whatever i learned today...
in a long time since i did though... so ive cheered up...

well, chatted with sarah... and i got to go lerhx...

*uploaded all today's pict lerhx...
(under my profile of this blog, got the link 'pictures')
feel free-to-view

well, how i hate kaopehness and suannings...
let's just forget whatever happened okays...
im over with it anyways...
oh wells, other than that today was a cheery day... (:

becca (: ♥ 9:30 PM


Monday, May 22, 2006
today went fine (:

monday

okie okie...
today's great...
at least quite what i hope for...
everything's fine...
in and out of sch in a breeze...

-proper stuff-
woke up late...
pissed at racheal for taking her own sweettt time!
when im like 15mins left, every sec counts...
and guess what? she stretches her leg over the bed from a roller-chair...
to comb her HAIR!
so i was madd at her...
and she just tried to piss back at me...

so i left house late,
with dad..
walked reall fast...
missed the train by about 2 mins...
waliaox.. thnks a million to rach...
she gets the blame for not giving way, LOLX

well, took train @ 6.50plus from wdlands
met shimin on the way to sch...
chatted about 4eva21 with lynette and zw...

chinese lesson was super boring...
anyway, i was tryin to finish reading Silver Beach...

recess, super hungry i dunno y...
*im always hungry later when i eat breakfast, and not at all when i dun eat a thing...
** im always dehydrated when i drink water if i think i should, and do fine when i dunkaire...

after chinese intensive,
had free period all the way till sch ends...
was with lynette they all chatting all the way...
and trying to read Silver Beach..
and our class was the grand meeting point for all the express classes...
not one representative...
but evercoming-in groups...
it was so '2Integrity', that everybody noticed... --- running around, water stuff, screaming contest... blahx

after school,
went to Bukit Panjang Plaza...!!
somewhere that i seldom go...
its nice but its too far...
and i dont know how i got talk into going there...
its a quiet place, and almost for like students only

i know quite a few people staying near there,
but we didnt meet anyone...
much less phs students..

the PETSHOP was nice...
really cute shih tzus!
*doggiex rox the cutest!!*
okay, so we had light snacks,
sushi/gorengpisang/kuehs...
and window shopping...

im home now, and great...
nobody's at home...
nobody told me where everybody went!!
arghx!
so well, whatever...
-end of proper-

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well, im glad i only saw hueva-i-dunwan-see, twice..
lolx, i dunno, just glad that today is still quite in control...
i dunno how i long i can last...
but it will... it must...
one week will be up soon...
i musnt fail myself... haiz...
but im happy today okayz!

yupx, and today's devotion...
it gave me the answers...
to a dozen stuff... and confusion...
-so God will settle you for me, i dunnit fear when u feel like killing me...
-ive my rights, i do what i want... u wont restrict my life... u cant control me...

i used to have no fear academically...
my mum built the confidence for me...
but i killed it with my slackerness...
now im even afraid to do badly in something i wont fail...
*sadx*

Silver Beach-SummerLove-, is a nice stry...
alot about daily life stuff...
not very fantasy...
but quite true...
abit dramatic from middle to end...
but a nice one... *finally done with* (:

becca (: ♥ 5:18 PM


Sunday, May 21, 2006
sundays are always great as usual!! (:

sunday

every sunday is always a great day...
no matter the history of yesterday...
or even a thousand years ago...
that's why i thank God for Sundays (:

well, there's no special reason why i love sundays...
or why its so perfectly nice...
just simply because,
it always seems like i've got the whole time in the world?
or that i can find the joy with my church friends?
or that God was close this day...

-proper stuff-
woke up at about 8am?
and got ready for church...
had a brownie for breakfast...
(u can try tell me about it... lolx)

choir was okay--
alissa managed through the warmups...
and i added one more... 'the lips, the mouth, the tip of the tongue'
to replace the dumb scale-ups...

well, i was pissed at one point of time...
they sing as though they heard what i said,
but for me, i treated it as a test like how many heard it...
purposely putting the 2nd stanza right in front of them,
when they were told to sing 1st and 3rd in memory already...
great, so they dont listen actually...
and i made them sing from beginning till they understand englishh!

so it didnt go on for many times actually... only twice, i think that's lenient...
but i guess i sounded fierce LOLX
so whatever, at least they know im not going to be pushed ard by them
and anyway, i released early, not early but punctually...
1st time we got into the sanctuary less than 5mins late! hahax
-end of sunbeam choir stry-

okay, worship service was fine...
except racheal is as usual with her eccentric drawings...
and this time i ignored so long larhx, and she doesnt get it...
she's drawing a 'bad gurl', with voodoo doll eyes...
in the sanctuary!??! haiz...

well, at fellowship hall
chatted with pamela for very long...
had really nice almond biscuits...

went to sunday school,
its a video...
on Goliath historic times on present premises...
and Armageddon stuff from history...
i think its interesting...

went to eat lunch opposite...
with dith, kl, daddi they all larhx..
wasnt very hungry but finished my food...
gave jies the spongebob stuff, lolx
and took bus to go home with edith, jon, jared...

*so i guess quite a lot of youth going church camp...
and i mean even those with O level hol lessons...
poor me, alissa, edith, jared...
haiz, but i guess i'd have to pon some times...
if not, church camp will be a boring and tedious one this year...

home now,
dad gonna use comp soon...
got to go do more chinese, siianx...
(my mum says so)
-end of proper bloggin-

yesterday: went to causewaypoint for dinner, walk at pasa malam with kl.sheryl.sis.mum.me...
had jap pizza and went into the mall to windowshop with sheryl... then went to have dinner together with dad at foodcourt... nobody's hungry... and went home... watch tv... finish up the comphre i started on earlier... and went to bed...

*i am strong enough to face tomorrow already (:*

**songs that rox!! [recently]
-Beat of my heart, Hilary
-Wake up, "
-Fly, "
-Why not, " *why not be happy??*
-Our lips are sealed, " (A Cinderella Stry)
-Someone's watching O'vr me," (Raise ur voice!)

-Ultimate, Lindsay Lohan (Freaky Friday)
-That girl, " (Confessions of the teen drama queen)

-I'm with you, Avril
-My happy ending *still rox*, "
-Nobody's home, "

-Behind these hazel eyes, Kelly Clarkson
-Breakaway," (Princess Diaries)

-Perfect, Simple plan
-Don't wanna think about you, "

-Reaching for heaven, Diana (Ice Princess)

***not rocking but great enough---
-Just the girl, Click five *bittersweet*
-Listen to your heart, D.H.T.??
-For you i will, Teddy Geiger??

becca (: ♥ 2:03 PM



sundays are always great as usual!! (:

sunday

every sunday is always a great day...
no matter the history of yesterday...
or even a thousand years ago...
that's why i thank God for Sundays (:

well, there's no special reason why i love sundays...
or why its so perfectly nice...
just simply because,
it always seems like i've got the whole time in the world?
or that i can find the joy with my church friends?
or that God was close this day...

-proper stuff-
woke up at about 8am?
and got ready for church...
had a brownie for breakfast...
(u can try tell me about it... lolx)

choir was okay--
alissa managed through the warmups...
and i added one more... 'the lips, the mouth, the tip of the tongue'
to replace the dumb scale-ups...

well, i was pissed at one point of time...
they sing as though they heard what i said,
but for me, i treated it as a test like how many heard it...
purposely putting the 2nd stanza right in front of them,
when they were told to sing 1st and 3rd in memory already...
great, so they dont listen actually...
and i made them sing from beginning till they understand englishh!

so it didnt go on for many times actually... only twice, i think that's lenient...
but i guess i sounded fierce LOLX
so whatever, at least they know im not going to be pushed ard by them
and anyway, i released early, not early but punctually...
1st time we got into the sanctuary less than 5mins late! hahax
-end of sunbeam choir stry-

okay, worship service was fine...
except racheal is as usual with her eccentric drawings...
and this time i ignored so long larhx, and she doesnt get it...
she's drawing a 'bad gurl', with voodoo doll eyes...
in the sanctuary!??! haiz...

well, at fellowship hall
chatted with pamela for very long...
had really nice almond biscuits...

went to sunday school,
its a video...
on Goliath historic times on present premises...
and Armageddon stuff from history...
i think its interesting...

went to eat lunch opposite...
with dith, kl, daddi they all larhx..
wasnt very hungry but finished my food...
gave jies the spongebob stuff, lolx
and took bus to go home with edith, jon, jared...

*so i guess quite a lot of youth going church camp...
and i mean even those with O level hol lessons...
poor me, alissa, edith, jared...
haiz, but i guess i'd have to pon some times...
if not, church camp will be a boring and tedious one this year...

home now,
dad gonna use comp soon...
got to go do more chinese, siianx...
(my mum says so)
-end of proper bloggin-

yesterday: went to causewaypoint for dinner, walk at pasa malam with kl.sheryl.sis.mum.me...
had jap pizza and went into the mall to windowshop with sheryl... then went to have dinner together with dad at foodcourt... nobody's hungry... and went home... watch tv... finish up the comphre i started on earlier... and went to bed...

*i am strong enough to face tomorrow already (:*

**songs that rox!! [recently]
-Beat of my heart, Hilary
-Wake up, "
-Fly, "
-Why not, " *why not be happy??*
-Our lips are sealed, " (A Cinderella Stry)
-Someone's watching O'vr me," (Raise ur voice!)

-Ultimate, Lindsay Lohan (Freaky Friday)
-That girl, " (Confessions of the teen drama queen)

-I'm with you, Avril
-My happy ending *still rox*, "
-Nobody's home, "

-Behind these hazel eyes, Kelly Clarkson
-Breakaway,"

-Perfect, Simple plan
-Don't wanna think about you, "
-Reaching for heaven, Diana (Ice Princess)

-Just the girl, Click five *bittersweet*

-Listen to your heart, D.H.T.??

-For you i will, Teddy Geiger??

becca (: ♥ 2:03 PM


Saturday, May 20, 2006
well im better off today (:

saturday

today's fine..
just monotone in the morning when i woke up twice...
once at 7 and another at 8am...
i missed the train by about 2 mins...
and was late for band...
but a few others too, met sam...

well, band is like tiring... and freezing...
justina and i were frozen like dunno what..
and weixiang who says he's hot, got brainfreezed whahax

okay we played combine for 4hrs with a 10min break...
and i sort of almost got gastric halfway..
well, it was overall fine until i really cannot take it towards the end of band pract

and left before dismissal with sam...
took train to causewaypoint...
meet cathi and jingwen for a light lunch...
bubbletea and sushi... *yumx*
saw joel n john at pastamania...
went to timezone to play awhile...

went home...
sister and sheryl went to yf...
i didnt feel like going suddenly...
maybe going to pasa malam with family later,
to buy something i wanted whahax
(if its still there...)

haiz..
-u mean absolutely nothing now-
but leave me alone u two asses

becca (: ♥ 4:27 PM


Friday, May 19, 2006
the day i cant stop my tears...

friday

my eyes hurt and are tired...
*okay im pissing off at my sister, poor gal, sry kaes..*

yep im dizzy from crying...
im very speechless actually...

nth much about today at school or anything...
dad fetch? and there's band... and went home
yep i so wanna pontang today,
but i dunwan to be labelled pon sku go band...
but dumb instructor nvr come...
so waste of time...

so i wont really blog sense...
as in, i need this entry to let it out...
patient enough, you can continue reading..
otherwise, its okay...
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alright... i have had enough for many times...
i mean of this...
is the 2nd time im tryin and i dunno...
its risky, O level chinese is in a week...
but i cant survive through if i cont like this...

i so badly want to get that freakass out of my head and life..
i dont wish that he gets cursed or down on luck...
but i just simply despise that freakass after today...
whose pretense was even supreme to a chameleon...
so appearance vs reality...

and i chose to believe a long time ago...
that no matter how cruel a person can be...
there is forever a tinge of good...
i dunno what made him so deprived of this 'good'
that he has to pretend... i really cannot imagine...
okay many people dun understand what im toking about...
but i very well see this fact...
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guys challenge each other to find favour...
real friendships btwn them are rare but there...
but if u really want to know...
the first person i really despised in my entire life is the jerkass, bob...
i dun really care if he reads this...
but i know he's more than a jerk...
and a clearer form of the freakass, as in minus the pretense...

well, this jerkass says things to gain favour,
if you really notice...
things that may hurt or just to act stupid...
pretty dumbb... whatever...

another thing is he boasts too... of heaven's that he thought he reached..
but in a mirror... he's actually a loser and acting winner...
that's why i despise him...
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-okay the whole view of everything-
guess what im not afraid to say this all...
ive been made stronger compared to sec1...
God used you... thanks
but now, i must say that a strong front has limits...
so i finally found the weak part of me...
i have to let it out... before i really breakdownn
and i really wish to just scream it out and let every tear flow dry...
most of all, i want to put it into the past, and get ready for exam...


it felt like a contract...
that if i pretended everything's fine...
i would be able to get through exams and live fine...
but if i decided to think more and find out more truths...
my exams goes... i hate this binding... i wanna get out!



band ended at about 6pm i think...
i was walking to the toilet...
and i saw nazri and jerkass with the soccer ball...
obviously someone decided to zhum me...
purposely or not i dont care, but i bet it is...
and most likely its jerkass...
so well, it hit real hard for goodness sake...
half of my face went red... mostly my ear...
lucky my glass didnt breakk...
seriously i was really pissed...
i smack bob... whatever..


but the thing is...
its the 2nd time today...
and well, that jerkass is always trying to do something to me as always...
be it with the hockey stick/bball/ vball/ whatever notx...
so well, the freakass came along...
saw him coming towards as i head out of the toilet...
and he asked jerkass to zhum somemore...



okay it hurtx both ways...
and for the first time in a long while..
im not afraid to speak this...
but it really hurtx...
im human too...


was chatting with sarah as i took train home...
i seriously finally want to be over with this now...
and hopefully fast...
anyway i cant cont pretending to not hear what i dont want to hear...
that freakass has taken a worse image of jerkass...
i dunno what to say...
but i give myself till 5th july...
the day i will officially,
considered him out of my life...
i hope i can do it...
and i want to remember how i despise him...

all a facade... every single bit...
i cant and i wont wait...
for the day he loses his freakass' pretense...

for the second he is back to the person beneath it...
the person i saw... imperfect but real... and hidden
it doesnt need to be to me...
its in everyday...

-end of assholic events-

well its the first time im so honest about how i feel...
i really wish my head will stoppit... i dun wan to think lerhx...
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God tell how to ask for a miracle... that heals wounds in a week
God tell me how to not do something i really dont wish to do, and i cant stop myself...
God tell me how let my tears flow free and fast and finish my screaming soon...
God tell me how to cope with life on monday...
but most of all,
God tell me how you want me to react when the evil finds fun in bullying your child, who chose to ignore till the day she breaks down...

*slipping into the clouds above, finding that warm hand*

becca (: ♥ 7:11 PM


Thursday, May 18, 2006
the day i wanna breakdwn in a long time

thursday

ass..
ok that's all i feel like saying... plus somemore, 4get it

i guess i came to school in a hopeful mood...
that stuff will go right...
that a dozen stuff in my mind will be sorted out...
partially successfull, how i totally dread sch now...

dad drove me to sch...
anyway, i figured out i'd feel lost when i take the mrt again...
everything worked out like it did for the past few days...

lessons = papers coming back...
today, results were more encouraging...
not that i did extremely well
but it seemed miraculous enough to me... as long as i didnt fail
this is what happens when you feel so torn apart by exam results...
---chem 73% (:
added one more mark...
mrs teo is always so nice...
this is the 1st paper i cared to get marks (even 1mark)
when it doesnt even change a grade!
i feel totally hopeless... >.<
even when i got at least 1 A...
---geog 70% (:
my next A...
a total surprise...
that i went nuts when i got my paper back...
but it got pulled down by my SS --> combined: 55/-
---chinese p1: 59% p2:63%... >.<
thank God i passed my overall... excluding oral n listening
but its so borderline...
its freakin me out...
---eng p1:65% p2:57%
its borderline too...
but im so surprised that my paper one can be stronger than paper two!
serious, im surprised...
btw, im glad its the end of receiving results...
its freaking enough for me...
*haaaiixxxx*

school was great for me till the moment it ended...
i so dread it...
ok i got pangsehed...
well, is she asked to go for lunch de, i wasnt the one who asked...
well, its okay if she really gonna go hangout with people i dunwanna see..
but she didnt have to say that she didnt confirm and that it isnt her fault at all??!
got quite pissed actually... but whatever...
fakers...

went to causewaypoint... alone
i wanted to be alone to think anyway...
i was very preoccupied... it didnt even feel like Wdlands when i alighted...
saw justina and her friends...
well, i dont know, i was really very hungry but later not at all...
so i had a coconut desert pie from kfc for lunch...

went to walk aimlessly around the mall... till im tired and gtg home...
well i took 20mins plus to walk home when it takes only 7min for my dad...
i even thought of going into RP to walk somemore... but im tired... and very blurred...
saw yang who didnt go sch...

currently online, sarah's playing funny, no mood, later still got tuition, i rather sleepp...
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well, i sure dislike that jerk bob...
the one who boasts as if he's on top of the world...
sees earth... and got dumppped into the deepest trench..
sure deserve it, but well, im not as mean to laugh back...
just that he'll repeat his jerkass ways
and think he can eat a fireball... oh whatever mann..
i do hate his curses though...
and i do hope he finds himself in the deepest ditchh..
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what's so fun mannx...
now i doubt i saw a different person...
i recall how it was 2 years ago...
i now i started it...
fine, my fault kaes...
but realise i cant end it okay...
wasnt my decision...
but i worry how i face Os in a week...
*tears*


i so wanna breakdown...
how this week seems so longgg...
never-ending... how i finally dread sch...
how i hate routines now...
and how music and everything close to me feels farr...
how i dont have a bestie to walk till my tears run dry...
but most of all, how much i cant let the tears stream down like it wished...
how my eyes hurt the moment it swell, even before i breakdwn...
-im tired-... and well, i bet nobody notices... nvm, its okay...
anyway, they may know but wont understand...


i wanna be strong and pretend everything didnt happen...
but it so a pretense i cant even take it... whatever..
i just keep pretending im a wood block...
im still working on it... but...
its just not the way it is years back...


ohh, how i need someone to prick my true feelings..
that they may wear out...
and it'll be over with... soon probably..
just hopefully..
otherwise, O levels gonna come and i must pretend nth happen
study hard and finish it, 4gettin who i am...


ok i got to go... got better stuff that cont to let my thoughts flow to no end...
wHeRe WiL tHe SmIlEz Be, WhEn ThE tEaRx RoL dOwN...

becca (: ♥ 4:28 PM


Wednesday, May 17, 2006
i so wanna SCREAMM... let me screammm!

wednesday

ok i so not sane... so dont mind me...
witnesses: huili, zw... wahahx all those around me in the hall 2nd time...
the moment i stepped out of the hall to go toilet, i literally went nuts...
ok i think its slow mental illness...
alright, i hate this...
when i cant cry and scream it out...
i verbally go nuts... and then mentally...
this is so me... when its extreme, shitx!

right, i still cannot access mlg... stupid larhx!
ok my mouth is so not clean today...
in the sense of not purposely vulgar or whatever...
but whatever results i get today,
i just let out... waliaox! haixxxx

ok my results aint that badd...
but i deproved, compared to cmmn test1.... (which i thot was bad enough!)
haiz, i deserve slackiness.. after working hardd
but i dont deserve anything more mannx
my brain's at its best...
but the paper s***
ok i so am nuts...

---my maths (both) is a total depression lar okays...
who cares how they moderate or how everybody fares...
but i failed A' and passed borderline E'... that's dumb... (diff in % is 14)
last time was 9%... and ive been trying to close the gap...
great, so im like worse...

---my lang (eng and chi)... totally pulled the skies down...
although i just realised i actually improved...
but its really frightening...
to see eng like just go over the fence?
to see chinese drop from the sky... (A2-B4??)
---well, Lit is always like the SAME marks...
and i really mean exactly the same! (56??)

---my sciences ROCK my life... as always..
i just cant deny that... since pri 3??
so chem 72%... i was sadd that i missed the A1...
but nvm, it cheered me... my 1st A this midyear (:
as always, my survival kit? as in subject... i'd die if i get anything lower than A2...
like i cried when i got a b3 last paper... >.< it just affects me totally...
my bio is like surprisingly maintaining... not as gd as last paper, but okay... im satisfied!
i still dunno my phy results... because i cant get login... so well, i guess whatever comes, i'll take it...
after all, science is my last hope...

---my humanes, i dont know what to say
my ss just downed me just now...
as i mentioned, i totally went nuts the longer i stayed in the hall...
no matter what we talked about
no matter how huili tried to encourage, harsh but tough and strong...
haiz, my best topic, lolx... my confidence of ss came from that chapter...
my source-base is always a goner... but there it goes... 40%? i wnna die...
i so bet, geog cant cover that... it totally takes a MIRACLE... which wont come just for me...

-okay, proper blogging-
morning, woke up just early enough...
i dont want to be so systemised like a robot in routine...
but i cant live without one...
because the moment im not timed to catch a train...
im so in danger of getting to school late...
after much rushing and leaving the house late,
i managed to be just in time for the train after 6.42@ wdlands...
the 2nd train from my usual... and guess what...
it suddenly felt weird to take a train to school at that time... lolx

okay, was hungry...
had kinda buenos in the train wahhax, what to do...
then reached school... went toilet with sarah
went to take jlc for syl, and another with lynette...
*everybody takes the E2 hub for granted --- evil! lolx (exploitation of bks?)

got back some papers... actually, alot of papers... sadd
today isnt the right day to take back papers...
all the papers that are returned in the hall,
somehow spells bad... haix

okay, lessons were a tire..
recess was the other kinda bueno...
and sleepyheadd...
i wanted to sleep to take my mind off things...
yesterday i used handphone games... but no batt now larhx
and well, the classroom was cozy
except that some guys decided that its their job to keep me awake... -waliaox-
ok whatever, i wasnt really sleeping anyway...

than hall, papers...
and left school, asap...
i didnt want to see anybody...
took train alone... met people... and mel's someone lolx
went to causewaypoint to walk off my mind...
window-shop at Esprit
and saw carol at kfc...
went to 7-11 for a doughnut
and saw reagen and hpt ppl...
went to delifrance for an anti-depressant... (toffee eclair!?) *yummiex!*
and went home... ... ..

watched MI3, erm, not as nice as i expected
no head no tail...
never end like what the stupid Rabbit Foot is...!
okay, its on dvd for all i care, and the videoing is crappx...
whatever... i just think that we dont worth playing a dumb MI theme for the performance...
-end of proper blogging-


well, maybe go downstairs to use computer...
i mean yang's... cause my dumb one cannot access mlg...
and im dying to now my phy results... wahhax like reall...

well, im so confused now...
in a dozen sense...
1stly: i know i have to chiong O levels, the coming one...
but im so hesitant and discouraged...
2ndly: i know i wanna scream it out and maybe cry... for more than one reason...
but im just not up to it... and its killing...
3rdly: God feels near everyday but somehow far... why?
4thly: i want to be around the people, but actually rather be alone...
as in i feel lost... like in pretense...
i dont know what im talking about... but i just know im tired...
plus appearance vs reality in an unknown sense that is just what happens to be in my head...
im thinking too much... i dont know if i can take it... but i need a break...
i hope i can still hold on till tmr ends... and till weekend and till june hol... and till church camp... and till O levels... and till dec hol'... and till we graduate... and maybe till life's over... LOLX, okay im indeed down mentally... (:

becca (: ♥ 5:47 PM


Tuesday, May 16, 2006
i donno what ta sayyyy!!

tuesday

okay right, i really dont know how to say this...
as in, its either im really good at acting this whole time...
or its that ive become a wooden block all this while...
baoyue heard me and she said she understood, lolx... hopefully hahax
its like super duper queasy in me... and i hate it...
the last time it happened like this, was choral night II 2004...
and guess what i hate pretending...
hahax, like zw said she wanted to cry but cant too...
haiz, i dunno when this will go away... ... ... ...

it hurtx, and im reacting like im fine...
seriously i am fine...
i deceived myself...
ok well, but i really am happy when im happy...
only that, currently, i realised this today...
nothing nasty... but it crapx in my result...
and i have no feelings outwardly...
but inside i wanna screamx out loud...
i play handphone game like i dunkaire mr tan...
but its to take off my mindd... oh mannx...
i hate my emaths resultx! it thrashed my day!
i didnt fail... but what am i going to do!?!
oh yea there's a next time... just to maintain a pass only!?!
chinese i got 44/70, and i thought i failed...
i didnt speak a word until i realised it was not upon 100..
am i happy that i pass...
because i mean it when i told my mum i'll totally give up chinese if i fail midyears (overall i mean)

my only supporting subject now is chem...
IT'S MY LIFE...
if it goes, i go... i die... no hope u understand?

so i hope im really fine...
but neither do i want to be "depressed"...
anyway i wldnt know if im wld b...
so i shant be... i'll be cheerful always... "


-okay proper blogging...-
woke up like 6.15am, badd...
didnt plan to take the usual train...
but it usually makes me late when i dont plan to catch a train...
lucky me, met zongyang car... got a ride to school... early

phototaking... was with huili they all...
well, was fun in a way...
but scared it turns out ugly... wahahx
what a memory, but cute...

choco muffin... zhihui gimme de... huili say poison, wahhax
shared with zw they all

took back papers...
chem not yet, heng... today's not the right day...seriously...
so its tmr, im scared... really scared... its my life rmbr!
zw got A1 for emaths...
i really mean it when i congrat her... its a miracle...
but seriously, im like those who "hate" people jkingly for doing well...
it pisses me... not the jealousy part... but the attitude... but i dont mean to like conflict with it ok

lunch then band...
new score?!?! what the...
two weeks... plus O level chinese... i cant stop this reminder...!
and a freaking performance at a so no-class place for $10 or $15 ?!
dumb.. ok so way to go everybody... we just have to put up with the unnecessary pressure
but rmbr we are in it together... everyone of us...

chem tuition...
late for like 50mins? my mum will kill me if she knows...
i promise she will...
but she didnt... whahax, im honest and she didnt...
she jumped though... lolx
what to do, MI theme... haiz, boring tune... lolxx

pasa malam (wdlands)
bought sponge bob stickers for my 2 'jies'... whahax, they wanted it so muchh..
and so i got it for them lorhx...
bought fav fried fish for mum and sister (sick with fever)... wellx
met fiona.priscilla.yang...
yang treated us to bubbletea... (: *yumx*...but full!
went home at 7plus...

dinner...
upload fotos into comp... and the web...
send link to siying...
-end of proper blogging-

okay im so gonna burst!
i dont know what i want...
there's no turning back...
but i know i want to cry...
but i cant... its badd
and well, its that 'jerk' image of bob (i dun hate him but he's a total jerk in the inside) i saw in you that day...
and i detested that image... i never had a perfect image okay... but please never this... not ever...
well, maybe what some people say is right... childish... whatever... its how i get over the next 10days, so that it'll be holidays... and no school... ... *haiz, the stuff that made me dread today*

becca (: ♥ 8:58 PM



pictures... (:

this is at roxy square... not at all like the brandname ROXY! whahax, i had grandma's day at the international buffet lunch... (btw, the food is more to asian /eastern... and i so do prefer Baccarat restaurant @ plaza park royal!!) and my sister is acting dumb, whahax... this is one clean escalator sideview i guess...


the previous, previous kayaking + campfire yf trip... i duno if it'll eva be the same again... but i seriously miss those times!! this is pasir ris park... evon 'adopted sis by daddi'.edith 'jie'.joan (:

after church, the makeup kayaking @ ecp... totally rox, only that the singles always pangseh the doubles, big larhx!! that's... jared 'daddi'. george's finger.joel 'half-bro funky'.my sister. my dad's legs wahahx, great time!

i like this foto, hahax... it's taken at east coast... and lying down, the breeze rox and so does the scenery... (: like duckweed and we underwater? ok that's my imagination... whahax -gd friday-

this is how RP looks at about 7pm... its late but its brightly-lit... and everyone from my blk can see who's doing what, even with a camera-zoom!! lolx much less in the day... *i wont b spying though*

yeah, and i misss this!! very much... CHOCO FONDUE! this is at plaza park royal (next to Rendezvous hotel), Baccarat restaurant... grandma bdae... and its really EX! n i mean it! how it rox, u dun wanna ask... (:
-chocoholic-

okay yep, and here's me and my sister, at home going out... (the only foto out of many tt she actually lks at the camera!)

ok i miss my horn... shiny goldy thing... but it takes more polishing to shine okay! not just because its new!


becca (: ♥ 8:18 PM


Monday, May 15, 2006
the perfect life... haiz

okay life cant be perfect and never will be perfect... but just how we make it seem perfect and enjoy it perfectly...
im glad i was truly happy this 5-day holiday...
i had loads of fun, shopping till i drop, but i didnt splurge okay...
because im scared to buy something i didnt like so much after all... lolx

monday
hey mondays arent always blue okay...
im supposedly grounded...
from effect of today....
because i went out everyday of the 4 days...
but the funny thing... is that...
i still went out today...
with my mum duhh!
to celebrate mothers' day for her mum... wahhax

well we had buffet lunch...
when i hate breakfast only an hour ago...
i woke up as i like..
had to eggs and bread (which i had to go dwnstairs to aunty angela's to get...)
and it felt like Sentosa times... when we had hol' together... and we ran from huts-away to get stuff...
the morning breeze was really cool and refreshing... (at 11am!)
so well i was reading The Ruling Class and got stuck on that bk all day... *it rox ok!*
* the book's nice... and the books i usually read are my type and are always nice to me... but of course, there are exceptions sometimes... ok like duhh...
but well, the book is so like presentday situation and is like diary-type... finished it today though... hahax
well, there's a character with a name i think its cool? or cute?... Ryder hahax, well he's so like perfect guy? non-exsistent i guess...
**i dont know why... but the word 'jerk' is stuck in my mind... with an application of some people... haiz, i dont know... but i have some in mindd whahax

back home watched Zorro again... wahahx...
this time is the whole 2 hrs plus okay... not just the last hour, lolx...
its totally nice... ok i mentioned yesterday too

then dinner with dad, no sister...
she's sleeping over at my mum's fren's hse!! hurmphx!
sometimes i wonder how bias it can get, lolx
how come she gets her 1st sleepover at sec1, and me not even one till now...
its because she no sch tmr larhx...
well, i suppose im the 'only child' for now, how does that sound!?
and also, had a really nice goreng pisang for dinner... too full to eat any other stuff

yesterday: guess what? we went out again... its like addicted or what? 'cause when i say go out, is mostly like window-shopping at some nice place wahahx... we went suntec... or not really... we parked there only... we went to Citylink to shop... had tea and bread lolx... and then shop somemore, all the way to RafflesCity... and into Robinson's where me and my sister spend a long time looking at gurls' stuff... whahax, and vanadalised our hand like nuts... as if we were really going to buy anything... no $$ larhx, even if i wanted to...
and had dinner there, well i had tahu telor, totally nice... and then, other nice stuff... we went to Precious Thots, and took fotos until we got chased out... dumbb, wahahx but the staff were friendly though... went to Carrefour to shop at 9.30pm!?! and back home at about 11pm?? rox mann... -end of yestdy-

well, im afraid of facing tmr... i dont exactly know why...
but what if my so-perfect world collapses...
~back to studies?~results~some sourgrapes~ something i dread seeing~
haix i dunno!
well, i just hope i'll just finish tmr fast... plus chem tuition, i hope i dun 4get though...
ok i shld endd le... (:

becca (: ♥ 11:06 PM


Sunday, May 14, 2006
shittx... i shldnt watch HORROR!

Sunday

wahahx, just remind me never ever... in my life... to watch HORROR... not ever again... no matter how mild/extreme... not matter hk/thai/american/jap/korean... whatever!! never in my life, whahax... i will regrett...

heyx, im just home from Pam's house... wahahx, her house is a beautiful 2-flr executive... our house is a jumbo and i like it too... but i just simply love staircases... not creepy ones please.... shitx, im imagining horror stuff everywhere...

House of Wax... ... ... ... . . with pam/joan/me
ok i sure was like scared stiff, ok that's me alright... wahahx, and i nearly cried... but its because of the sadistic stuff... not about the effects... but i super hate the ruthlessness... i dont like the blood-iness... ouch! whahax, shitx, everyone died... except Chad Michael Murray! and his sister... lolx, at least he didnt die... but ow to all the injuries... the finger and the lips and the knife in his leg... but am i happy when he came!! wahahx, well, we all were happy... he is stubborn and all are seriously daring... but lucky he's fine... wahhax!
ok i know they are minor compared to those of Final Destination3... (which i'll never watch)

ok on the way home, bought mummy a mango strudel for Mothers' Day! shared larhx... but i hope she likes it... right now its in the refrigerator... *yum yumx*

yesterday: watched the last hour of Zorro... because my mum was watching the 1st half when we were in church... alright, its sweet and really nice... i luv it, even if its just the ending... well, the little boy ish sooo CUTE! he rawkx too... son of zorro, whahax like father like son is the real cute thing... he has nice eyes too...
-end of yestdy-

okayx, i guess O levels coming just right up... that's no good you know...
we just finished midyears! okay my 4days are up... today is the last day to play, according to my mum...
thurs-- windowshopping @ sembawang and Orchard and Suntec (watch iRobot?)
fri-- windowshopping @ M'sia (watch Poseidon)
sat-- flower special & Issac's house (watch Nanny McPhee & The Cross n Switchblade)
sun-- House of the Wax... boox!
And i didnt even realise time really flies... okay, so tmr is studying because im grounded i guess?
And next week will be getting results! haizzzz

gtg ciaos... later may go celebrate Mothers' Day... not because we planned so, but my mum is gRuMbLiNg/SuLkInG... wahhax (:

becca (: ♥ 4:29 PM


Saturday, May 13, 2006
hmmz, pizza's nice for pastagurls!

well, erm... just came home not long from issac's hse...
mum and dad are out for dinner...
(they got pangsehed by my relatives for the mother's day dinner at my grandma hse)
lucky i decided not to go...

well, so im filled up eating 2 slices of pizza and 2 pkts of drinks and bubbletea
~mexican~hawaiian~greentea~lemontea~blueberry~ (respectively)
miss my mum's pasta... (yesterday's lunch)
im so into pasta recently...
well, fortunate for my parents...
they have got 2 daughters who love pasta to bits... :D

so well, today went great...
watched Nanny McPhee on dvd till 12plus...
racheal's classmate came halfway... (sheryl?)
and the show's rawking nice... (quite like lemony snickett's unfortunate events...)
nice for its a happy ending too... i luv happy endings... wahahax

and then went to help in the mama's special...
2 teams, 3 youth each... few adults... 2 kids... wahhax...
took lift from aunty beng suat, reached early with the others along
played crapp scrabble, and the host thinks he can play DOTA and neglect us! LOL
and well, watched The Cross And The Switchblade!
ancient setting... gd movie... nice theatrette wahahax
nice ending... haiz... meaningfull... gd laugh... what else..

had pizza and went home with pam/sheryl/racheal and my dad?!
back home slackking, "banned" from watching dvd, how sadd... lolx gtg (:

becca (: ♥ 8:13 PM



sAtUrDaY: the day closest wth GOD (:

i dunno but saturdays usually sting my true colours the most during yf...
i know it when tears come running to my eyes when we sing a song or talk about something that makes me rembr about something...
well, if im fine, im really fine... as in crazy-noisy-fine... all smiles... haiz
that's what i mean... God will help me find myself, and i know when he's near...

*currently listening to My Love- Westlife*... an old song that makes me comfortable to recall... (:
*i wanna hear 'Seasons in the Sun- westlife', makes me happy to rembr past memories, happy or sad...
and also, all through thursday, i dont know why but 'Why not-- hillary duff' kept coming to mindd... lolx, maybe that's why im crazy-happy all day, wahhax..

watched Poseidon yesterday, as planned... whoox, its nice... not as romantic as Titanic... but abit horror? lolx, the bodies are grossing me out... i'll never be someone who can survive that mannx... wahahx, 1stly: must be fit and flexible... 2ndly: overcome ur fears... 3rdly: must be optimistic and encourage the rest... 4thly: must move on no matter who's left behind due to critical times... HAIZ just hope it doesnt haf to happen againn...
**i wanna watch 'MI iii', 'Nanny McPhee', 'Casanova' (i duno what its about, but i saw a MaSk!)... well, bought a few dvds and vcds... wahahx, i got the dvds, my sister vcds... wahhax... cuz she choose those cartoon de, then my dad say its not worth a dvd... LOLx...

yesterday: totally rox... fam' night out... imagine larhx...
dad came at 3.30pm, so i wont let go watching a movie...
reached City Sq at 4.30m plus...
got popcorn on my treat and dad got the tickets, in 5mins before show started!!
and then straightaway, start shopping wahhax... nearly got parents angry, because in a few seconds, they lost us... wHeN wE wErE nEaRbY larhx!
we went to have dinner because mum was hungry... waliaox
had GENKI SUSHI! totally yummiex
~Golden Maki (eel and salmon skin and eggy wrapover?)~salmon something~
dad bought TeMpUrA!
mum bought soft shell crap, wahhax crabb... her fav!
then shopped till my dad got really really BORED...
gurls' stuff you know...
then racheal decided she should pierce her ears...
whahax, well, a harsh decision, because she also scared larhx
then my mum wanna give her panadol for it, " whootx lame
shopped and bought... wahhax, still got some on list havent buy yet... hmmx lol
dare not buy something i dont like lehs!
went Holiday Inn... shops closing!! bought the stuff... out

okay we reached home at 12midnight!! whoax... so late larhx... but nvm, my sister and i expected 1am...
anyway it was because of the crazy jam larhx... from so far the causeway already have...
then they block the roads...
oh no no, it was firstly because of the PrOcEsSiOn --> VESAK DAY! guess what? 5 floats (chingay??) and tons of people... no police... no guards! -end of yestdy-

okay my sista is finally home from her x-gb-x... guess what it was a dumb trip... no gb today... and she woke up early to go... " super lame! and well, she's home, i wanna watch show lerhx!

later-on prog: meet at church for Mama Day Special! (: love my mummy!
and then cottage mtg at Issac's house, watching The Cross and the Switchblade!?!
my mum said its nice... short but lots of meaning... haiz, supposedly abit blood-y

so i hope today rawkz too... (: although im missing out on some Grandma Special this evening... yusheng-crabb-duck??-and loads of fav... at tampines? arghx... i couldnt split into two... haiz, well i hope they have a good time, my sista and i pangsehed themmm.. okay gtg, i wanna haf fun...

I WANT TO WATCH WINDSTRUCKZ AGAIN!! either cathi/zhihui, wahahx... i dunno larhx... i just wanna play hard before O levels...(x

becca (: ♥ 10:04 AM


Friday, May 12, 2006
HmMz, i love holidays :D

friday

for the first time in my life... in a long long time... i am actually loving holidays... its not borringg... its not slacky siiannx... its perfect... short and sweet... and totally when i need it... a 4-day holiday... GREAT!

well, i cant log into mlg... so i dont think i care two hoots about IT day... i'll probably having fun somewhere... whoox, i cant imagine why im so rawking happy... its contradicting, and perhaps im just running away while i have the energy... haix

later in 1/2 hr, my dad's gonna come home and bring us to M'sia... my mum nearly wanted to stay over the wkend, but suddenly didnt think it will be convenient... haiz, lost a chance to go play out my mind... wahhax

woke up at 10amplus, first time so latee... was reading in the morning, first time this year, i mean at home la... its good to be back at reading, i feel free... now on The Ruling Class... wahhax, something like A Cinderella Story, except that it isnt 'Cinderelly' enough... lolx, it rocks... well im seriously going nuts... hyper i guess...

Pam was chatting with me awhile ago, teaching me to put the music in... THNKS! wahhax, i luv this song, from ICE PRINCESS... it somewhat inspired me when i watched that movie last yr... -enjoy-

i just wanted to blog, even if its gonna be crap-nth much... wahahx, but im boredd... okay later gonna shop somemore... and not really spend larhx... WATCH POSEIDON!! and neoprints with my sister? and eat the nice food in the restaurant we usually go... and play... and wahahx, i absolutely luv that... just when i needed it...

ciaos, sMiLeZ oWaEs ~my wurl (:`

becca (: ♥ 2:25 PM


Thursday, May 11, 2006
the strongest smile is the one infront of those clouds (:

thursday (long entry)

well, im not that strong to smile like that... but i wished i would be though... today i did, although i dont know if its ignorance... but well... ok whatever

wed nite: so i was so sleepy and frustrated that i may not remember what i need to... haiz, well and great i feel like sleeping... so well, i set the alarm at 10.30 and slept at 10pm... even better still, nobody wake me, and i slept till 11.30pm to realise its not morning, and i haven study finish... waliaox
so i studied till 1.30am and then packed my stuff and went to bedd -the end-



morning started anxious i guess... in the sense of chem paper... i am so jittery about ChEm paper all night yesterday and until the moment i stepped into the hall... i guess its the fear of not meeting my expectations again... i hate that when i really lay out some "goals" wahahax... that is maintain my only consistent A! (:
i know i wont fail la but what happens if i lose faith in chem, i will deprove overall... and it will really be the end of me...

my dad send me to school, racheal didnt have school till next wed, marking day?! so long... so i reached school early and was suppose to practise chem tys... but i ended up tryin to read up somemore...

paper was crappy in the 1st hour... there was an alarm sounding off in someone's handphone in the gallery... and today is the first time i brought the new hp to sch... so i got really disturbed that i paused at one qn for about 15mins mind-blankk... lolx, i think its not the alarm that's disturbing but the confiscating part... plus the teachers are stupidd... they take 4 alarms to locate the bagg!! plain dumbb... lagg

i managed to finish the paper 5mins before time...--- God's grace, seriously... imagine 1/2 hr for section C, but i had a clear answer be it right or wrong... haiz...

after paper, im just too happy that exam is finally over..
*there are 3 kind of happy:
happy-laughinginsanely ~~ did some dumbest ever mistake... (forgot that length x breadth = rect area!!)
happy-glad ~~ did my best, whatever comes is in God's hands... (x
happy-livelycrazy ~~ exam is over, i dont remember a single answer, right or wrong...


**so APPLAUSE to everyone who survived the midyears, now we PLAY... till monday... then think about Chinese O levels barhx... lolx >.< **



okayx, so paper end, some clouds came by... ok ive no intention of elaborating...
all the genuine smiles and laughter and fun will still remain in my memories... and no regrets

but today, no tears but sight
not embarrassed but disgusted

what is reality? i hope i know...

its okay im fine... i shall be fine... i will be fine... i must be fine... i am fine...
i dont know larhx... i saw something in it all...
something awful... that stopped the tears...

im no longer who i were before...
well i guess im stronger than in my early sec sch life...
God changed me through you... my thoughts and mindset... in a way
but i still have my weakness, and well, if it a pleasure, you are no diff from whom i knew before


well that's half of my day only... the other half was totally fun and great... im happy to celebrate the end of midyears this way... well, took train alone... back to causewaypoint to meet my mum and my sister... went to Civic Centre to settle money i owe my mum... wahhax, $300/- ok... and i found out that im suppose to pay for my own stuff, in the sense of tuition all that... since when monthly allowance, excluding weekly school money, became part of that expenses?!? went to the library to borrow 2 bks and shop along the way... later had lunch at Jack's Place!! totally wonderfull filling lunch... had baked rice... but i still prefer baked pasta... the dessert was the best of all... totally yummiex! some mango cream and pastry ? wahhax and evaporated milk!
*guess what!? met Cathi and her mum exactly at the same place, also having lunch... *

suddenly my mum had a crazy idea, and i jumped on it... so we ended up window-shopping from every inch of sunplaza... *met yuxuan, xiuanpin, yang, victor * and then mummy bought wallet from some store while me and racheal did crazy stuff with the handbags... whahax, then went to This Fashion... saw something nice, but didnt buy lolx *met rach's schoolmate*

then went to take train to toapayoh to shop somemore... and great, the train decided to stop at YCK for 35mins...due to obstacle, later found to be lightning? *met sarah and chua simin* siian, and im still in school-uniform all the way till 9pm... hahax... and was chatting lots with the two the whole time everyone grumbled about the train not moving... --- seeing people run for the train, thinking its gonna leave soon made us laugh, really a funny sight seriously, shows that either the announcemts were not visually made known OR that people are to fast to want to get their stuff done, the listen out for impt stuff---

so my mum and sister and i alighted at Orchard while they two at Bugis... and well, we window-shopped almost everywhere, whahax... Wisma first, where we bought some manicure stuff and tried out gurly stuff... whahax, my mum feels young? gurl's world rocks! and then to Taka, where we shopped till we drop... my mum 'dropped' too tired to walk, we went to sit down...

then dad called, took train to Cityhall... went through loads of window-shopping through Citylink *met Chen ning* and we were seeing stuff from surfergirls' to coffee gourmet? and then breezed pass HMV and through several other stores, and finally we reached Suntec... my mum is so relieved, thinking we'll never get there... and so we shopped somemore again... dad called that he needs 1/2hr more to arrive... hmmz, and we went to the foodcourt where mummy can sit... and then my sister and i discussed mothers' day... and other stuff... oh in between called Biefoo about band, and they just finished watching POSEIDONN!! *** may be watching that tmr, in M'sia... (: *** ~~~emmy rossum! in phantom too...~~~

so had ramen for dinner, shared out... and treated mummy to some yoghurt with nuts, peach flavoured! okay, dad's jealous... seriously is... lolx, whahax... so went home and in the rain! and well, at 9plus pm...
~~ ThE rAiN iS fAlLiNg AnD i WaNnA sEe It FALL!~~

bathed, and watched iRobots... i have phobia of robots? i just have discrimination larhx... lolx, but well, its sort of 'touching' in the sense, but i still dont like their presence la... like fake human like that... and well, its really late but i promised myself to blog... and so i did... well, im tired... i wanna play and i really feel like going kayaking/swimming/cycling/movies/and window-shopping...
*oh btw, i finally found the shop lynette says that rocks!... 4eva21!... okay, its quite big and nice... went to the wisma one

okay i must go to bed lerhx
haiz, i really hope that i'll be okay...
its been long. it shld haf ended. but it wldnt...
i really hope it wld now...
cause its diff now... ive finally understood reality... or mayb not
colours are hard to identify
and well, i dunkaire what others got to say about today...
im not a toy...
the rain fell but the sun shone, and even the stars glimmered... -never alone-
the tears might fall, but not for now, i dont wanna think...
much smiles, much change, much diff...
time can change ppl but cant wait for it, i wont anymore... it was long

NiTeZ

becca (: ♥ 11:37 PM


Monday, May 08, 2006
im wanna be fReEd (:

sunday: i went to RP canteen to study with my dad and sister... the place is bigg and nice... but i dont think i will go there even if i go poly... because the courses also weird weird one... alot of gaming and info-tech stuff... and film studies too... not exactly my interest anyway... so i did 1hr of amaths there and a tiny bit of chapt6 social studies... couldnt really concentrate
*i want to cryx! *heartbrken* lolx, my mp3 the glass screen cracked... i dont know what happened... could have happened a long time ago but i never checked... t.t
well, my parents totally 'rox'... they brought us out for dinner at the checkpoint and guess what we went shopping there... bought groceries and sandals for me and clothes for my sister... great, when im sitting for 2 papers tomorrow, i come home at 9.15pm to study!?
monday

well, just came home like the hour before... haix, im beginning to sign alott... xxhahaxx

today woke up on time but idled until 5mins later than usual... great... took bus... usual train... school... canteen was empty-looking... i didnt want to study anymore... it kills to study every minute before exam... detoriates brain cell activity... lolx

paper rox... i can pass... but i hope at least can get b3> hahax... i finished in the 2nd last minute... (:
didnt want to study phy but cannot larhx... i scared i forget what i studied on saturday... but it was quite exam-friendly... i dont think can fail la... and i dunno larhx... i finish at least 10mins before time's up

went to sumohouse for lunch with cathi and her friends... they want to go movie in jun!?! no$$ la, i dont think i going... and they want to learn guitar... so ma fun... i dont think i going along also... went causewaypoint to buy stuff and see stuff and walk... and then cathi walked me over the overhead bridge... first time in history... hahax, well... oh saw justin in the mrt at yck... saw chitrra (duno how to spell sry) and kaixun at cozway...

and now im suppose to study literature... i dont know how to study lit... but i think im going to do bio too... i dont know how mann... in an hour and half i will be going for amaths tuition... with shimin, bring forward to fit into tomorrow's paper.. siianx... im gonna fail amaths... im gonna freakout...


[i feel like going for another MOVIE MARATHON!! lynette u see that? wahhax]
*movie de, i wanna watch -- Poseidon -- Daisy -- MI iii
**dvd de, i wanna watch -- Nanny McPhee -- The Perfect Man -- WindstruckZ -- Cinderella Stry
***song de, i wanna hear -- Perfect (simple plan) -- I'm With You (Avril) -- Dont wanna Think About You(simple plan)
**** and by the way, i dont know since when i had shutterfly... but friendster fotos are lagging, so i guess i'll post photos there... easier for me, no need keep sending... (:
[http://sparklingmoments.shutterfly.com/] its new though, because i never use it for like 2yrs? ok gtg le (:

becca (: ♥ 3:25 PM


Sunday, May 07, 2006
well studystudystudy but not with a mental blk?!

siian

saturday
well, its been ok but pissy in the afternoon... also dont know why i easy pissed at my sister wahhax... poor girl... and studied in the morning... alkane and alkenes... and then went causewaypoint meet my mum after the polling thing... well, so my sister is totally dumbb... she crosses at the red man... right in front of a car! because once she see other people, she forget what she's doing... most of the time actually... lucky nothing happend... a rude shock u know...

then after that had lunch at kfc and then went home... great the 2nd not independent lady of our home who has not taken bus for at least 10 years of her life already, wants to take bus to sheng shiong... my mum... well, she gave up the idea at last... but before that went to popular to get stuff and went home pissy... haix

then read through literature... done for paper 1 though... then slacked till dinner @ sunplaza... my dad decided to spend lots mann... every person has their own share... my sister-- jap udon... me -pasta... mum-- curry chicken haha... dad--western stuff... lolx, he said it makes up for watching one time of family movie... what the... i rather watch movie larhx!

back home, studied phy... im done with le.... finally at 11plus pm? before that watched 'The Parents Trap'... ROX! wahahx, so cool... the twins look alot like Lindsay Lohan sehx... wahahx... the show rox... watching for like the dunno wad time le... but still nice...

sunday
okay today's a little different from usual sunday... officially my turn to take the conductor's stand at sunbeam choir... freaky too... but hopefully it runs well.. plus i just realised im in the mist of exams and o levels.... i think i wont run serious until the sunday after 29th may!

well, so there's worship service and all that and then sunday school... which me.dith.alissa only attend halfway... they went to eat n go home study... and i went to causewaypoint to see some stuff... and back home to have lunch... ah ma cooked a feast i guess... wahahx, so well here i am crapping away

worse still, ive got an occasional mental blk... that's why yesterday considered study alot le... but i dont know la... i aint feeling very well... somemore got midyears, siianx... i wanna blast my world with music and go to sleep... lolx, but i cant... so i got to go study ss... but before that chatting with swee ling first, wahahx... well, trying to solve my mental blk... arghx! i cant wait for the day midyears are over! i wanna watch windstruck and Cinderella stry... and celebrate... maybe going for evon's concert... hahax

becca (: ♥ 1:39 PM


Friday, May 05, 2006
wahahx change fone&no. ler!!

hey i keep forgetting to blog on this...

i change number le... although i have 2 sim cards... one is hicard, now using plan de... yaya, finally "promote" le... seriously its like FINALLY... because my mum thinks i'll burst the bills... well, i dont... well i managed to survive on $10 in the hicard per mth... haha sometime short of it in the hol'... but well change number also very cham... i only notify some people...

*if i forget to notify you... please come and find me for it (:*
hahax so if you want a fast reply... contact at new number... i most probably wont check the old number so often although still got $$ inside... lolx...

well, my dad lost his hp in that stupid robbery... so he's using mine and im using one of my mum's 2 hp.... this is gonna be permanent... and well, i miss my old hp... though no camera... but so user-friendly and nice... lolx, plus my stuff in there... spent like hours to transfer contacts yesterday... ok one and half hr...

ok i did promise myself that if i get a mp3 and a digicam... i wont get a 3G hp wahahx... and yep i wont la... because i got those 2 le... (: well gtg...

becca (: ♥ 9:39 PM



SuRpRiSe, SuRpRiSe... i luv today (:

friday

(currently searching a song for aunty fai kin.. --- priscilla's wedding hymn)
whahax, my searching for something never fails me... its a gift okay.. (: oh wells, "Morning has broken"... plain sweet song... in the sense of nature larhx... its common tune but i dont think the lyrics match, yet she so excited... whahax...

okay woke up at 5.45am like that... its considered early okay... and well, i was ready to get out by 6.15am... see i need half an hour sharp... few mins will tell what time i reach school... and whether i miss the train... whahax... *according to my dad*... and well, chinese chinese chinese...

i was slacking yesterday night... slept at 9.45pm... too tired to watch changjin... " so i didnt do any chinese, except memorising the letter-writing formats and answering racheal's geog qns! well, so i was reading a comphre passage for fun this morning, plus answers la... and then was grumbling about racheal possibly draggin me to reach school late since my dad want to fetch...

was in school at 6.55am!! waliaox... so early larhx... wahhax... so i slept instead of studying chinese... and woke up blurr... to go chop my dictionary... wahhax, lucky i went in first, if not so diulian at the parade sq de... long queue somemore, nt queue... crowd...

well, paper 2 was scary... time was so tight... 5 comphre!! can imagine how i dread the new syllabus... >.< they know my chinese reading is slow... then must come out 5 passage! waliao wei... ok, anyway i finished before the last 2mins... *well can finish already is a MIRACLE* and audrey nearly get into trouble... lolx and paper 1 sort of rox... i had 45mins when i finished... and i slept for half hr... whahax, wasnt really sleeping... was just resting and thinking about stuff... CHINESE IS OVER! am i glad!

so wells, today rounded off well... better than i expected... because of yesterday larhx... i just want to thank God it wasnt so badd... well i really hope things are gonna be fine mann... >.<

so i went to causewaypoint for lunch with cathi... at long john... she's just stubbornn... whahax, always because of "no money" then dont want eat... or say say eat pao mian larhx... " fall sick already see what happens... anyway she not feeling well, if not we suppose to meet jingwen they all play bball... lucky nvr go... nvr tell me earlier is more than just jingwen... whahax

came home fell asleep and just wake up... its late ler... later having dinner at home and maybe study la... i think next week is dooms' week... HAIZ! jiayou barhx...

becca (: ♥ 6:50 PM