Tuesday, February 27, 2007
wellx...

hmmz, i think it's been awhile since i've blogged...
as in a very SHORT awhile, ahahax!
aiyarhx, cuz i lost my mood to blogg...
because it's like dunno lehx, starting to feel that it's rather redundant to me...
as in so UNHELPFUL hahahax...
nvm, if u dun gedit...

but well, just really glad that ive got a personal blog...
otherwise i'd blown my head for now...
hahahax, cant blieve that my mood actually lifted!
well, i blieve He is working, hahax...
but yea still a long way to go barhx... haiz

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well, was having a Macadamia Haagen Daz like few minutes ago...
hahahax, i think it's like one of the best flavours on Earth!! :P

yeahx, sweet and nutty...
just the right type of nuts i like most!!
crunchy but not hard, yet sweet and full...

well, yepx! after having so much of gelato everyday...
though i really like the Menta Cioccolatto and Tiramisu!!! :P
but i will like anything Macadamia-ly even more hahahax!!

oh yarhx, and was watching TV...
and they were talking about MACADAMIAS, just when i was having some!!
well, it's name came about from this guy named Dr MacAdams!!
hahahax, but lucky it wasnt named EXACTLY after him...
because i think the name Macadamias, is the best name ever because it makes it sound even more sophisticated and tastier and aiyarhx, just the best larhx, hahahax laggin descriptive Vocab, LOLX

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suppose to give Racheal piano lesson de lehhx...
because it's my source of allowance since i havent got my Feb pay yet...
THE MOST HILARIOUS THING IS...
that my Jan pay, i dun have the time to withdraw the $$,
so i'm still as good as BROKE...
how dumb can this get, LOLX...
all started with Fantome larhxx, hahahahx!

then i need $$ to get new fone too...
when i promised my aunt that i'll save my $$ from angpow...
because there's really no other gadgets i want...
but i think it's going to be a broken promise, LOLX...
next is a notebook for Poly larhx... hahahx !!

well, oh yarhx, still yet to get the piano tuned...
and yeahx, stuff like that larhx... busy hahahax!

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today there's work at Fullerton...
and yesterday too...
the wonderful news is...

-> the distracter is yet to show up, hahahx, im so glad...
because it reli caused me phobia larhx...
i dun even dare go to the toilet at Fullerton Hotel hahahax!

the bad news are...

-> i cut my finger again!!! hahax, tts yesterday...
and at this rate im never going to be able to practise piano AT ALL...

-> business is really crappy...
and not only AM I BOREDDD...
we're not going to get commission... haiz, LOLX

well, the other thing is that...
got kinda fedup when my partner used the phrase 'nvm la'...
for something which i felt that is reli not trivial larhx...
haiz, it struck me with another memory about how ppl can set half-hearted minds on doing things...
yeahx, now i rembr the phrase now... it's 'ANYTHING OSO CAN LA'...
blehx, i really hate that phrase can...
no offence, i really dun hate hueva said that...
but it just erks me how ppl can want to do something (pleasant) of their own accord...
and just dont care how it turns out...
BLEHX, it's dots and IRONY...
and i really cant stand it... sorry

Well tmr i gtg work at Watten...
hope everything goes well, LOLX...
because rembr, everytime i work there sure got some silly actions that cause me "injuries" hahahx...
sorry larhx, i'm accident-prone right... lolx

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hmmz... i decided to come online...
because i guess after more than 48 hours, i kind of miss the com LOLX...

and let's just hope that i'm convinced enough that i can concn sufficiently if i practise my pieces...
that way, it'll be the first step to getting the momentum again lolx...
my 1st step appeared yesterday night!! hahax, miracle lehs...
yep Thnk God for patience with myself!

anyway, i got temporary fone from Jie Lavina le...
hahax, she's my aunt but i reli not used to calling her aunty, ahahahx!
becux she really looks too young for that hahahx!

well, yepx, finally got down to finishing Ps 37! hahax
hmmz, i did that last night barhx...
1st QT in ages... hahax, but yea first step...
esp when things with Him are not quite okay... haiz
wad i understand from the chappie eh...
well yea commit every burden/dream/joy to Him and trust Him to do the rest...
but i guess i only can superficially do that still...
i need aid from above, to relieve my mental barrier... haiz
yepx, thanks for prayer from others (:

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here's a song to share...
my next fave after Complete!
well hope u'll like it too (:

Pierced
Pierced for our transgressions
Punished for our sins
He poured His life out for us
That we might follow Him
He carried all our sorrows
And burdens He did bear
He died a death of sinners
For He so loved this world

Jesus we adore Thee
Light of life for all mankind
Your love it knows no measure
And Your mercy knows no bounds
Jesus suff'ring servant
Jesus Prince of Peace
Lamb of God Messiah
How worthy is Your name

Your made Your life a ransom
And paid for all our sin
Hung crucified on Calv'ry
Despised and scorned by men
You died that we might know You
You died that we might live
But rose again triumphant
The Son of righteousness

One day we'll see our Saviour
In clouds of glory come
To gather us His children
Christ God's conquering Son
That at the name of Jesus
Ev'ry knee shall bow
And ev'ry tongue confess Him
The King of glory now

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gtg watch my 9pm show on Channel 8 now... hehx!
stryline is lame!! but well, acting kinda nice?

well, Channel U 7pm oso quite nice ehx...
hahax, both quite sweet larhx, hahax...

okok byebyezxzz!! :)

becca (: ♥ 8:24 PM


Thursday, February 22, 2007
hurmphx!!

TODAY HAD A SAD HISTORY RECORD IN MY LIFEe!!!!

ok im fine now...
but then if i blogged like about 5hours ago...
u will probably grumble that this entry is FULL OF CRAPP, AND WORDS U DUNWANNA SEEE...
blehx i nearly got to cursing, but am glad i dint...
just very irritated larhx! was off-focus and sad for the rest of the day larhx...
dad try to make me eat proper dinner and have some dessert he'll never think of spending...
then i just smile it off and pretend everything's great lorhx...
blehx after all he tried...

because i was really like PISSED/SHOCKED/SADD!!!
i still am about MY FONE BEING STOLEN!
only that i can handle it better now... HAIX

blehx, why my fone!?!?!
the person has nothing better to do larhx...
i think i know who it is... because it cant be a customer...
and maybe lucky i didnt go meet the person one-to-one...
because i know it's really not safe larhx...
but i sort of did, with my dad... but then the person never leave proper arrangemts...
because i sort of begged the person for my fone back through sms using Nurul's hp...
but my mum cut the line off before i could settle the time and place properly...
but maybe after all i wasnt meant to meet that thief or get back my fone anyhow...

and i guess im so into self-deception naturally...
that if the person dint reply Nurul's sms to "my" fone...
then, i would have still believed that i dropped it somewhere...
and then i would be like searching everyday in hope of NOTHING...
so i AM THAT STUPID... blehx...
just an example of me...
seriously i think because i need facts and logic...
and i expect my fone to show up in somebody's hands right in front of my face before i even believe it...
haiz... reali got to get rid of that part of me hahahx!

NO.1... i hate losing my stuff... and mostly because i hardly lose them ok!!
NO.2... i hate changes... once i lose it i gonna have to get used to another!

my fone stores lotsa stuff larhx...
hmmz, like an urgent private blog?? and etc...
so i REALLY HATE LOSING IT...
BECAUSE IT FEELS THE WAY I LOST DATA FROM MY OLDER COMP!
haiz, but ive learned another thing...
that's why God gave us a memory bank in the brain...
because every other source will die off someday...
and it's something a leftBr probably cant take...
because they need stored copies/proof/facts etc... LOLX!
yeahx, and i know it's really shallow to base it on stuff like that...
haiz, i badly need my rightBr to work on this sad story, hahahx!

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well, now i got other stuff to think about...
so i dun have time to sulk about losing my precious fone LOLX

hmmz, i can go for YF ann. le! hahahx
change work schedule until so messy and crazy larhx...
blehx, complicated marhx...

aiyarhx dunwana loso already larhx...
byebye~~~

becca (: ♥ 10:14 PM


Monday, February 19, 2007
BLEHX!

BLEHX! im feeling so pissy...

-> play piano, finally got to the exam pieces...
and then the cut on my finger is healing but it STILL HURTS!
and then i just gave up larhx!

-> after watching Material Girls for the 2nd time... i got hyper...
and rather restless, felt like going dwnstairs to play bball...
but the next moment IT STARTED RAINING!!!

-> then my dad used comp just now...
and then suddenly when i wanna use, COMP MUST HANG...
great, so im freaking pissed LOLX

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i dunno larhx, i came here to GRUMBLE...
seriously larhx, i'm really sulky all week.... hahax!
but it's getting worse, and i'm pissed off by myselff....
how stupid can i get?!?!

later got to go visit cousins and stuff...
probably back for dinner at home at 6pm like that...
Because we've visitors blehx...
and mummy want us to do MIME...
yeahx, im glad to continue miming, SERIOUSLY...
but i'm just more crappy today than usual...
BLEHX, sorry to make people read crap LOLX...

aiyrahx, i really feel like gg East Coast and stay at the beach for the whole day...
either that or i'll blow somehow and soon...
i need peace... i mean internally...
but i need noise externally... blehx, u wunt gedit and u dunnit to gedit larhx...

~BYEX i should actually just pigg-in all day...

becca (: ♥ 12:26 PM


Sunday, February 18, 2007
hmmz! *(x

hahahax, just reached home like at 10.15pm??
very TIRED siahx...
tell you the parts i really DONT LIKE about today, as in CNY larhx...
-> EAT and EAT and EAT and STILL EAT!!!
-> visit, and visit and visit...
-> WALKING EVERYWHERE IN HIGH-HEELS... blehx

i tell you ar, today really made me so SICKK OF EATING!!
blehx, 2 grandmas = food for millions...
i duno why larhx, they just love to feed people like PIGS...
and yeahx, i really got so bloated up larhx...
can u imagine western for Lunch part I...
and eastern for Lunch part II...
with like only 1hour apart...
and the shares served is like twice the normal amt u usu eat!!!
and plus the side stuff... goodies and wine!

well, i dunno larhx, but i really quit eating at a certain point...
turned down so many people's servings...
EVEN CHOCOLATE LARHX!
and i slept on the sofa at uncle's house, watching Pirates of the Caribbean!
its like i love that show because of its sound effects, and i can even end up SLPING!
LOLX, it's really un-helpable, hahahax!

went for coffee at One Fullerton...
had the best spot ever for FIREWORKS...
lalallax, i love it mannx, but we really spent a bomb to get a seat openair of the restaurant...
but it's like the best view ever!! hahahax!
so i love the fireworks lots ahhax...

oh ya, and dropped by Frutta La Viva my workplace...
and surprised Suhaili... LOL
see her work alone like very poor thing lolx...
but anyway we didnt stay long at the shop... hahax...

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YESTERDAY...

hmmz, i worked in the morning shift with Faith...
and then dad picked me up to rush me home for reunion dinner...
anyway ah ma was late so we had to kill time...
then went to Chinatown...
blehx, i only wanted to drink coconut larhx...
and had a super NICE sweet soft-flesh one!! (:
didnt really intend to shop much, hahax...

AIMS
rach: buy mochi
mum: buy anything under the category of FOOD (typical)
me: coconut drink
dad: see flowers
aunt esther (hu tagged along): i-duno-wad- but i think clothes and bags LOL

well, it's like i think i'm the only one who fulfilled my objective! :P

from yesterday's Chinatown trip i learned 2 things!
1: PEOPLE GIVE BAD DESCRIPTIONS SOMETIMES AND START FRUSTRATION!!
it's like my aunt was like... i'm at the mrt station underpass entrance, infront of the Bee Cheng Hiang shop, near a mobile icecream stall! sounds like descriptive yea right... well at least i think my mum thought it was...
and she got fed up when she realised Chinatown had more than one mrt entrance/ Bee Cheng Hiang shop/mobile icecream stall!!! LOLX, tts one of the funniest miscomm i've been through...
(though there's another btwn dad and racheal!!)

2: OBJECTIVES...
a leftbrain (my dad) who goes to places will hardly be objectiveless!!! and a rightbrain (my mum) will just go for fun and atmosphere, AIMLESSLY... i think u can guess which i prefer... LOL but the funny part is this is the best combination somehow hahahax, because the leftBr will make the trip WORTHWHILE! and the rightBr will buy anything that comes along... hahaz, maybe it sounds illogical, ok fine hahahx!

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hmmz, so stuff i like about CNY
-> taking it as an opportunity to get traditional lolx...
-> $$$
-> reunion with cuzzies

well, i getting hungry LOLx...
because i didnt eat dinner after having double lunches...

though im tired i never actually sleep in the car ride home...
hehehx, because mummy decided to play Phantom on the stereo...
and then i couldnt sleep lerhx! hahahax, just love the songs so much! :p

haiz, mummy played the mime songs for my aunts to hear when they were in the car to Fullerton...
i miss mime soo much u know... haiz...
it's just going to be all so different...
IT'S SO NOT THE CLIQUE...
it's just all that we have as mime history...
since the first one at Kayaking Cum Campfire at Pasir Ris...
it's just soo wonderfully interesting mannx... haiz...
okok, musnt sigh too much LOLX!

but actually i think i've been sighing lots recently LOLX...
oops, okok shall try to sigh less... hahax...
and really will try to complete perfecting Complete hahahax!
haha okok byebyez!! (:

becca (: ♥ 10:31 PM


Friday, February 16, 2007
hurmphx... haha

hurmphx! lolx...
im pouting siahx... LOL
-> on CNY 1st day i dun get spend enough time with my long-time-no-c cuzzies!!! ):

-> and i have a very packed schedule CNY which i think isnt very pleasant... LOLX, because other than $$, i also wanna feel like going out with my cuzzies larhx, but got to do regular visitation, abit SIANX!

-> i have a cut on my finger... just so ACCIDENTPRONE!! >.< means =" no"> tmr got work but only morning!! if it's at night, maybe i get to see FIREWORKS!!! :P

-> hmmx, thousand more pouts to go... save u the crapp... dinner was not so nice... BAD SERVICE lolx...

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haiz i dunno larhx...
i should just stop sulking and pouting and see the brighter side of Life!!
blehx, i think that will help me alot today...

MY FINGER PAIN LARHX!
its like i didnt even know it was bleeding till i saw the stains everywhere, EWW...
then i realised it's really pain hahahahax!!!

i like the song 'Pierced' alot...
heard it from the song album at Watten...
still yet to get the lyrics because i dont quite listen properly while working...
the melody sounds sad but sweet...
well, there's another two nice ones...
-> "Immanuel O Immanuel"
-> "You are there (When I need a neighbour)"
the title itself is so sweet already! (:

well in the other disc, there's 'Awesome God'!! :P

welll, and i'm almost near perfect for Complete, hahax!!
but yeahx so near yet so farr... that's nasty...
because my mental score sounds so LeftBr aggaration hahahax!
nvm u wunt get it...

oh yarhx, just heard my fav ad on tv!!
the one about true colours, campaign of Dove...
i love that song, it's so like natural and real and sweet and encouraging... hahax
funny effect that cheers me up everytime i see it, hahahx...
http://www.campaignforrealbeauty.com.sg/flat2.asp?id=7111

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tmr im working 8.45-4pm....
rush home from work for reunion steamboat dinner with immediate fam!
then go Chinatown with parents...
then SLEEP and church the next day...

oh yar, i brought gelato home today!! :P
dun crapp already larhx buaibuaixx!!

becca (: ♥ 10:58 PM


Thursday, February 15, 2007

HURMPHX, i just sat in front of the comp...
and then dad says he wanna use...
haiz must play fair larhx, after all i owaes kope wan hehx!!

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aiyarhx, nth much larhx...
yesterday lazy to blog siahx...
because came home like so late...

hmmz, about yesterday--
> work at fullerton larhx... then boss say got Jap students coming, so got chance...
then we keep prolonging closing hours till the jap students finish their educational tour LOL
well, it's like actual closing is 10pm but waste resources because hardly any sales so they close early at 5pm!
but then boss always like to prolong, then yesterday closed at 6.30pm like that... blehx...

> meet mummy and rach for dinner... really tired/sleepy/grumpy...
became a pest to the fam because they need to run errands or want to snack at pasa malam... but i only grumble everywhere i go and start finding place to sit down, LIKE A GRANDMA!! haiz... hyperness oso got limit siahx...

> slpt rather early yesterday nite, cuz i really nearly died out larhx! HURMPHX, Faith larhx! kip on say bored wanna do something... then we did all the unnecessary stuff... and lotsa funny stuff happened cuz today she very blur!! hahax, but it's small thing larhx... reached $300 lehx!! :P and double check with boss about commission!! hurmphx, they better give lorhx! otherwise i go COMPLAIN lalalalx!

aiyohx, fullerton bridge got desperate kissing fishes siahx... ahhahax! wadeva...

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well, today yarhx...

mummy "employ" me to work for her to spring clean the house larhx...
but im one lazy pig!
1stly because she never give me do-able stuff...
all the weird stuff like helping her make temp filter for the stove!??
then i only cleaned out the medals section for rach and me larhx!! :P
hahax, i was like "hmm, why did u have to have such a clever daughter?!"
LOLX, i know very bueihiaobie lalalax, but it's like very tedious to clean one by one larhx..
anyway it's all pri sku stuff larhx...
why did i slacked in sec sku...!!! :P

well, PeiKee (cuzzie) came over to our house because her mum is cleaning windows...
and im like arent we doing the same!?!
and well, so had to entertain her and we went out for lunch at cwp...
(peikee, ahma, me, mummy!) weird combination hahahax!!

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hhehex i never kena scolding by piano teacher siahx!
well, but it's like i ought to larhx... if she hears of my piano pract frequency...
im doomed mannx, hahahx!!
yeahx, having no mood to practise larhx, it's like atm is wrong...
*atm aka atmospheric pressure in chem but i mean atmosphere!!* =p

oh and today is Total Def Day...
hahax, i got shocked by the VERY LOUD war siren...
lucky peikee never cry... LOL, i thought she would...
recalled how me and rach owaes very scared when the siren goes...
lolx, noon of 1st day of every mth... blehx...
dun like it at all... plus it's situated near Riverside i think... super near and LOUD larhx!!

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hmmx, i cant imagine wad war will be like...
i duno larhx, random thought...
but it's like going to be freaking scary and undesirable barhx...
but it's like haiz, nvm... lolx it's not happening anyway...

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kkaes, must keep promise, gtg le...
cannot deprive my dad of comp work too
~byebyezz!!

becca (: ♥ 10:17 PM


Tuesday, February 13, 2007
blehxx...

aiyarhx, i oso dunno wad to blogg...
so i guess it's going to be bloggin like a freaking leftBr wood blk for now...

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1: work in the morning...
blehx, late... 1st time siahx, and an awful xperience!!
i think it's been so long since i worry about getting late to somewhere...
firstly i dun relli care when im late to meet people or go somewhere...
but well, except school because must run 20 rounds...
okay i dun mind running, can force me to train stamina...
BUT NOT IN THE MORNING...
when late means i just wakeup right?!?!

plus work is different, because i enjoy going early....
only that sometimes i reach FREAKING EARLY...
such that i end up making friends with our Mama-merlion! :P

but today's diff... i slept kinda late...
haha late isnt an excuse bcux it wasnt really late...
havent even pass midnite...
aiyarhx i dunno why i couldnt wake up larhx...
but well, i wasnt that late, lucky... but i think gonna dock pay lerhx, BLEHX!

feel so bad, hahax...
i couldnt help suhaili with opening, and neither closing...
blehx, im such a bad partner... haiz...
but i'll work towards being the Best -every role- for God! (:
but right now, i feel so far from it, blehx...

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2: interview today larhx...
it's sOO FREAKING SCARYYY...
okay, yea i was nervous...
even when it's like in a grp...
but let me share with you wadeva they asked, and i bet u'll be freaked too...
that is, if u desperately wanna get in the course lar...

-> case study: if u were to serve host and guests of the same table, wad is the order u gonna serve in?? (oldest or host or gender)
-> comment on fine dining...
-> wad do u think of Spore's service...
-> case study: wad if nasty customers approach you, wad will u say and do??
-> tell me something about u that will outshine the rest...
and this is wad that very fierce guy said, "passion everybody oso have, not counted!!"

it's CRAPPY i tell you...
oh mann... im such a goner...
and maybe i got hope in JAE...
because today i realise that poly can cut CCA pts...
but i dunno if they'll lower the cut-off points even more...
i'd die i tell you... hehehx, now 10 for L1R2B2, LOLX...
if the cut-off pt remains the same as last yr, i should be able to go in...
but i really dunno larhx...

then met Yiling (cuz) there with her fren...
well, it's like we 2 kena trapped by some financial business infomatics personnel...
and she started shooting off doubts about my choices...
is this wad people do to make you more sure!??!
it was very very negative of her...
but i absolutely have every answer for her very sharp qns!
and they were all bursting in my head, but i decided to be nice and save my saliva...

well, i do know what im in for...
-> big commitment
-> long hours/ less pay than other jobs possibly can give...
(but i blieve this isnt all true!)
-> lots more theory than i can expect...
-> wide variety of interaction with people from all walks of life...
-> serving and though everybody loves to be served much more than to serve others... but i think this passion and willingness only comes about when you understand the joy of pleasing others not to lose your dignity but to be able to serve before u lead... and also to receive the shared joy of succeeding in serving and to learn to give rather than to take, well i really wanna learn that mannx... haiz

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haiz, tts all for now...
just relieved my mind on this...
but haiz, there'll always be others...
blehx... i hate confused minds...
and i really enjoy and want to always know what im in for...
haiz, lucky God made a brain powerful enough to multi-think...
wanna watch tv lerhx... tmr still gtg work...

`thanks for wonderful piano repertoires... they are beautiful music that share my thoughts most of the time...(:

~disappearing into cloudy thots, byex~

becca (: ♥ 8:27 PM


Monday, February 12, 2007
haix... T.T

i seriously have no mood to blog like since yesterday night...
yep, as usual because i cant blog it out here...
blehx i really dont like it...
haiz, actually i wonder what is the real purpose of blogging...

anyway, yeahx there's other stuff that's going on...
and i guess i'll just crapp on that...

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have spent in total 3 hours plus on piano cum guitar...
and imagine having guitar-swelled fingers and playing piano afterwards...
it's really making the bruises go OOo
to make things even cooler...
i was asked to iron clothes... woofx, friction plus heat plus bruise...
BLEHX, it's equal pain larhx...

and the worst part is that this is the 1st time ive spent soo much time on pianox...
and guess wad, NOT ABIT OF THAT TIME CONSTITUTES ANYTHING TO DO WITH PRACTISING FOR EXAM...
yeahx, i know i'm really dumbb...

but the other part of it u havent heard of...
is that practising the Exam stuff require FULL CONCN...
which i really cant give at this time...
and even better still, im working on tues n wed...
and that means i cant practise for thurs...
which oso means that i'll get another good old scolding...
BLEHX, i really wonder when it'll stop...
this crazy cycle of not practising 3hrs a day regularly... ):

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okays, im not pissy...
so let's make it sound less irritating in here...

well, my day at home isnt all worthless kayx...
i did spend abt an hour completing my mental piano score for Complete and it's near perfection (:
but the guitar one for Complete... is never going to make it... LOLX...
plus yea i know pam very irritated that i cant strum a second pattern HAHAHX!!

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hmmz, i applied for JAE on friday night...
and JPSAE on sat morning...

well, the administration rang my house to ask to go interview on tues or wed...
BLEHX, i'm working...
haiz, i really dont like the crashing of schedules...
and lucky the boss very nice and understanding...
hahahax, well im allowed to take hour-off tmr afternoon to go TP for interview...
hope i get there in time and i wish that it'll be successful mannx...

haiz, i really have no other interest in anything less than my dream...
so yeahx, if i cant get it, i dunno wad i'd do...
HAIX...
and PEOPLE PLS STOPP TELLING ME THAT I SHOULD KIP JC IN MIND...
because i already put that at last resort...
and i already have wadeva i want in mind, and i know wad im in for kays...
i appreciate everyone's concern, but i do hope u respect my interests aka decision too...
it's not as if i die oso dunwan go JC, but it's more like i already have a plan in mind...
although yeahx subjected to changes, but haiz...
you know how leftbrains dont like changes but i'll try my best to accomodate them...

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hope all goes well tmr,
otherwise still can change JAE application i suppose...
and then i also hope that i wont lose hope... blehx

well, this few days im not so alright...
-> mentally unwell...
-> physically sick...

i think i'll get a fever soon...
and hopefully it comes, and hurry goes...
then i can enjoy my CNY...
and plus i feel so physically drained...
just can sleep like siaox...

and i do have alot of stuff in mind...
haiz, one is regarding piano stress...
i dun even know where to start!
the other is a mess ive created unknowingly...
but i'm really very Sorryy!!! haix
and another one is how i suddenly feel so lonely to be a leftBr in the middle of rightBrs...
i dunno wad to do larhx... but just very lost for the time being...
i really need to have a heart-to-heart talk with my own brain for awhile...

i really dun feel like continuing...
byex

becca (: ♥ 6:17 PM


Friday, February 09, 2007
hurmphx...

well, i actually got mood to blog wan lehhx...
but then now i like kinda siian diaox, lolx...
because the blogger so problematix hahax force people change to google acct...
SO MA FUN, hahax...

oso lost the inspiration to blog le hahahahx!

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yesterday ate my 1st CARTEL meal...
bleehhxhxx i'm broke again...
can i pls stop gg eat like that?!?!
1st is Indulge Bistro...
2nd is Cafe Cartel...
wads next eh??
and i have to eat cup noodles everytime i go work...
HOW EXTREME IS THAT hhahax!

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well, yesterday was like hmmz, waste of time and money...
lolz, chatting lame stuff? feasting when im broke!
hahahx, it's like O level ppl gathering, yea right, hahax!

only sort of made me more stress by going popular...
hahahx, thnks for the gd idea eh!!! :P

well, reached home kinda late siahx...
lucky mummy never grumble ahhax, miracle la!

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hurmphx...
sorry im in the -hurmphx- mood now!

well when i first see my results i dunno how to react manx...
im so stupid, i dare not even see the Form A la...
i go slowly count my L1R5...
and was like losing count every few sec!!
hahahhax, and then everybody very fast take out fone and start calling and msging...
but i forgot to larhx... didnt even have the mood to hahax...

anyway, then it's like i dunno if it's good or bad HAIZ!
i feel like im being so unreasonable to God...
i prayed and got exactly wad i asked for in L1R5...
but then i still cant go in tourism larhx!
blehx... so im sulking... though thanking...
haiyox! well, but i think it's not that bad la hahax...

haiz, i find myself so weird...
everybody wanna go JC, and last resort Poly...
for me is, i die oso want to go Poly do tourism, last resort than go JC...
its like so reverse lahx! haiz...
but i duno wad to think lehhx... izzit gd or bad? hahax

well but just kinda surprised why God gave me exactly wad i prayed for...
why not lesser ahahahhax! im so irritating as a His daughter LOLx!!
BAHHXXX, i dunno larhx...
hopefully still can get in, hurmphx...

but i'm happy too because i got B3 for ENG after failing like crazy all yr..!!!!
and it means that i can probably enter the English Foundation course in Aus...
before i go do degree there!!! (:

plus my chem/emaths/phy-bio all A2s...
hmmz, would have hoped for A1 for chem larhx...
but haiz, shant be greedy larhx...
but oh ya, if only i got A1 for that...
then i can get 11 for L1B2R2`!!!!!
BLEHX... this is soo crappy... poor chem, im sooo SORRY!!!
haiz... bloggin about this will only make me go nuts...

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btw, haiz, i think i'm just have habitual self-deception like always...
and i probably owaes dont notice until later...
blehx... haiz... stoppit siahx...
at least i know i sort of did my best already...
haiz, such a science person... hahax...
amaths lolx, b3... but well, not that bad...
hahahahx...

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hmmz, dun want crapp any longer...
byebyex!!

becca (: ♥ 8:19 PM


Wednesday, February 07, 2007
haiz... hahax!

hmmz... bloggy blog blog...
sumtimes i really dunno wad to say here...
the funny stuff?
the crappy boring details?
the secrets?? LOLX
plainly my life? hahhax!
but yeahx, life is not all simply described as funny/nt...
eventful/nt, happy/nt, sad/nt... haha

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but i do have something about today...
wish i feel that is very unique...
and funnily/CRAZILY unique!

i did a shit job for the windows...
hahhaax... i really mean it...
not a byword for foul mouth hahahx

everyday that i'm not working this week,
i'm earning allowance by spring cleaning...
and specialising on WINDOWS!! blehx...
and today is to clean mummy's bedrm window...
which is full or hardend BIRDSHIT!!!
eewww... but i guess gotta be brave lalalax!!
after all must be independent hehehex, well i am kayys?!!

hmmz, but i really can declare that it kinda DISGUSTED ME!!!
and that the birds have done a TERRIFIC JOB...
and of all windows, the master bedrm's! LOLX

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hmmz, i think i really am very FUSSY when it comes to SOUND EFFECT and CONDITION of pianoes...
it "pains" me to see ill'-treated pianos...
-> yellowed keys!!!
-> wood chipped off...
-> loosened pedals... blehx...
-> WORST: stucked keys!!! or soundless keys...

and about the sound...
i like it sharp to an extent (both pitch and loudness)
and i prefer a WIDE range of dynamics...
(preferably when the whole house is quiet... means nobody gets to watch TV or the main door left open for ventilation hehehx, sry larhx... but to make do, can keep the curtains open and windows opened to make the sound not sound soo ENCLOSED... hahax... yea to summarise, I'M REALLY FUSSY!)

because this totally affects my mood when playing siahx...
couldnt practise properly all week until tonight... hahax...
really not an excuse that i didnt crapp up properly ok...

and last sunday, the 2nd oct up D key was SOUNDLESS...
because the thing inside was loosened...
oh poor UNTUNED/MAINTAINED piano!!
and then i just decided that Sunbeam choir be practised acapella!
hmmz, spoilt my mood for trying to play the songs lehx...

well, soo please everyone out there, do take care of ya PIANOS...
not because of me hahax, but just pretty please treasure what gems they are...
*what if they're no more pianos on Earth, haha unrealistic and Xtreme i know, but yea...*

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hmmz, end of lecture hahahx!!
nth interesting le barhx, lolx...
~ciaos (:

becca (: ♥ 10:51 PM


Monday, February 05, 2007
hurmphz! $$faced...

took me 1 hour plus to finally begin blogging...
after i actually decided to blog...
haiz, so easily sightracked LLALALAX!

well, was watching the final eps The Peak...
the ending is happy but typical...
WORST STILL, no closure... feels abrupt...
*blehx*
sounds more like i watch because of the people not the show larhx...

anyway today is an active one...
hehehx, earned myself $25 of allowance lehhs!!
i'm no more BROKE!
YEA RIGHT... i still have to last till i get pay...
and i have to use this money to buy more cup noodles larhx...
btw, cupnoodles are not only UNHEALTHY...
I'M LIKE LESS THAN HALF FULL WHEN I FINISH A CUP LARHX!

*well as far as i rmbr, i had to eat 2 cups to even make it feel like it satisfied me for dinner one day... but that was b4 i started work...*

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anyway, i did lotsa cleaning around the house to earn that bucks ok!
it was really hard getting it finally in my hands!!
BLEHX, but at least mummy's gonna make me fried rice to bring to work tmr...
that sounds so much better than PATHETIC TONG YAN GOONG CUP NOODLES...

well, i should say other than for $$...
my day is useless...
NOT THE CLEANING PART...
because i at least i did move a bone...
its like i couldnt even bring myself to concentrate on PIANO!!!
and this is FREAKING STRESSFULL!! you know... HAIZ~

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was recording for Sunbeam choir on 4th feb, sunday...
it was like big time HAIZ...
when i played perfect though children sing not-so-perfect...
kok whye DELETED IT due to MISCOMM...
HAIZ!!!!!!
and then the 2nd piece i nearly died trying to PLAY PERFECT...
i felt like i didnt try my best as in i didnt practise properly marhx...
so i keep on looking onto perfection... BLEHX...

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ahhhhx, i realli feel like wanting to duan jue guan xi with some dummy...
sounds kinda rash LOL...
but i cannot stand people with moods going up and down like some Viking ship!!
and i'm innocent larhx, dunwan help den SAY DONT WANT LARHX!
WALIAOXXX...
but anyway, haiz, shant make matters worse...
after all im nobody...
well, but i think ur world is perfect like the way u think it should right?
BLARHXXXX, wadeva pretend i dunno u siahx...
gonna start the daoing session on u... IRRITATING! hahahax...

sorry, i know it sounds childish la...
blehx, but i really cannt stand it... at least for now...
i guess u are still wad u are like 2 yrs before?? lolx
haiz, whatever larhx... anyway i already knew it takes a miracle...

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lallalax....

im going crazy LOL
from working myself out on chores and dust...
and from bursting my brain out on the piano...
thankyou hands, i bet i gonna get another scolding from ms toh liaox...
darhhxhxx...

i feel so lazy mannx...
i need a temp BRAIN MANAGER...
LOL, well... i think once i start working regularly i'll be able to work it all out PERFECTLY...

HURMPHX, i think i should cut it out the 'perfect' word...
because it's not only stressfull, it's conditioning my brain too much to crave for PERFECTION, like it would ever come from an imperfected being... LOLX...

haiz, HEEELLPPP!

becca (: ♥ 9:10 PM


Saturday, February 03, 2007
lallalx!

hmmz, was "fighting" for com with mummy awhile ago LOL
ahh, it's usual...
just that i really cannt stand it when people hog the com when they're not ON it!!
blehx, i think im the LONGEST hogger ever since i can rmbr...
BUT I DO USE IT, unlike people hu try to want it but start watching tv or doing paperwork or on the fone!!
that's REALLY IRRITATING U KNOW!! lallalax...
sounds as though i'm desperate for the com...
but i guess when ive something to do in it, i am desperate for it, hehhex!
well, currently it's because i wanted to blogg...
BUT MAINLY: i wanted to search a song *diaox*
like it or not, wadeva... hehehehx!! :P

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hahahax, i just watched the Pacifier on DVD...
and it's like yep i know i'm slow...
but well, left Eragon and Over the Hedge...
and i'm done with wadeva latest we've bought!
*fast u know* esp, when i'm sneaking on it hahhax!!

about 15 shows done in the holidays if i finish the last 2...
hahhaax!!

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okok i didnt come to disclose my sneakups on watching dvd shows without permission...
that would be DUMB ENUFF....

FYI i came to blog for 2 things, hehx...
dunwanna make it all so leftbrainnyy... LOL

but well, after watching Pacifier...
i kind of like the image of having Commando Daddys!!!
it's like totally rawking cooll...
ok i know what's in ur head, like i'm totally retarded... hehex!
wadeva, but i think all the military stuff is really cool hahahx...
like as always... hahahx!! well, fyi i didnt start getting awed by this stuff just in sec sku lehhx...
well, for a start i have a dad who boasts quite abit about army, LOL

so its kinda like IN-THE-BLOOD.... alalax!
but there's the other side of Commando Daddys...
(eh, it's just something i thought i'd name the fathers who are in high-ranks!)
well, some have captain dads or majors/generals... etc... LOL
that's like really high i guess... yea but i guess these people are mostly LEFTBr...
->because they are most straightforward at executing commands... no changes to be made...
->kind of domineering, blehx haha!
->insensitive to a certain extent till they get knock out at the feeling part...
->basically unchangeable... apply wadeva they learn at wherever they go...
(i probably say that because these dads, as in shows with such dads, just somehow enforce it at home too...)
->somehow kinda neat and organised LOL...
->LOADS MORE TO GO... hahhax!

but i really am stuck with thinking this is cool...
yeahx, but they probably cant live around rightBr...
because, yea because... ... .. ...
and they probably have a lot to learn when something fails...
and when real life is just not spellable...
hahax, dun mind me kayys... hahhax!!!

hmmz, hard to find such daddys lorhx...
but i wish i had one just like that...
but i think life would be so DIFFERENT then...
so i should just appreciate wadeva i have barhx!!

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started playing Indiana Jones intro on the piano...
all of a sudden...
hahahax, i'm just hyper suddenly...
well, so i made a nice conversion on the piano for that matter...
THAT I CANT EVEN PLAY IT PERFECT...
haiz, one day i have too many conversions that my BRAIN CANT EVEN STORE...
waste of time... and soo TEMPORAL...
unless i get to let some people hear! hahahx...
but then i have to PERFECT my CRAPP first... *DOUBLE BLEHX*

HAIZ, i've got a GOOD OLD SCHEDULE FOR PIANO U KNOW...
am it's killing me like, seriously larhx!

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dunnwanna loso here liaox...
tts all i have for readers i guess...
the rest will go into personal... hehex!

~BUARBUAIX (:

becca (: ♥ 12:54 PM