Friday, November 30, 2007
hahaz haizz.zZz

ok grandma woke me at 7am asking if i had school...
ever since yestdy's incident,
i think i've got no right to shout and i've going to have to live with this abrupt waking up system...

oh wells so i couldnt get back to sleep..
felt like i slept a thousand years...
when its only 7.15am!?

erm haha playing miniclip dots...
PHANTOM MANSION...
and i bet that game got thousand levels...
yeahx, must keep to time 9am...
time to start OB..?? >.< *whines*

haiz, ok topic for this entry...

cuz 1: i went to play piano for 45mins...
and realised that my hand very weak liao...
arghx... and i was so DREAMY
for why on earth i dunno!?

and then it felt weird...
cuz perhaps i havent been onto it for very long!?
ahhhhhh...
and guess wad...
i was dreaming of how...
my DREAM Christmas 2007 would be...
the FUTURE DREAM TP piano ensemble...
and many other things like decisions and all...

ahhhhhhhhhh
i need a break...
and i dunno lah...
people dream dreams to come true...
not dream it and hope it doesnt happen...
its just a matter of when...

and there's 2 types of dreams:
-> one that u self-actualise when the time is ripe
-> one that u wait for it and cross ur fingers hoping it to happen...

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haiz im one lazy bone today...
and some how my stomach is threatening to give me an upset...? >.<

and ive eaten my breakfast halfway...
last time i touched it could be half hour plus ago...
my chicken pie is probably COLD now...

haha u know what im thinking?
i tink u dunno what im tinking...
but i actually visualised/imagined how giving roses on Christmas would look like LOL!

cuz i think roses are nice,
and i want everybody to have one (:
BUT CHRISTMAS!?
sounds so funny...
besides, my biggest concern...
is how people will treat it...
if carolling is after gift-exchange LOL!?
as in the roses will either get beheaded, balded, wlited, wadeva not...
NONONO i dunwanna my pretty roses to suffer (:

and the other thing is,
i recalled last yr Christmas at NLBP
where i thick-skinnedly go up to the minigrand and play We Are The Reason...
i mean SIGHTREAD!
for the sake of fun, laughter, peace, and joy NOT...
lol, for the sake of memories, and yeah the fun and joy parts hehex!
but now, i dont even quite dare to play it at home!?
hahahx, my sightreading is really bad ehs...

okok after blogging out my mind...
i feel better...
got to get energised and finish OB MOTIVATION II
and hyper-ened up for chalet tonight!
NOT like i can STAYOVER...
but at least enjoy one night, before the CRAZIEST WEEK in my life...
and i think i cant go SENTOSA on Sat...?
its an awkward plan u know... and my brain says NO... ):

ok BUHBYE,
`love God, my family, my scandals, ec-s, piano, blog, and life (x
hope u love urs too!!

becca (: ♥ 8:27 AM


Thursday, November 29, 2007
the crap ahead... haiz (:

alright... happy things first...

1: damn satisfied/happy with my new shoes!
daddy bought me new Vinci black shoes from John little sale...
but its NO sale alright...
its $24.90 i think... ex lah...
but its reali very comfy and NO BLISTERS OK!
supposedly bought for CNY, but ahhax i wore it to school today...

and this is like one of the only times i wear 'covered heels' to sch...
other than presentation week... hahax!
people said i looked formal!?!!

and where perceived value is above actual and expected price...
=high quality, high satisfaction!? (InHT)
and where satisfaction, involves Total Utility & increasing Marginal Utility HAHA??
(MicroE)

2: spent my 6-hrs break wisely studying!!
was without correction tape...
and was in the library 8th flr, when it suddenly turned into a mrktplace...
those who know me well, will know that i cant study under such conditions...
perhaps ONCE in a YEAR!

and i did 3 chapters of Socio!
though had hoped that i touched OB alittle,
but was thinking OB would have made me spend more time!
haha, although i didnt bring Socio textbk,
i think its worthwhile, as i did my notes within about 4 and half hours...

3: after studying before French tut
i went to the sports complex...
my legs just brought my there unknowingly...

cuz i went to bizpark to munch something...
but i wasnt hungry, saw some yoghurt which as expiring but priced HIGH...
so i skipped that...

at the sports complex, saw the workers laying the field "fake grass"
and decided to hear something on my ipod...
erm, its like the song currently playing was "I will overcome"
its really damn nice...
filled with that encouragemt, as a fellow fren, kind of thing...
haiz, yesh! must jiayou jiayou, cannot let it fall like pancake..
nextweek very shiok lah!


ok blogging makes me realise things...
maybe becux i took the effort to speak my mind or plan stuff...
but i never knew that i had only the weekend to FINISH MY CASE STUDY??
oh nono, i think its on 7th dec... eh hahax!

Mon: ?
Tues: Excel test
Wed: Socio test & COMMSK INTERVIEW??
Thurs: French listening & writing test!?!
Fri: Case Study submission, Excel proj submission

& THREE QUIZZES!

arghx...

2 submissions, 3 tests, 3 quizses...
LAME LAH

4: French tut

hehe im the only one that finished the game without a "taire"

*ok wait sidenote, my dad is playing some piano music on the speakers...
walau damn nice and cool lahs...*

ok yeah, we played 7up in the French way...
it was super scary...
everybody freaked out and started practising for the next 20mins...
even the teacher was freaked out by our KIASUism...
LOL!

i was scared too...
maybe becux she seems intimidating...
but fact is, she's kinda FUN actually...
yeah, so i like French ehehe!

so yeah, i was like the only one who didnt kena caught for pronounciation (:
*bingo*

and yeah, we learned this song...
I SERIOUSLY DIDNT KNOW IT WAS FRENCH...
its shown in Princess Diaries 2!!
"Frere Jacques Frere Jacques,
Dormez-vous dormez-vous,
Sonnez les matines Sonnez les matines,
Ding Dang Dong Ding Dang Dong!"

in ENGLISH...
"Are u sleeping, are u sleeping...
Brother John, Brother John?
Morning bells are ringing, morning bells are ringing...
ding dang dong, ding dang dong!"

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now for the crazy part...
i think mummy would like to hear it HAHAH...
rather she got tired of hearing it...

oh and i just realised something...
ive got alot of silent readers ehs...
WHEY TAG LAH... (:

example -- char mummy cheal?? maybe alissa? aiyar dunno le lah

TAG MORE LEHS (x

OK continue...
i woke up at 8.30am this morning...
with a test at 9am...
and the adjunct told us specifically, NOT to be LATE!?
becux of the fussy examiner...

and DOTS?
i made the BINGO...

and guess wad...
my grandma woke me up to ask me NICELY if i were to have sch...
cuz usually she'll go screaming at me for NTH!?
and i'll scream, rudely awoken from my sleep, that my class is at 2pm or wadsoever...

BUT lucky she asked!
cuz my dad forgot to ask...
And yeah, u might have guessed,
HE WENT WITHOUT ME! >.<
on the day where i SPECIFICALLY had a TEST!
lol joke of the day manns

i was too shocked luhs....
rushed to get done...
and took a taxi...
lucky God prepared one for me the moment i raised my hand (:
and oh wells, suayness = no peak hour but still got JAM...
becux of ACCIDENT?!!

walau... but God is still in control... somehow...
i reached school at 9.10am!?!?
very shiok manns...
was climbing stairs in heels...
rushing to tutorial...
and found the class immediately...
however, Yong Keong and Huijuan reached earlier than me, but couldnt find the class..
*LOL* yeah.

so i took some time to cool off and FINISHED MY PAPER IN TIME...
best still, as though i wasnt even late...
nothing to boast...
but fact is, i cant believe it...
and fact is, im happy that it's still MY BEST tt i've given out...
be it wadeva the marks/mistakes/blurness...
im satisfied, unless i FAIL luhs!?

oh BTW, I PAID $18...
though i felt the uncle wanted to cheat me...
rembring Liyi's story...
but erm, i knew the road well enough...
and dad called me in time to make sure everything was fine!
so yeah, God is in control...
and the uncle knew i know the road somehow... (:

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ok there's one minor issue luhs...

was in Socio lec...
everything's fine...
only that i felt that someone's remark shows how shallow she is... ):

the lecturer was just going with her lecture...
and she mentioned something like "God ... ... "
its a very casual remark seriously...
anybody can say that...
and its like duhh, everybody refers to their god, as god!?

so her remark was...
"oh she must be a Christian lor..."
DOTS...
i dunno if this girl is really a Christian anot...
but i just realised the way stereotyping hurts sometimes...

not as if it really hurt me, but just irritated tts all lah...
but its like pls lor, like that can oso make a claim ah?
very SHALLOW ehs!
and the other thing is...
i learned something today
stereotyping something just to be something else isnt very nice...
just never thought of the receiving end... HAHA?

and most usually i dont really care what u wanna say about ur own religion or wadsoever...
u know the controversy and all...
just dont try hurt others unknowingly or knowingly yeah...
and on a superficial angle,
i call this being SHALLOW...

but anyway,
i believe that my God helps people like this find a way out still...
like He did for me...
i wasnt born NOT shallow LOL...
just didnt like the way "Shallow" takes a turn...

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yeps, again, i shouldnt be too satisfied that i finished some studying today...
oh AND I OFFICIALLY FINISHED BCS PRINTING...
arghx, i need to burn into CD ah!?
anybody knows how!?!

damn troublesome...
i dun even know wads a burner manns...
i only know that i can burn using Windows Media Player!
hehex... and convert files without a software by burning into the cd somehow...

yeahx, wadeva...
i need to save my skin...
not, i mean my time...
TPRAWKS planned an outing to Sentosa on Sat...
cant they like use their brains...
having exams officially in 1 wks' time...
and unofficial majority like 1 day time!??!

what the manns...
pls lah, people dont want to fail and dropout of sch too...
once again dont use Halo Effect/Stereotyping/Projection...
but im trying very HARD NOT to do LASTMIN WORK!
yeah, so while u cheeer me on,
dont suck me down...
ok whatever crap im talking... LOL

becca (: ♥ 9:08 PM


Wednesday, November 28, 2007
arghx! gd & bad stuff always happens on the same day!

walau im damn pissed lor...
pissed with what??
PISSED WITH TECHNOLOGY...

ok lets start nasty, so tt i can end with my original purpose for blogging...
and then, it'll be a sweet ending.. *diaox*

NO.1 CRAP OF THE DAY...
i wanted to get done with BCS excel project...
unfortunately, things ALWAYS have to crop up!

went to the library 15mins after it opened...
but went late for tutorial by 10 mins!?!

because technology is so DAMN CRAP...
my comp is the best (:
do u know that the excel file that i do/save in lab, home, wadsoever...
each time i change a computer...
it READS A DIFFERENT FORMAT...
and i mean printing settings...

and i know i pissed of the crowd for making adjustments on the spot in the lib...
i know its inconvenient...
but i dunwanna WASTE MONEY u know... ($6 IN TOTAL ++)
cuz im printing colour!

and i've NOT THE SLIGHTEST IDEA wad version of excel is the lib using!
because today when i reached home...
i realised that my documents have COMPLETELY 3 DIFFERENT types of FONTS for the same WORD!

wad the.!?!?!

all different comps read different fonts differently!?!
and when i print black and white, or colour in the lib...
also come out DIFFERENT FONTS!?!

WHAT THE CRAP MANNS...

and just when i was about to reprint certain ones at home...
cuz i was just thinking about being perfect...
after all its one click/print/paper/ink away...
walaux, it turns out that if i want it to be PERFECT...
its gonna take 1 click too many... *diaox*

so NOW...
guess what...
I DONT CARE ANYMORE...
all the tiny error full worksheets...

im just going to burn the perfect softcopy in the cd-rom as requested...
and whatever computer that freako intends to open it with...
and see wadeva FONT, wadeva FORMAT...
I CANT BE BOTHERED...
at least i knew i enjoyed doing 'fine-dining' (:

and oh right, i cant control everything...
i should leave a comment on that... yeah...
*sad case of technology*

-> pple invent all sorts to get fame and all...
-> pple didnt realise wad they caused...
-> pple wasted their efforts of trying to improve...
-> pple didnt get the point...
-> pple suppose to find out how to adapt to life...
-> pple suppose to enjoy life and love it as it is...
-> pple didnt need to seek improvement to fulfill wadeva it is...
-> bcux... the bottom line is, THE WORLD IS NEVER GOING TO BE PERFECT... ):

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ok i guess those were pissy words...
sorry about the incomphrehensible links...

so here's the prime reason why im blogging...
im damn happy ACTUALLY...

though nervous, curious, scared HAHAH...

I GOT INTO THE INTERVIEW!
oh if ure wondering...

its commsk resume assignment...
and top 6 gets in...
advantage: dunnit to do report...
disadvantage: everything counts on the performance of the interview!
AND LIKE 8 OTHER PAIRS OF EYES ARE OBSERVERS...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

damn nervous...
this was what made me feel like hoping not to get in...

but i was damn surprised too...

before the results came out...
i was having a battle in me...
to want or not to want it...
hahah... though wanting it cant change the results...

but i prayed and told God what i was thinking about...
-> to get it: will be my benchmark on achievemt in this resume assignmt...
-> not to get it: write report is better than interview and all?? LOL

oh right...
so God thinks that i deserve it (:
and oh wells, nobody had an A for the assigmt...
highest is probably 23...
and out of the 6 people...
there were at least two 23s, one 22half...
so im at least 4th, 5th or 6th...
HAHA, who cares...
anyway, im just happy because i did my best...

and what pleases me was that...
i tried my best!
and i made it as REAL as possible...
i didnt wanna fake anything, except graduation and all lor...
i was very particular about it...
such that i didnt wanna do a job position im not interested in...
tts why mine is slightly different from the rest of my group...
yeah

haiz, pat on the shoulder(:
jiayou for the next lap...
probably the last for this assignment, but the biggest sprint of all >.<

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P30 CHALET...
erm.... 5 6 7 8...
dots...

ok i made it clear that its not wise to do a mass outing for purple/tp rawks now...
NO.1 cuz alot of purple pple having outings/chalets individually...
planning a mass one will make things really complicated...

NO.2 cuz EXAMS ARE COMING LAH...
use ur brain use ur brain use ur brain...
and what the xxx lah...
its like the tutors dont use midsem test...
but use class test...
AS IF GOT DIFF...
sure, it became one week earlier...
WALAU receipe for disaster...

and i think there's a law of xxx /theory of xx... for this manns...
everytime you're worried about something tts already gg to take place...
something will just come and stir some crap for the fun of it...
WALAU...
damn SHIOK lah!
havent been sleeping properly...
and PROBABLY NEVER WILL...

there goes a sick Christmas in bed for me... ):

`ARGHX, i need a hang on everything...
esp technology and clashing events!

becca (: ♥ 10:09 PM


Tuesday, November 27, 2007
damn happy girl! (:

ok once again...
its only because i finished my BCS excel project...
like officially and everything is to my expectations!

today there's a mock test that caught us by surprise but...
as usual its fun because its excel... not...
but becux ITS FREESTYLE...
as in, it helps you review wad u know and wad u dont...
as in, u dont have to read one whole CHUNK for EVERY SINGLE instruction in the textbk and realise tt its LAME!

hehex, im damn happy...
though i was pissed that Excel 2003 is so outdated...
AND WHY SHOULD THE SCHOOL USE 2003?
ok maybe becux the labs are not 2007 and not everybody has 2007 formats at home ):

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haha i told u, im achievement oriented...
hehex, so now im going to be on Cloud 9 for awhile...

especially when the tutor tells us all to do last wk's and this wk's tutorial...
but everybody is playing GAMES!
ahhax, and of everybody, he chose to stand beside me and ask me wad im doing...
DOTS... (dun worry he's not here while i type LOL)
but i came to a conclusion that he's nice haha!

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hmmz, i feel that evey tiny achievemt adds an amount of encouragement to make u want to do bigger things...

the challenge and fulfillment...

1: Self-actualisation (Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs) in ORG BEHAV- Personal Motivation!

2: Pleasant outcome cause behav to be repeated! *and so i hope*
ORG BEHAV- Behav Modification

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later still got MircoE...
erm, have to hand in analysis...
that i spent 3hrs doing yestdy after midnite!

so im yeah sort of worried...
hope it works out though my Econs isnt tt good... ):

hahaz, but its a step out of it already lor!

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CANT WAIT for P30 outing... this friday night!
CANT WAIT for Christmas to come...
CANT WAIT & hope tt i can go Kleon's house for Christmas celebrations *CHOCO & WINE*

CANT WAIT for YF camp... cuz...
i CANT WAIT to meet PAM!!
and i CANT WAIT till i bring my surprise TREAT to camp! (:

CANT WAIT for OTC (X
CANT WAIT to see my lovely people (:
CANT WAIT to see Jan and the rest again... *saw her today in lib*

CANT WAIT to go to tt HOUSEWARMING... *jared,joel,justin,jon's new HSE!*

CANT WAIT TILL THE MAJOR HOLS IN MAR/APR...
CANT WAIT for FO, if i get in, that is... haha

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our class checked our seal points today...
ive got a 30...
not very high, compared to JanPhua,Lynn, Weina, XiaoQuan...
should go I-guides camp!!!! haha

but im not jealous,
like for the first time??
LOL, cuz its enjoying and having fun...
whereby u meet up with people wadeva u do...
not so much on commitment...
at least tts my goal... *haha*

anyway, half hour more to Micro tut...
i hope everything goes fine...
surely it will make my day (:
yay, tonight's motivation to study for In-class assignmt, Commsk...
and perhaps get some songs out on the piano...
*lol the piano sounds so alien to me, suddenly*
*maybe tts why most grd 8-ers stop playing piano, sobx*

`muacks, byebye! (x

becca (: ♥ 3:10 PM



MAKING IT WORTH MY CHRISTMAS DREAMS

ok its already 1 and half hours ++ since the alarm tt my dad set for me at 12am to get to bed.

i guess i've gt my answer to his question already
whether my time to study is like RUBBER TIME...
answer is yes...
and i rather sacrifice sleep above destressing moments or rushing my submissions...

hahaaz!

anyway got the urge to blog...
hehe, sense of achievement mahs!
though i cant finish all the many things i HOPED i could have...
but i think its good enough to have completed...
-> 1 article analysis for Micro
-> BCS Excel touchups

though Micro is to be handed in together with other sections of it, next yr??
LOL
this is the part where you start saying next yr,
and it feels damn far, BUT NO!

and BCS, i caught some mistakes on it...
searched the net for a company to specify on...
and reorganised my budget plan which was really no-sense, before that...

and i guess this is the part where u can use ERG Alderfer's theory of motivation!
im very achievemt oriented..
it makes me happy that i've done my best...
and it TOTALLY TEARS me apart to think i didnt do my 100% best!
ORG BEHAV hehe!
been discussing it with dad recently HAHA, emo kids and all...
becux he did OB previously too! (:

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my eyes are really dry and blur...
i dunno wads wrong...
im not even wearing contacts now...
though i wore it for like erm, 12hrs + today??
*ok i know mummy is gg to jump when she hears this ):*

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and eh oh,
today's dinner stry is funny...

i was damn hungry, so elaine and i went to cheers...
the queue was like WOW, so i decided not to buy anything...

and den i suddenly thought of bedok 85...
ive NEVER been there before...
so i asked elaine where izzit, maybe can ask my dad bring me for dinner...

then elaine oso feel like going...

so i called dad and he said yes to both requests! (X

so tts how, my dad, i and Kleon and Elaine went to dinner together at bedok 85!
hahahx, and we all ate bar chor mee, chicken wings & otah and sugarcane...
everybody paid for something except me LOL

anyway, i miss YCK's BAR CHOR MEE!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh, u know the type with mushrooms and all...
and chilli padi!!
thinking of it makes me drooll... *oops*
only that i think bedok 85's bar chor mee, nice but it tastes like thai food HAHAH!
ok very out of the league LOL...
just different for me hehes

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before achieveing much...
right back in school,
i was very sian diaox...
right from the beginning of the day!
maybe becux of monday blues...
this one's BAD BLUES...
lol! but FRENCH made it all GOOD! (:

oh well, my point is...
dad sent me to sch at 8am!
even Elaine was like WOW...
but i had some breakfast and stoned all the way...
couldnt quite get myself to review lecs and all...
IM SO BEHIND TIME U KNOW!

and then i started penning down the psychological way...
used to right essays/indirect poems/diary talk...
haha somehow they usually work, feel better after i write HEHE
yeah so this time i wrote 10 things to make my dreams come true...
like u know, i meant 10 TINY STEPS...

1: sleep at 12am!
*lol, i havent succeeded yet, not even today, its 1.52 am le!*

2: ... cant rmbr the rest le... but its all ard the same field...

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yepx...
so tonight's goal for me is...
in order not to make me sulk for my 2-weeks hols...
i need to prove that my effort now is worth the hols...
so i need to do my best!
yeahx, so tt was my motivation for tonight...

i wonder wads tomorrow's... LOL

kk nights! *looking forward to my dreamy Christmas dream (:*

becca (: ♥ 1:34 AM


Sunday, November 25, 2007
as usual unusual Sunday!

hmmz i just realised that im very used to bloggin...
almost became a habit everyday...
regardless of time anot...
if ONLY i could make certain stuff a habit... ):

haiz, and i need to resume to my usual NON-addiction to TV!!
arghx, yesterday evening, time passed really FAST...
i thought 9pm was still early, and its a good time to start work...
but then i saw the show 'Fang Yang de Xing Xing' and got stuck there...
till it ended at 10.30pm,
and to make up for LOST TIME, i worked till 3am!!
and woke up at 9.30am today!!
just 15mins to rush out of hse for worship service! *dots*

and oh wells, i forgot that i had to meet up the insurance guy at church...
and i made him wait like about half hour DOTS hahahah!!

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oh yea today is unusual becaux....

1: BOTANIC GNS

i decided not to join senior Webbers at the outing le...
but dad offered to drive me there for awhile after service...
so we went...
and i called galvin, david, bee em, charmaine, erica...
the last 2 didnt go...
the 1st 3 had their fones in SILENT mode...
so me and dad waited in the foodcourt slurping away at our WATERMELON SAGO!
hahah

oh and guess who we met?
AUNTY JOE! i thought she and family went back to US le!!
we saw them at Ju Eng like about 2-3mths ago i think...
and hahahx, she didnt see me...
until her daughter,(oops i forgot her name AGAIN),
saw me smiling and looking at them like some lunatic HAHAH...

it felt really weird, because i REALLY thought i could have mistaken her... LOL

den we met Alicia and Sheryl on the way towards 'Swan Lake'...
and then we met them...
just nice dad and i were talking about 'INTUITION' ahhahax...
we should have just walked down the road... *diaos*

spent about 45 mins with them after lunching/rather FEASTING with them HAHA

ok so we were suppose to think about our spiritual life...
and walk through the "jungle" in ABSOLUTE SILENCE...
such tt i met my dad halfway but NOBODY talked/reply his qns!!! LOL

i didnt quite have anything in mind...
just that along the way, i kept likening the place to certain stuff i rembr/know...

NO.1 MT OPHIR... church camp!
cuz there was this flight of steps...
that reminded me of mt ophir's 100 odd steps of about 5 metres ++++ high...

just a beautiful memory in my heart (:

NO.2 MISSED THE MUSIC

rembr how yf outing always had at least 2-3 guitars or something...
i missed that 'effect'... "phenomenon"??? "miracle"??

haahx, Webbers outing had loads of guitarist too...
but only Galv's guitar was present ):

NO. 3 40 yrs in the Wilderness??

hahahx, i dunno why... but walking through the jungle felt like that...

cuz Mark purposely walk slowly... ---> 40 YEARS!??
and Mark was our leader, only source of direction ---> PILLAR OF CLOUD/FIRE??
and we just followed blindly, cuz we dont know where else to go?? ---> the ISRAELITES!
and we were by 3 bunches, divided into WGs... ---> the different TRIBES!?
and we were all so TIRED and 'SILENCED' ---> tired SLAVES!?!?

then i suddenly saw a MAP brochure of Botanic gardns on the forest pavemt ---> THE WAY OUT BUT EVERYBODY WAS BLIND, TTS WHY GOD MADE THEM "TOUR" ROUND THE WILDERNESS FOR 40 YEARS!!

dots ahhahax! but it felt like that...
UNTIL we saw LIGHT!...
and then there was this GUST of wind...
and loads of autumn leaves fell onto the floor...
and there was this scenery/sight of a shelter and shady trees with ONLY yellow leaves!
it's like so COUPLES ZONE hahaha...
but its like the "paradisey feeling" hahahx... ---> represents reaching the PROMISED LAND hahah!

sorry about being IMAGINATIVE LOL!!

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2: Jared messaged me that they got a house!

its like a miracle of miracles!
after so many pathetic evacuations... FINALLY (:

happy for their fam too!
ok i told my dad...
and he was like, so u should ask, when's the housewarming?
DOTS/ LOL!

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ok so much for unusual stuff...
at least they are all pleasant surprises...
anyway, i gtg le...
ohoh ONE MORE...

3: PIANO!

finally decided to try some tune on the piano...
DOTS... i know u are 'dotting' too...

but oh wells, the shape of my piano...
the stuff played out or wadsoever...
really can tell alot about either me or about me-piano r'ship HAHA...

guess wad?
today i found the usual tiny moulds from dust on my PIANO!
WALAU, shoo shoo shoooo!
but it also determines the fact tt ive been deserting my piano...
*aww*

anyway, haiz...
i feel like i dont have a song to play anymore...
i duno ehs, gimme a song! (:

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kk really got to go...
although im still on CLOUD9 to the fact tt i FINISHED BCS EXCEL PROJ!! (:
to some extent luhs...
but i still got to come back down to Earth and finish the rest of the 90% of hw i guess....
*boohhoox, awww, guai abit lah*

muaahahhax, ok byebye! (x

becca (: ♥ 3:26 PM



BCS DONE! (x

whahax MAYBE u find me dumb...
but i started with BCS of all my hw/assignmts/tut/research to be done...

cuz i love EXCEL...
hahahx something my dad thought me since young...
only that i think Elaine hates it HAHAH
anyway, prob is, i dunno wads a 'Pivot Table/Chart'...
though its optional, but its like a challenge to do better LOL?

so i refused to ask my dad, thinking he doesnt know about tt part...
and i went internet to research as i didnt buy the textbk...
i REFUSED to, and after all my effort searching on internet, i die oso dunwan to buy le...
otherwise waste my time searching... ):

but guess wad, i finally decided to ask my dad about it...
and HE KNOWS!
walaux... waste my time...
HAHAH, so he taught me how to use it...
and im DAMN HAPPY that i finish my BCS project alrdy!!! (x

spent damn long on it everyday luhs...
was even late for WEB bcux of it...
becux i refuse to leave it unsettled in some areas... *DOTS*

the only disturbance now is...
THAT THE STUPID SCHOOL'S COMP HAS ONLY EXCEL 2003!
walau, irritating lor...
then alot of features cannot use de!
SIIANN... );
at least my comp will be able to tell me wad is going to go missing...
but damn sad still luhs, *loves&treasuresmycompevenmore!*
i hope i can go sch settle this and be DONE WITH IT forever more! (:

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the other thing is...
i woke up at 11.30am this morning whooxhh (:
and i refused to get out of bed still hahahax...
hope mummy is not reading my blog in Shanghai...
*oops*

oh they called few hours ago...
and they keep talking about how many gloves they bought!! SEVEN!
LOL? as if Singapore will snow soon!... -.-

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last of all...
had lunch with my grandma this afternoon...
she got me a bubble tea *hehe*
on some weeks, during to over-pampering...
i can get up to 4 bubbleteas a WEEK! *oops, fattening*

eh yeah the POINT of this POINT is...
on the way home from the coffeeshop...
was thinking about how-would-i-describe-'ahma' essay... LOL...

so here it goes, short one k...

My Grandma

My paternal grandma lives with my family in a 7-room flat.
She is not well-educated and can only speak Hokkien mixed with Teochew and some Chinese.
She used to understand English pretty well as she picked it up while working for Caucasians.

Like most mothers are, she can get really naggy and irritating at times.
The benefit of listening through the music is getting what you want in time to come.
For example, toys when we were younger, or stickers when we had that as a hobby, and now bubble tea for an exchange!

However, I only have a superficial relationship with her.
I feel that my grandma is rather introverted, perhaps due to the many ups and downs in life that she went through.
She is a very smart and independent woman!
And she always knows how to get the best.
She cares for her family members and especially her son, my dad!
But she does not know how to express herself in any other way, except nagging.

Her one and, probably, the only most significant weakness is loneliness.
I hope one day God can help her overcome that, and give her the peace she has probably never had.

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hmmz, feel so much better (:

anyway, i really gtg...
it's 2.15am...
and im guilty of something...

erm, the past 2 days...
i really feel like i've never utilised my time properly
*sounds like Total/Marginal Utility in Micro Econs hehe!*
erm yeah, bcux i've been reading frenster profiles, adding Rawkers, checking out blogs...
LOL, guilty as charged...
haiz... hopeless, i need to change...
cannot 'slow-n-steady' le!

oh and today's WEB...
i really dont feel like stepping out of the house...
you know, the feeling where u just woke up and started ur hw and u gtg out AGAIN...!!!
*arghx, I HATE DOING THINGS HALFWAY! --- perfectionist?? LOL*

and yeah, its like i was still contemplating to go anot...
so i decided to msg Bee Em, and ask her if she wld...
LOL, so dots ehs?
so she said yes, and i still went, but like 1 HOUR LATE!?!
dots manns...
the minute i stepped into WEB service...
the speaker (some ABC, who is a lookalike of somebody i know at one glance LOL)
was talking about something related to wad i was thinking at tt point of time...
HAHAH but i seriously dont quite rembr now...

anyway, after a whole night of BCS and coughing throughout!
my head is really getting dizzy/heavy...
so this is it! NIGHTS! (:

becca (: ♥ 1:27 AM


Thursday, November 22, 2007
hmmz good-bad day... rather bad-good day!

hahaha i wanted to blog in the morning...
becux my naggy grandma pissed me off...

do you know when she was about to go out of the house,
bringing my baby cousin to CWP...
she opened and closed the door 3-4 times!
JUST TO REMIND ME ON CERTAIN STUFF...

1st: u eat already not? wad time u leaving...

2nd: must rembr to close n lock the door when u leave horx! will rmbr not?...

3rd: must rembr to close all the windows before u leave horx cuz later might rain... then if rain lehs,...

4th: u want to go CWP to eat lunch with us anot? hungry anot....?

i tell u, i got really fed up by the 4th time...
hahahx, but although i signed into blogger,
i had no time to blog...
was already late for proj mtg!!

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NASTY STUFF ONE:

reached school late for proj mtg by half hour...
already feeling kinda bad...
i rushed to SDC SAR...
and den i dun see them ard...
so i called...
they dont bother to pick up the fone...
and then when another person FINALLY picks up the fone...
they ask someone else to answer...
and then the person says they are in Lab 5,

*changed venue w/o even telling me, shiok lah!*

then when i reached the lab,
as usual nobody bothers to update me on wads going on...

*i think if u're mad at me, pls say so... i already said sorry. and ignoring mine/ re-enforcing only ur ideas in the discussion is not going to make things better... i reckon u spit into my face...*

its not like i purposely ponned commsk twice in a row...
if u think im a ponner, think twice, u dont knw me...

and its not like any of u cared to update me,
is this how a group works??

and its like ive to go ard and spend my time asking...
and wad happens if i dont get the info in time...
izzit my fault again?

wads the point of calling 2 hrs before proj mtg,
to make sure i get the info...
the effort is considerable but pointless i find...

anyway, tts just one part of life...

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NASTY STUFF TWO:

met at least 5 people i know along the way after proj mtg...
none of them cared to smile or said hi...
i saw TPSU booth and some familiar faces...
but seeing some dao ones, i decided to turn around and go somewhere else... ):

i guess its probably bad blues today...
nearly freaked me into thinking otherwise...
i dunno why but everytime some stuff with no valid reason happens...
i'll start thinking of probably the 'worst-case scenario' people call it...

oh wells, i guess its just me...
but this is where NASTY meets BEAUTY (:

BEAUTIFUL ONE AND ONLY:

i met 2 crazy gurls out of nowhere...
laughing at their backfired prank which i didnt even knw of...
and then, im super GLAD i met them today...

usually on days like this,
i would usually think along of the path of "why bother them"...

so alright, im really happy to meet them...
they were really the LIFE of my day!! (:
thnk u scandals!!

and den met Elaine for French tut...
all these tiny things made my day soar (X

and oh wells, tts how my day ended right!

oh i forgot and BEAUTIFUL TWO!

dad came to fetch me after Socio lec!
and cool, we had dinner at IKEA...
while i guess mummy and Racheal are having either frozen meals, or hot choco in Shanghai?!

oh and BEAUTIFUL THREE!
although its damn rush and LAST-MIN definitely...
there's OTC briefing tmr!
although otc is going to be gruelling...
i hope we have as much fun as we're going to learn!
and plus rembr this time its going to be different...
my scandals are going wheeee!!!

*excited!*

haha gtg chiong my projects now...
just to for a brief preview of my 2 wks hols...
here it is...

17-19 dec = OTC
20-23 dec = supposedly KL but its fully booked, so slacking somewhr with FAM...
24 dec = NLBP Christmas musical!! and carolling (:
25 dec = may have Christmas service
28 dec = may be going down to NLBP YF performance night.
29 dec = Mark & Sue wedding + WEB..

i guess that's all,
and oh no, im stoning again...
the medicine is working le...
must get down to business before i go to the wrong land...
BYEBYE

`trying to take things slow... cuz my body says NO... ):

becca (: ♥ 10:37 PM


Wednesday, November 21, 2007
2nd day of MC??

ok to some people like Sarah...
will say i wasted my MC...
HAHAH...

was damn funny in Socio class...
which i decided to attend becux i missed both Socio lec and tut last week...
and have loads to catch up on...
every time i wake up... or sleep...
im thinking about how to catch up/buck up/finish my assignmts...
tts how TERRIBLE it is...
BUT yet somehow i enjoy it HAHAH...
ironic??

so i had a HARD /WEIRD/AWKWARD time during class...
becux my tutor was counting one extra student...
and when he realised its me, i sort of lied that i signed my attendance alrdy...
and loads of awkwards moments...
whereby at the end of class, i went to explain to him luhs...

i was just hoping that this attendance contradiction in the system wouldnt lead to people thinking that my MC is fake!
but its really GENUINE!
spent $35 for consultation and medicine...
plus constand nagging from mummy to take medicine!

and guess wad the Doc said??
im a healthy girl, 1 wk already near recovery! DOTS!?
but oh wells, im not fully recovered yet...
as u by now know, im probably stressed and exhausted...
tts why im always having dizzy spells from time to time...

but wad i cant see eye to eye to is that...
since last week, IM NEVER HUNGRY...
how can this be?? when suddenly the next moment...
my body suddenly shows signs of gastric...
and then i get dizzy
(the way u start stoning and dunno where u are... not that the world is spinning)
yeahx, and then i dunno when am i suppose to eat?!

oh wells, maybe my body is trying to tell me something...
i dunnno??

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2nd part of today...
though im kinda worried that my Commsk tutor is pissed with my missing of her classes 2 wks in a row...

but i cant hang around in sch for 5hrs,
something a sick person cant do alone...
so i hung ard with Sarah...
for lunch and all... and we went to the lib...
and i really literally fell asleep!!
this few days, i can really sleep wherever i go ):

and then it really felt good, and LESS DIZZY after that sleep....

and then i went to meet mummy and Racheal...
and we headed for the airport where we met my dad...
and we sent them off...
THEY ARE GOING TO SHANGHAI!! FOR 10 DAYS...
and my dad and I are NOT going ):

haiz, i really wanna go but regarding my health now...
lucky im not going... ):

anyway, i hope they have fun!
ahahx...

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and i CANT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS!

funny how every year... that's the best part of the year...
its not abt LUCK or HOROSCOPES or wadeva...

it's just good to know that there's a God who controls everything...
He can! but it's just matter of IF He would...
cux otherwise everybody/everything will be like ROBOTS...

ok wadeva, im just saying...
i have a really packed 2 weeks of hols
WITHOUT any space left for proj mtgs/assignmts/last min rush...

i hope i can enjoy OTC without worrying...
and i hope Racheal and I have enough time to wrap the gifts...
and i hope it will still be one of the BEST Christmases I have ever had! (:

anyway, i hope yours (general) will be too!

ok im starting to type nonsense...
and if u realise there's no structure...
becux im beginning to stone alrdy...
after taking my flu med!

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on another note...
i just wanted to say that im 75% through with BCS excel proj!! (X
i've spent like DAMN LONG on it le lah...
but i enjoyed every bit of researching on info...
except the part where my butt is aching numb right now...
and my eyes are tired from staring into the comp!

and the other thing is that...
i've managed to summarise finish my commsk online discussion tinggi so fast!
and its a whole lot of it ok!
one of the longest posts manns!! ):

anyway, yeah, im really stoning and exhausted...
i should go sleep although its really way too early...
haiz... i hope i'll make use to tmr in a more efficient way!

yeah and guys! PLEASE REMBR MY CHRISTMAS PREZZIE!
thnk u! LOVE YOU MUACKX (x *nights*

*oh and i wanted to say...
anybody got SECRETS' scores??
can print for me or something?
i have them but no software DOTS! ahah ):

becca (: ♥ 11:13 PM


Tuesday, November 20, 2007
...and then i fell sickk ):

hello! (:

yesterday was rawking nice!!
i dont know why but everything seemed to go my way...
only realised it at the end of the day HAHA!
it was a sweet day (:

so im coming to share it with you,
since today i come home early ponned BCS lab & Micro...
because... becux... bcux...

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BEAUTIFUL BLUES!

after 5 days of not meeting my usual budds...
haha nice summary...

NO.1 I GOT INTO OTC!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh, damn happy...
for the whole morning during Mkting lec and all...
i was so nervous and keep asking pple when are the results out and where...
and Elaine got most of them...
and we were expecting it to be out at 6pm at TPSU board...
but while on the way there at 12pm, we saw it in BIZ sch!!

hahaha i really felt like screaming...
but there were too many people there...
and people i know but not close enough to throw face HAHA...
so i waited till i called Jan to tell her she got in...
and then screamed over the fone HAHA! *diaox*
then i called Grace hahax...
DAMN HAPPY WE ALL GOT IN TOGETHER!! (X

esp when the whole morning they keep telling me they sure wont get in de... ): LOL

haha i cant really rmber wads the rest...

ohoh, successfully handing in my COMMSK WRITTEN DOC...
seriously it wasnt my fault that mine differed from the group...
nobody quite bothered to update me... ):
i did whatever i can... and was DAMN SCARED its WRONG...

even handing up to Dilah,
i had the fear i forgot or left it somewhr, or she forgot or something...
but i guess overall im very satisfied that i managed to complete it...
that i did my BEST (:

and proj mtg...
1ST TIME IM EARLIEST!!
damn happy manns, so i wont feel so guilty
*i do feel guilty today lah, tell u later*

oh and met faces ive never seen in a long long time...
last week during tp rawks too...
kaiwei, serena, cy...
was damn happy and SHOCKED to see each one of them!
my GLs! (:

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ok now for the nasty part...

1: yestdy night i began to fall really sick...
i had fever and my whole body was ACHING like some OLD GRANNY!!

2: yestdy night, i DIDNT even DO ANY PROJ RESEARCH...
so today i feel damn bad... ):
and i wasnt even thinking...
and dumb sarah made me recall stuff and waste my brain cells yestdy night...

3: today morning, i thot i was fit enough to go to school...
becux school is impt to me... after tp rawks...
i hope i dont die out...
BUT then something proved to me that a stoner cant study either...
so i decided to go home... and ponned my tutorials lor... ):

i went to Mensa for lunch...
had no appetite...
and dunno wad to eat, but i dunwanna get gastric again...
tt was how i got sick...

and then after very long, i decided to eat kway chap...
ordering extra veg, i made my way down stairs...
and then i wasnt thinking, just staring into blank space....
and i tripped and everything just splattered...
it was damn SLOW MOTION, and super PAISEH...
but i cldnt react, i just let everything tumble...
DAMN... so i decided to go on empty stomach..
though i ate abit of dumplings i share-ordered earlier...

and then i was stoning throughout the rest of the day...
i had NO fever, but i was weak like crapp...
den i come home lor...
i feel fit and i have nothing but homework/projs/submissions on my mind...
mummy says im too stressed and i shldnt hv gone to TP rawks...
but i really feel fit but very blur...

now that im home, i need an MC to cover my absence...
ive no idea how the doc will gimme an MC when my fever's not there...
and i dont look sick... arghx...
it was a hard decision to pon sch alright...
and f.y.i im not a mugger, just a worried student perhaps??
LOL, anw im gg to try get some slp b4 mummy comes hme from JB to bring me see doc...

nights? (:

becca (: ♥ 3:01 PM


Monday, November 19, 2007
finished written doc for commsk!

ok it feels like VICTORY somewhat to me!
because erm i completed something this weekend?
like forced to, but enjoyed the process of it 'somewhat'...
though im taking the risk that my tutor's gg to be really rigid and fussy...
im not sure how prepared for the consequences i am...
but if u wanna prove that it's solicited, I HAVE IT...
if u wanna make it seem real, I HAVE THE DOCS & APP FORM...
even if u may think its a waste of energy doing something not graded...
BUT i enjoyed it (:
i rather do a resume for some job i really like/want...
than for some job for the sake of convenience and lack of miscomm... :P

the other thing is, the whole TP Rawks thinggi is still in my head...
the impact is not as great as FO...
but it's still ringing in there...
how i wish it was like FO...
but somehow there's just this gap!?
yeah, but from that 'nod' on the last day, i knew it was the climax and our BEST... (:

oh and after blogging vaguely that from this TP Rawks event...
i finally know why im suited to go HTM...
and guess what?
my Rawker smsed me the next day, about why im suited for HTM lol!!! :P
this is called affirmation! (:

and oh well, trying to face my crazy workload with a brand new face each day...
and now im going to chiong marketing research...
if possible, mking tut...
if possible, ob research...
if possible.... and THE LIST GOES ON... arghx!

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have you ever felt like you're never going to get wad u dreamt for?
(haha random, nvm... u'll nvr guess)
but yet pple say its possible, God says its possible through Him...
and then the facts are shouting like "pls lor!"

HAHA!

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im so tired today ok...
finished my coverletter, resume, relevant docs, app form and so on...
with the help of my dad's advice...
my sister's proofreading...
my mum's envelope LOL?

but since morning, i've been really groggy...
and sort of dizzy and nauseous everywhere i went...

even till dinner at Tony Roma's!! @ Suntec City!
and my dad tried out the new expressway which he calls, Kay-Po Expressway AHAH!

so this is me for now...

oh and i really never touch my home's upright for umpteen years lor...
den suddenly mummy asked me to play PHANTOM!?!?
and guess wad? F and Alice watched Phantom at our house, and F was like so engrossed into it!! HAHAH
*NEW Phantom fan! (: *

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and the other thing is that...

it's really NOT jumping into conclusions SOMETIMES...
like Halo Effect in Org Behaviour...

but certain characteristics of you can really tell what brain u are...
and how you gonna react in future...
nothing to alienate about...
just a fact that is almost always true...
and sometimes its just sooo CUTE to see how true it can be...
though frustrating...
ahhh, you dont wanna know about the examples i have in mind... LOL

ok gtg finish my research and get to bed!
JIAYOU TO BECCA! (:

becca (: ♥ 12:35 AM


Saturday, November 17, 2007
Back from TP Rawks! 2007

ok loads of things happened...
they are just the small little tiny things that blessed me indirectly HAHA (:

but FIRSTLY anyway pardon me...

every of the 3 days, by 5plus im already really drained out and starting to really STONE...
-pardon my poor performance after 5pm...

every of the 3 days i reach home longing for my bed...
and with badly aching feet, im like hoping that somebody can piggyback me home!!! SERIOUS
-pardon me for not going online to discuss projects and doing my parts...
-pardon my poor attitude to overcome misunderstandings and mistakes in the projs...
-pardon my slow work... that dragged down our project performance... >.<
(like emailing to wrong addresses, and non-replies to emails, and being reli BLUR today)

and once again, i know you all will say...
"lucky i didnt join TP Rawks!" & so on and so forth...

but then 2ndly, i learnt many things too...
many things that you perhaps cannot learn in a lifetime...

TPSU is a very organised and left-brained mgt...
and only through that kind of leadership then will you not end up in disaster...

and then i recalled my experience as a Rawker...
probably the hospitality isnt as good as i hoped for,
but the way things are organised is EXACTLY wad inspired me to look forward to Chiangmai 2006 mission trip!
because it was exactly what was desired to be planned, EVEN B4 i went for TP Rawks!
just imagine how great minds think alike...

and as you can see left-brained managements...
are very high achievemt-oriented & very serious & very structured and all...
yeah its true that there are flaws and all too...
not very nice to mention here yeah so im gg to skip it...

anyway, yeah through this...
i finally understand why i entered HTM... haha! dunt tell u!
and wads the diff in HTMers - putting others first??
you want firsthand experience, go find out from HTMers yourself :P

and erm yeah, i've learned wad it means by there's no time for you to find some confidence some times...
just got to get it out from your esteem and personality and character...
and knowing who you are!
and from there we had to be so self-initiative!
sometimes its reli reli hard, but oh wells, we learn now...

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Anyway im all full of aches right now...
and guess wad i reached home coming to 1am...
in a cab which i paid $21.20!
and i reached home to a sleeping family and guests...

guess wad??
F & fiancee Alice has come to our house to stayover?!
my fam met F in Thailand on our last mission trip!
and today, they're gg to bring them to Web HAHAHA...

wad a small world! (:

And i have got a monkey donkey workload tonight!
and before i can even go online...
people are already asking if im done with my RESEARCH!?!
which I HAVENT EVEN STARTED!?
what the...
but dont worry, i feel that after coming out from TP Rawks!, i know how to handle my life better...
im serious...
and i know i've got CRAPP infront of me in the wks to come...
but im going to hang on there and do wadeva i can...
im only Human (:

anyway, i sort of promised God that if it stops raining, I'll go to WEB...
and it just started drizzling...
i dont know if i should go...
but i kinda feel that He knows that i'll still go... LOL!
so BYEBYE (:

becca (: ♥ 2:56 PM


Tuesday, November 13, 2007
the sudden burst of energy!

hmmz seriously it was as if some fairy godmother twinkle some glitter at 6pm sharp today...
and *POOF* suddenly every bit of stress disappears (:

maybe its psychological HAHA

but yeah came to share this!
im stress-free from now on... for a few days...
but i think it'll be better than wad it was the day before...

yestday night, i really can NOD OFF TO SLP infront of my OB tut hw...
and while chatting with jan...
so i gave up and went to bed...

before starting my crazy run of proj research/summary/tut...
i planned everything...
and i feel so in control! maybe you should try it too (:
yeah but rembr words should come with actions...

anyway, yeah dad came to fetch me home from school today...
so i reached home B4 SUNSET!! (x
and he went to reservice earlier on, and i STILL think that uniforms are so cool (:
HAHA

and yeah, im a HAPPY girl today (:
becux there's no external pressure for a while...
and i cant express this, but i love it this way hahax...
and yeah i still got loads to do...
but it feels like i got buffalo's energy now!

and actually i almost became sian diaox about tmr... (TP rawks)
becux i dun really have close frens in there...
so much about being lonely, but haha i cant say so...
because there are quite a few i know just not as close to them...

yeah and i hope somehow Pam and her frens will be able to go!
i want to show them TP wheeee (:

ok im on a free chain of thoughts that probably dont flow tt well HAHA...

yeah but at the back of my mind...
im thinking about 2 things...

1: certain pple are getting daoer to me LOL...
and i cant fathom wad on Earth izzit about...
or perhaps there really is nothing... im just thinking too much...

2: on the other hand, im very glad that i havent given up to be in my old group... (:
it turned out to be a right decision...
shall see how things work under pressure and all,
but im rather sure it started off differently this sem...
anyway, thank God for them! shall see how things go along.. (x

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ok i need to sleep early...
and THNK YOU Rachel (Lyion)...
her enthu-ness abt tmr...
has infected me! HAHA

nights (:

becca (: ♥ 8:58 PM


Monday, November 12, 2007
arghx damn stressed!!!!

im dying manns...
save me somebody!

today every lecture or tutorial or proj mtg i attend...
it reminds me that tonight im going to be dead meat... ):

and then EVEN ON THE WAY HOME...
people (group leaders for diff proj) are reminding me to do research and done by TMR!?
walau i only can promise that i'd try my best...
and im super SCARED that i'd forget wad im supposed to do tonight...

haiz, so all i rembr now is that i MUST blog wad i must do LOL...
ok not funny..
erm the other thing is that i was so fed up on the way home...
other than the stress in my mind...
i was carrying stones home!
like a stack of AA paper!?!
my water bottle which i nvr bring to sch unless im sickk!
plus today's the day with MOST books to bring...
and i brought my heaviest but warmest jacket!
and im like wearing JEANS, like i never did to sch before! ):

so i returned home reli SULKY...

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so wads up for tonight's crazy row?

Commsk research + SUMMARY!?!
how the heck am i going to give Dilah tmr!@?!

BCS tutorial assignmt
which in priority wise i'd probably rather face the music...

MicroEcons tutorial
which i havent even had the time to review anyting about ELASTICITY?!

Marketing research touch-ups..
u know the thing abt projects...
they NEVER FINISH, but kip accumulating...
walaux...

Commsk coverletter and relevant documents...
at least that, becux i have to rush through the resume next wkend!!
when i'd probably be HALF-ALIVE?

Marketing research on Current Market Situation analysis!?
this is wad i mean by one subject NOT equal one proj!

OB tutorial...
so that Yingqiu can help me take down the right answers?!

damn i feel super hopeless...
i cant complete everything tonight? can i?
not as if im all hyper enough with adrenaline on my side...
im sick rmbr!?
AGRHX, ok i guess im going to give it a try...
but even if i dun sleep and things dont work out...
i hope you all dont kill me ):

byebye off to the abattoir...

becca (: ♥ 8:14 PM


Sunday, November 11, 2007
battlefield for next 46hrs

ok that means crazy life from now until 6pm of Tuesday...

now im busying about with printing lec notes!
arghx, why have to print myself??
BECUX im always LATE for lectures...
esp 1st lecs of the day...
and finding my class chairperson to get them is like embarrassing HAHA

and the other thing is that i just realised i 4got to print the notes for tmr...
dots...
and i have a race against time in this 46hrs!!

tonight:
i just managed to hand in my BCS internet svc providers assignmt online... (x
*damn HAPPY*

and im suppose to chiong my commsk online discussion assignmt by tonight...
preferably 11.59pm bcux the POOR POOR discussion leadr...
will end up having a hard time to collate... ):

and im supposed to chiong commsk PBL research...
so that i can finish my summary in time (mon) so that my grp mates can combine them together,
IN MY ABSENCE ): *i feel bad manns*
wads more? i feel like i've let a very gd nice teacher down...
it made me sad when she said "shldnt u pass the impt parts to others who can make it for class?"
oh mannx *whines* i hope she hasnt lost hope in our grp... >.<

im supposed to chiong Marketing research for tmr's discussion...
and once again *i feel damn BAD ok!?*
bcux im missing half of the discussion...
and pls know that i dont put u all second just bcux of that ok?
but im missing lecture on Friday so now i die die have to go for this one... ):
to make up for it, im going for discussion during my only 1hr break...
and squeeze sometime for my lunch betwn lectures!!! WALAU damn exhausting!!

that's for tonight! ):
*sobx*

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YESTDY

went to Jan's compy...
and erm its kinda COOL though mini...
but yeah, scandal, i wanna let you know that i'll try to be there when you need me to be (:
and DONT FEEL BAD just becux im sick and on this battle HAHA
love you scandal! (x


TODAY

today went back to NLBPC...
it's like a walk down the aisle of memory lane...
so many mixed emotions...
afraid of being dao-ed
afraid of weird pple...
afraid of comments...
then suddenly altogether i dont care anymore...
and then suddenly altogether i became MYSELF where it USED TO be...
then suddenly altogther i missed them so much
*huggiex*

ive got so much to blog right now...
but rembr i've got a time battle tonight especially...
so got to restrict what i say...
and prevent myself from getting stuck in my thoughts haha!

so yeah popped by their musical rehearsal and all...

do you know that every single thing from start of svc, to the performances, to the rehearsal...
everything struck some bells in my memories...
it felt SOO yestdy!
and then altogther i realised im living in the past once more...
and i think that's so BECCA LOL! nvm...

so anyway, just also needed to say that...
im not always at the piano at church ok?
inside me i was whining,
i havent been touching a piano for weeks...
i havent been talking to one like i used to...
i havent been at a grand/minigrand ever since my grandma's funeral...
yeahx, i kinda missed it too, but it just feels so weird...
probably this part of me is oso in the past...
i still have yet to get over the fact that ive failed myself badly... >.<

anyways, wanna tell you all that i love you loads! (:

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last but not least...
i came to blog actually because of this!
HAHA, i dunno but it kinda FREAKS me out to rembr this bad dream LOL...

and you know how DREAMS can be soo REAL!?!?

i was having an afternoon nap, becux my headache was acting up again...
and then out of nowhere, i suddenly had a bad dream...
that there's an earthquake and the whole block was falling sideways...
and i though of many things as the whole building shook and topple and i feel like im in midair...
as though im going to die... ):

then i dunno how where what when...
but the dream just ended like that...
and i dont even know who died?! LOL

conclusion: what a DUMB dream!

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ok i got to rush BYEBYE, salut, zai jian, sayonara, sawat dii kha! (:

becca (: ♥ 7:51 PM


Saturday, November 10, 2007
arghx, STREESSSED! ):

OK RELAX...
arghx! im getting really short-tempered this morning...
maybe because my mum and I started off on the wrong note...
but i dunno lahs, just get irritated when it appears as though
God just got in the way...
nvm if u dont understand, 4get it...

and once again,
i have the urge to do something rebellious or bad...
anything that you dont want me to do, I feel like doing...
anything you want me to do, I feel like throwing it in your face...
just in general, but its there.. ARGHX

and wads more, I RELI FELL SICK!
i almost thought i lost my voice this morn...
but i just realised that it only got sexier... dots "
i rather get it over and DONE with...
i wanna be THROUGH with getting SICK! ):

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so im doing my commskills now...
and it's starting to really piss me OFF!
bcux pple dont understand that i only have until Tues to showcase whatever I have...
and get a good grade!
WALAU... can faster send your docs anot...

and THIS is EXACTLY the REASON why i HATE DEPENDING on PPLE...
becux they will fail you by your standards...
anw, i failed myself before, i know what's worse than others failing me... >.<

anyway, sorry, im just at boiling point... ):

here's a career profile survey i took...
in the midst of researching other people's parts...
SO THAT I CAN DO MINE!!

YOUR INTEREST COLOUR IS: YELLOW
People with yellow Interests like job responsibilities that include organizing and systematizing, and professions that are detail-oriented, predictable, and objective. People with yellow Interests enjoy activities that include: ordering, numbering, scheduling, systematizing, preserving, maintaining, measuring, specifying details, and archiving, which often lead to work in research, banking, accounting, systems analysis, tax law, finance, government work, and engineering.

YOUR USUAL STYLE IS: BLUE
People with blue styles prefer to perform their job responsibilities in a manner that is supportive and helpful to others with a minimum of confrontation. They prefer to work where they have time to think things through before acting. People with blue style tend to be insightful, reflective, selectively sociable, creative, thoughtful, emotional, imaginative, and sensitive. Usually they thrive in a cutting edge, informally paced, future-oriented environment. You will want to choose a work environment or career path in which your style is welcomed and produces results.

P.S. its quite true and reflective on me...
ONLY THAT, i think it's opposite...
interest colour is Blue and and usual style is Yellow...

f.y.i. this is the link..
http://www.princetonreview.com/cte/quiz/career_quiz1.asp

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ok anyway, i need to chill...
or i'll BURN up to DEATH )=

becca (: ♥ 12:10 PM