Thursday, January 31, 2008
getting along well (:

ok today is really woahs...
90% of the day was like extremely HIGH...
like now...
but for a moment, i was so ___ until i really feel like crying LOL!
ok i dont have like mood swings kinda thing...
at least not until sooo jialat!
everything has a reason (:

sighs...
my morning was damn high...
dont know why...
but it was infectious too...

after CMMSK... (which ended pretty early)
which extends my 5hr break!!

i had OB proj mtg...
damn slack, cuz we were all so crazily HIGH for absolutely NO REASON!! :p
maybe cuz most submissions are done with...
its the turning point towards the stress climax for exams ):

tmr i stil have a roleplay,
and guess what? im playing 'the Tai Tai' !! LOL... :p

then went for French...
before this is where the stress comes...
i think even our tutor was UBER STRESSED ):
probably by the way we wrote our dialogue?? ):

but i can say me and Elaine did our best alrd...
if it's like crap, im sorry but its our best...
and we reprinted like 3 times?!?
and ok lah, im quite satisfied with our work...
despite the red ink all over the place on the dialogue we handed in,
and despite being late for Socio REV LEC!
i think we did a good job (x

ok then went to Socio Lec...
chiong all the stuff through....
arghx, i hope i'll be prepared enough to gain confidence for Sat's paper!!

then my fam picked me up,
and we went to Billy Bombers' for dinner (x
had Surf & Turf -- fish fillet & steak combo!! *uber NICE*
my dad admits that Billy Bombers have good enough customer skills...
to attract him to re-dine there for 3 times,
and neglecting the PRICE! which is uber HARD u know... :P

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ive alot to say hehes!

guy at the taxistand

there was this couple at the tp taxistand..
who was waiting for their friend's parents to pick her up.while doing so, and even after which...the guy was like very assertive?keep trying to act all smoochie, when the girlfriend absolutely insisted he stopped for a few times alrdy!

wah seh, i think this kinda of guy very irritating...plus very hard to get things into his mind,cuz he's all immature and very physical....dots.

initiative is cool, as in nice,but not extending it to becoming assertive!

(another issue)

wah seh, it damn make me think alot lahs...
its not my priority but it made me feel like crying...
and i felt really stupid for it lah can...

because i dont know who may read this,
im not going to disclose anything,
until everything comes to light on Saturday ):
i hope its nothing bad...
or maybe i think too much! ):

still i dont like the sound of it!
super intimidating ehs! i only sounded calm over the phone...
and was super stoned immediately after that...
hope u can see how much it means to me (:

was so stoned that when a fren called my name from like 10 over metres away...
i was so 'snapped to consciousness'! >.< so silly manns, cant imagine i can get so worried becux of this! ):

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while i still have alot more on my mind...
like exams and things i wanna do for CNY and for Mar/Apr hols!
and like so many other things...
i hope my brain can regulate enough space to think about so many things! LOL

so now gtg le,
got roleplay tmr...
and micro lec! (:
gtg prepare slides and speech le! ):

so jiayou together yeahs!
we're all in this pool of crap together! (x

becca (: ♥ 9:58 PM


Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Fireworks Schedule -
5 Feb at 9.30pm,
6 Feb at midnight,
7 Feb at 9.30pm,
8 Feb at 9.30pm

somebody bring me! (:
i know im definitely going...
once with my family, plus aunts and all that...
another time with my friends hopefully ??
*i dont mind going every night!! just love its presence so muchh (:*

i think my family will go after 1st day of CNY (hopefully)
i really wanna go with my peeps on 5th Feb Tuesday (end of BCS exam and TORUREs!)

and i really wanna hang out...
6th, midnight is too late ):
and others, i'd be probably busying somewhere...
and i know WED I DONT HAVE CLASS!! (x

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people, HANG IN THERE...
CNY is coming...
get a breather and chiong on...
WE CAN DO IT (X

you know today i got over with Socio presentation & Cmmsk summative!
damn happy...
everyday, i feel like a little bird slowly making progress in escaping out of this humongous JAIL! ):

and it feels like daylight is super near, but yet so far!
arghx! dun give up!!


SOCIO PRESENTATION

seriously, damn cool!

ok no.1, i reached school at 7.35am...
can u imagine!?!
even when my dad send me, ive to wake up at 6 plus!?!
and i reached home like 10 plus tonight!!

I've been out for like 16 hrs!?!
do u know how freaking TIRED i am?!

ok next, was with sarah till the rest of my socio group came...
then we looked through the slides...
DONT EVEN HV TIME TO PRACTISE!
tts the worst u can get from morning presentations ):

then have to print the presentation form and ppt slides all that...
made me run up and down, everywhere!! ):

then the presentation itself...
DOTS manns, i dont know why every group have to shoot so many question lah...
BUT WE HAD FUN! lol!!
i think this is the ultimate God can give...
you know how worried i was, cuz we nvr practise...
and im still rushing the slides at the expense of my Cmmsk summative the next day??
and i knw we cannt do it in our own efforts manns!!
90% chance of flooping...

though there were still a few floops here and there...
i know its our best...
and ive no regrets!
the coolest part was the Q&A...
if it was Mkg, i think we'd be panicking... whahahx!
but this is SOCIO and we discussed every single qn! (:
so we all know what we would answer, and if one person cannot explain enough to get the pt across...
4 others will take turn to shoot back in domino effect...
without collusion u know...
its like we just all replied our discussed answer at the same time!
until the other groups were like 'WOAH' hahahs (:
DAMN FUN!~ (x
*but no offence k!*


CMMSK SUMMATIVE...

aiya sure B or C alrdy lah...
i CANT EVEN FINISH MY MINUTES!! ):
cui manns >.<

damn siianx...
i was so stoned aft the ans bklet was taken away...
cant imagined that i couldnt finish again!! ):
but actually its like majority of the class has not completed the paper luhs!
just depending on wads the degree of it whahas!
*so PATHETIC!*

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then had French mtg with Elaine...
kinda got out some skeleton with rotten flesh LOL...
got to polish our dialogue by tmr!! ):

jiayou jiayou...
i hope our roleplay's pretty cool!! (x

Friday got OB roleplay!!
-emo kids-

and Saturday, i got SOCIO EXAM...
terror of terror!!
oh u know Socio ppt...
im super satisfied with my part manns...
'comments on Socio'...
i wrote it in a Literature way LOL...
super as though im doing a Lit paper on Yamakasi!! :P

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ive went for SL camp interview just now!
i hope things work out...
if they do...
here's a possibility of what's up for me this Mar/Apr hols!! (:

27 Mar ---> Dinner & Dance *im gg!!!*
31 Mar- 2 Apr ---> SL camp
7-13??Apr ---> FO camp! (x *the goal*
21 Apr ---> sch starts & Week 0 orientation starts!! (:

so i hope i can work for 3 wks before 27th!!
and squeeze all my hols and everything from 27th onwards...
and i still hope tt i can go onboard a CRUISE! or go somewhr on SQ!! (x

my aunt says Shanghai is S N O W I N G!! (:
i want to see snow (x

kk im damn damn tired...
i can really doze off even when someone's talking to me...
im so sorry!
gtg catch some slp!! (:
`BECCA's going to make it WORTH her CNY (x

becca (: ♥ 11:25 PM


Tuesday, January 29, 2008
woohoos (:

ehs i feel like blogging again...
LOL..
becux of 2 things...
whahas *i like objective blogging*
AND *i must end my day's post with obj blogging (x*
HEHES

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no.1 me as a sister!?

whahas just a random thought passing by...
as u know i think alot, by now ive realised i do LOL :P

was just grumbling to my sister how can she study on the bed...
AND DOZE OFF AT 9PM!?!

arghx! cant stand such sight...
maybe cuz im slogging myself out ):

but i guess just now, the way i expressed my 'grumbling'
was like probably misinterpreted LOL???
i think i fail in showing what i feel LOL!!
but i think i pass in getting the message across...
and the message was "get up and study, IF you want to"

cuz what i did, and i dont know why i did it...
was to "whack" her with the pillow...
till she appeared awakened...
and then off-ed the lights...
its kinda to say that, if u dont wanna study, go slp...
as in, if u dont think its impt, then why push urself??

yeahx, but i think, my pt is that im a weird sister LOL!! :P

cant imagine if i really have a older sibling...
although i sort of do... whahas...
but as in biological ehs...
cuz i'd be really pampered/attention-seeking LOL... whatever :P

and i'd probably never learn whahas...
maybe that's why God made me the older one ):
oh wells, maybe that's the first qn i'd ask Him when i go to Heaven whahahs!

ehs, yeah i think as an older sis...
i do things probably not as what others would LOL...
bet u cant imagine manns...
this is only 10% of me as an older sis!
and eh, u probably wont get to see even 50% of it whahas... :P
eh u really wont think its me... hahas!!
ohwells, hme is a cool place for FREE expressions (x
*really hope everyone thinks so too.*

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no.2 BCS online website...

you know something...
im just DAMN SATISFIED...
that its all over and that it turned out fine...
after all the nerve-racking STRESS over the weekend!!

that i cannot stop thinking/talking abt how its OVER! (:

and the music we chose to put on the hmepg...
although not published ahahx...
but its super nice...
i like stuff that, the more u hear/see/interact, the more u enjoy/like/love it!! (x

and i love this song manns...
it expresses the right mood of FINISHING THE PROJECT!! (:
that during presentation, i was like...
WOW (: the song damn suits the mood...
and we were the FIRST to present!! :P

i think the song is: Yiruma- River flows in you
its a piano piece, really well-expressed one, clear articulation (:
that it really feels like the breeze blowing onto you when you're one top of a mountain (x
wahahs sry for the imagination LOL

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i think im driving myself crazy...
and pple ard me crazy too LOL...
ive been repeating myself so many times...
its starting to feel reli NAGGY ):

arghx... i need some 'refresh' button in my brain!

`BECCA needs something better than Energiser.

becca (: ♥ 9:11 PM



day 2 of crazy week . . .

erhz im in bcs lab and its damn boring...
1/4 of the class is playing mahjong online...
and i think break record for Bcs tut siah...
i think im gg to study...
no life for me this week rmbr??

siianx, life is like that manns...
not everybody got 2 CDS subjects...
but im one of them who have them now!
im dying...
but maybe i'll get to relax later (: *cheers*

so i guess im still hanging on in there...
wonder how long i can last...
badly want my CNY break...
and if ANYBODY should remind me to STUDY then,
u see how much WHINY grumbles and CRAP u gg to get from me ):

im deprived of
-good sleep (dreamless sleep)
-proper brain functions
-of everything i ever felt like doing ):

damn SIAN...
and i know this entry is rather complain-ful...
haiz...

but sometimes its really irritating to see some people saying...
"why u study so hard now? later still got 1 wk study break!"
or "dunnit study so hard lah. wont die lahs" etc.
stuff along this line, tempts me to SLACK...?
but i knw i cant afford it...
besides, we've diff commitmts...
u know how much diff does 1 more subject make??
(timetables/sparetime/workload/exam)

and u know wads the diff?
they get to watch more TV/ surf more NET/play more GAMES??
and over there, you're just damn stressed trying to do your part!! ):

i so needa BREATHE!
or at least learn to take such loads WELL... ):

pls lah, only year one lehs...
and i dont really have a CCA, except BCS?
whahas, but i do go for FO and TPrawks and OTC?? :P
okay lah, i should look at things more positively luhs!!
jiayou becca jiayou...

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tmr SOCIO presentation...
and im really doing my BESTEST trying to put everything together...
and uber not forgetting...
CMMSK SUMMATIVE TEST! ):

DAMN HAPPY THAT BCS PRESENTATION IS OVER!! (X
though there were some small hiccups...
but i dont really care anymore...
cuz we slogged like mad just to come out with that!
and im just too satisfied to care anymore!! :P

so... i still wanna go shopping with Jan/Graciie/Serena/Alice perhaps?
but really hope they dont plan on a day that i cant go ):
got like 3 exams before CNY >.<

sighs...
tonight is another sleepless night ):

becca (: ♥ 2:33 PM


Monday, January 28, 2008
ok what a day!

i smell dinner...
WAS damn hungry...
add a few biscuits and now its dinnertime when im NOT hungry anymore ):

alrights...
i was home early lah can?
ponned French lec...
cuz its movie...
and i need to take this time to get a break off everything!
so i went home, reached home BEFORE sunset -- improvemt! (:--

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okay though now im fine alrdy...
and actually kinda high thnks to my proj grp mates & my family!
and of course, God who made all things good to those who love Him! (x

but anyway, just believe me...
i was really stressed up and emo-ey the whole morning...

im DAMN DAMN tired...
was chionging Socio slides ytd night...
after doing sitemap for BCS,
after realising tt i havent printed my notes!?
and after countless things...

by the time,
im too sleepy and exhausted to do Socio slides! ):
but i promised to try my best to finish it ehs!
*felt disappointed*
but i went to slp anyway, cuz i literally slept infront of the comp! ):

i woke up in the morning as though i had some sort of hangover...
*inefficient slp* -usu happens when i go to slp before i finish my work-

and then i thought it was damn early ehs...
my judgmt really failed me lah...
was suppose to leave hse by 8am to reach sch before 9am...
*which ive nvr done before - to reach sch b4 9am for classes*

then as promised, mummy sent me to sch...
and somehow, there had to be a jam...
usu during such jams, i'll just catch some sleep...
but i know jan's waiting for me!
so i was damn stressed luhs...
seriously lah... at that kind of time, jam usu clears up alrdy...
damn LAME ehs!~

seriously i dont see the point in building an extension when it leads to a deadend...
there's a cross-junction there...
walaux... damn pissed off with the JAM!

Janphua's also damn gan chiong i know...
but i couldnt do annything too...
was just freaking disappointed in myself...
tt she had to draw out the stryboard cuz i arrived 15mins late. ):

seriously i was damn speechless luhs...
just stoned all morning...
there's nth i can do anw, but i apologised lor...
though perhaps it didnt seem like a big deal...
but aiyah just felt tt i was damn irresponsible...
and i hate that feeling big time! >.<

it's like i didnt even realise that i bcame so emo until my grp mates mentioned...
i was just super zoned out bahs...
but things turned around...
didnt know since when our friendships and all improved...
it was kinda rough in the beginning...
like i mean seriously...

yeah so my day turned out to be not too bad after all...
seriously felt damn cui in the morning lah...
and after each lec/tut...
i really feel like SLEEPING like arghx!!!
nothing can really keep me awake manns...

even in MicroE..
i was listening...
and my brain's processing everything
like i said before, my brain doesnt sleep manns...
if it ever does, means something is wrong...

and then, i understood most of the stuff somehow...
but i can really doze off anything you want me to...
im THAT TIRED! ):

so with our planning of OB roleplay,
it was damn funny...
and i never thought that we would have such opp to do stuff like this manns LOL...
and it reminded me of certain stuff luhs...

i seriously miss 'We Are The Reason' musical very much...
whahahx, sry im a person who treasures the past...
maybe becuz of certain incidents... LOL

yeah so went for Mkg tut!
this was the best tut manns HAHAH...
our group won the crossword puzzle game...
abit dots LOL...
but we were the noisiest/most excited/most rahrah? group while searching for answers! WHAHAHX! (:

then we went for BCS lec...
very anti-climax luhs...
the tutor whom i thought very cui...
gave us REV LEC! can u imagine...
BCS cui alrdy lah ):

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tmr is BCS presentation...
somebody save me...
i hope everything works out fine...

after going for countless presentation...
BCS is nothing...
but im just afraid that something may crop up in the website! ):

`BECCA's uber TIRED! >.<

becca (: ♥ 7:02 PM


Sunday, January 27, 2008
hello! 3xH@uS+3D!

basically im really EXHAUSTED...

just came home from chionging nightmare-weaver at Janphua hse in ToaPayoh!
left Flash & printing site map & perhaps publishing before tmr! ):
everything's so rush...
but then again, THANK GOD, like really u know...
cuz i think some groups are rushing their head off to somewhere near the halfway-mark...
-sighs- we're all in this together (x

and i had my dinner from the pasar malam...
eating it as i walked home!
cuz im like hungry ( alittle)
but i need the energy to chiong Socio ppt slides by tonight...
so that i can hand in the form before Wednesday...
God, help me not to forget pls!! (:
*u knw i nearly forgot to do my Socio QUIZ!?!*

erh its like its not really unglam to walk and eat...
even as a girl ok? lets not be sexist abt this!
but perhaps, i look like im super greedy?
like never eaten in days LOL!

ARGHX!!
i cant wait for CNY!
my first 2-day weekend in one month plus? >.<

and not forgetting...
my next week's combo:
-1 ppt + website presentatn (Tues)
-1 ppt presentatn + CMMSK Summative! ): (Wed)
-1 French dialogue!? 2 pages (Thurs)
-1 roleplay + presentatn (Fri)
-2 quizzes??
-ONE SOCIO EXAM (FRI)

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SENSE OF ACHIEVEMT!
finally finished with nightmare-weaver...
i cant imagine we did it!
just make sure from now until tmr....
the website is safely delivered in soft copy! (:

its like, i think janphua oso have phobia of overwriting her copies luhs!
whahahx, but ok lah, i kena but i got backup de (:
havent really wasted any time redo-ing (x
really THANK GOD...
because of efficiency (somehow)
ive managed to go WEB ytd Sat!
and ive managed to wake up damn early today Sunday morning
(like ive never done before in a long time!)

before church service...
im chionging BCS nightmare-weaver...
and after service, i try to zoom through lunch...
and faster come home and chiong through BCS nightmare-weaver...
then i was late to meet XQ and Jan... ):
really siao lah... im sppose to meet them at TPY at 3.15pm...
and at 3.20pm im still chionging and thinking still got 5 mins...
*just 5mins would have helped big time!*

and problems kept piling up...
one after another...
until now! im super EXHAUSTED...
cuz each problem makes my heart skip 3 beats?!
LOL

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SOCIO PPT??

arghx... damn hard to coordinate a group whereby its damn hard to contact each other!
everybody different class and timetables all that...
plus its a new group...

OHH one more thing...
i hate new groups!
no.1-- i dont open up to new stuff well ):
no.2-- groups need time to interact and understand each other's working style/personality/character somehow!
no.3-- its very hard to play nice and silent wars/obligations are easy to start! (vulnerable)

ive to finish the socio ppt by tonight manns...
need to split up duties and all alrdy...
even without some people's parts!! ):
its like damn ARGHX...
they're suppose to gimme by THURS!
but one gives on fri/sat/sun?

die lah!?

srry, im very pekchek with my 'no-life' life! ):

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CNY

im damn looking forward to CNY...
as ive alrdy mentioned...

ohoh and jan/serena/grace/perhaps Alice!
we're going pre-CNY shopping...
although im really BROKE...
i probably go only to window-shop??
cuz ive alrdy but some stuff...
and im alredy CONTENTED (:

I REALLY WANT TO SEE FIREWORKS OK!
somebody bring me out PLS (:

im not sure if my fam's going to meet my aunt to watch fireworks on one for the days...
but dont worry...
CNY got 2 nights ehs??
im so going on BOTH nights!
somebody date me :P

siian lah, i really wanna chill on CNY!
perhaps with scandal??
perhaps with fam? LOL
i mean really chill and de-stress before we head FULL-STEAM for end-sem EXAMS! ):

i need a good rest!
im lucky manns, and i know seriously God's been taking care of me...
because i've been on the brink of falling sick like a million times...
but somehow im able to recover from whatever un-wellness in 1-2 days!! (x

*can't wait to see my dear cuzzies! (:*

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this song 'Tattoo by Jordin Sparks'
is really nice (:
-my current addiction- :P

intro-ed by AmandaChan!
but i heard it a couple more times before it really sounded as nice as it turns out to be! (:

`BECCA'S gg to make it WORTH her CNY!

becca (: ♥ 9:26 PM


Saturday, January 26, 2008
MY LIABILITIES ):

things to do by today/tonight!!
die die must FINISH!!

-1 Socio quiz
-1 BCS ppt presentatn

if possible:
-1Website
-studying Micro/Ob/Mkg/Socio/BCS

my next week's combo:
-1 ppt + website presentatn (Tues)
-1 ppt presentatn (Wed)
-1 French dialogue!? 2 pages (Thurs)
-1 roleplay + presentatn (Fri)
-2 quizzes??
-ONE SOCIO EXAM (FRI)

somebody stab me and stab me good!

`but BECCA wont die (:

becca (: ♥ 9:31 AM


Friday, January 25, 2008
whoos! a COMPLEX day :\

ok im probably and just trying so hard to end the day as a happy girl...
that ... IVE JUST REMBRED THAT IVE TO CHIONG BCS TONIGHT ):

ok lemme take u through my C O M P L E X day...
its just me btw... lol!

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at first, i was GONG...

since yestdy evening onwards...
ive been stoning like big time!
and ive only woken up after this happened...

i walked into Micro Lec today morning at 11am...
to rmbr that i've already went for Elaine's on Monday...
she made me go! at the expense of Mkg oral assessmt studytime...
but it was worth it LOL...

yeah but i still put a reminder to attend Micro lec today!
and i reluctantly left my hse doing bcs half way...
knowing that ive gtg micro lec...
and i even stepped into the LT and faster leave within 1 min LOL!

*how blur can i get?? absent-minded siahx ):*

then i became super STRESSED...
unexpressed duhhs...
cuz there's no time to express it...
it's just all CRAZY ):
but compared to other days...
maybe, i was too GONG earlier on to think about how to show tt im stressed LOL

so after getting out of Micro lec on the 1st minute i entered...
i went to find some table outside lib...
to study...
so i was doing Micro, feeling uber hungry...
ive to discipline myself to get it done before i go eat otherwise it'll nvr happen! ):

then just the moment i finished eating...
*i planned it all properly that when i eat finish i still got time to stroll to OB proj mtg!*
unfortunately...
plans changed...
rushed down to Lab...
went from one to the other to the next!
first was BCS... then Cmmsk then OB!

DAMN PEK CHEK...

cuz everywhere ur grp members need you...
and then each lab u spend a few mins,
trying to sqeeze as much words to make the other party understand you...
worse of all was BCS ):
really wanna cry lorx...
cuz there's alot of misunderstandings ):
*glad its smooth and shiny now! (x*

then by the time me and sheau chyuan went to meet our OB group...
they're like DONE alrdy!?!?
and im like damn worried that their version of my work is not the most updated one...
cant understand why MSN lagged on me ytd night ):

haiz...

so everything worked out fine...
it was the most updated...
and they managed to cut 4 pgs to match the page limit...
i say they Pro!! (:
if something crops up and we try to close one eye...
i'd still be feeling uneasy till now!! *perfectionist bahs?*

then after OB tut...
comes the crap...
went to BCS lab...
Janphua was suppose to show me what she meant...
and then there's alot of miscomm and ambiguity...
and siian diao-ness... ):

i was really tolerant to stress i should say LOL...
and we persevered to sooth the misunderstandings...
and finally came to agreemt, whatever tt was manns LOL...
cuz it was still ambiguous...
*i seriously need to buck up on expressing myself properly! pardon me ):*

then in the end we all stayed until about 6 plus...
to finish whatever parts we meant...
lucky XiuZhen and Vera were there...
if not we could have died doing BCS!! ):

*dunch lyke NIGHTMAREweaver! ):*

so we completed like 75% of everything...
and now nobody needs to tonn tmr luhs!! (x
BUT in exchange...
ive gtg sch to finish it up with them ):
walaux...

and SOCIO...
everybody's ignoring me LOL not...
just tt i think everybody's tired of me nagging for the parts to be done ):
pls pls pls ehs...
i also dun wanna rush last minute ehs >.< *last-minute's not my thing*

then i got really HAPPY!
SHOPPING (:
i bought the stuff i wanted...
though its kinda random but i liked them!
and i only buy stuff i like... (:
i wouldnt mind standing half hour to decide in a store...
as long as i finally decide whether buying 'it' will make me happy (:
dont like buying 'white elephants'...
gives me the pressure on finding excuses to tell my mum to giveaway, why i dont like it...

so i bought a greenish-blue blouse...
really liked it and the redish-pink-orangish one!
but they only let me buy one ):

then ive got NEW SLIPPERS now! (:
rembr on Fyrtho outing to Sentosa that day...
my slippers gave way when i reached Wdlands MRT...
BEFORE I EVEN GO SENTOSA! ):
but hey im independent wan hors!
though its very cui/paiseh manns...
but i wont die looking like im barefoot/cui for awhile luhs...
so i went to the store nearby to buy some cheap but randomly nice slippers...
*guess wad, it hurts! by the time i reached hme at night, i really feel like throwing it away!!*
but its not tt cheap to throw luhs LOL... $4??

then i bought a pair of random blue shorts...

whahax, my mum and sister were really pissing off at my indecisiveness in shopping LOL!
so they went home first hahahx!
but my dad's like in a very good mood siah!
so its like the reasonably 'get-anything-you-want' kinda thing HEHE! (x

tt makes me happy too LOL...
but got limits luhs hahax...
so it made my day... s h o p p i n g ! (x

GUESS WHAT??
i think my holiday for pink stuff has ended...
i realised that everything's turning blue again LOL...
at one year, the theme for shopping was BLUE
then Velvet for awhile LOL...
I think it was like black or white once upon a time...?
or even satin/silk stuff...

but now its back to bluey stuff...
wahahx...
im predicting some days u're gonna see me all blue LOL...

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bcux of my complex day...
it feels like everything/anything is possible...
LOL...
there's so much i want to do whahahx...

oh and i've realised that from young...
i like to keep busy...
im really freaked by boredom manns...
i like to be busy with things, to the extent that i used to have imaginary friends...
or even play pretend to be an adult LOL...

now i think i need to play pretend that everything's cool/good...
and i've no worries and everything rocks well...
i need a stress-reduction potion LOL (:

`BECCA's off to BCS and SOCIO...
*somebody pls play me Secret on a transparent Grand! -lovely-*

becca (: ♥ 10:14 PM



arghx... i need GOOD sleep!

ok i woke up like some blur block lahs...
i had like 8 hrs or sleep i think...
but i still couldnt focus/walk properly...

and i woke up thinking that my dream was real!?!
i had dreaming when im uber tired...
shows that i havent been sleeping efficiently cuz my brain's still working overnight!

and my dream is like random types manns...
just my brain processing things that i've to do the next day...
or stuff im yet to find time to do...
very FREAKY ok...

cuz i thought i alrdy finished certain stuff ar! ):

arghx! i truly need some GOOD REST!
for example yestdy...
i had 2 hrs to KILL...
so after coming out from proj mtg in the COLD lib!
i went to Bizpark to study Socio where i met Hui Ching. (Fyrtho)
but before i started studying,
i shut my eyes for 10 -15 mins and really slp ehs!
and its like the BESTEST slp ever (:

although obviously when u first wake up,
u'll be super GONG hahax!
but it was a refreshing sleep luhs...

`BECCA needs to SLEEP efficiently (x

becca (: ♥ 9:13 AM


Thursday, January 24, 2008
mauhahax! (random siah)

ok erm erm erm...
lol just a random start to this entry...
as i was on 168 on the way home from sch after 6PM Socio lec!!
i reached wdlands at 8pm?? ):
and i was like emoing on the bus cuz it felt like i travelled all evening...
from sunsetting to sunsetted!

it felt like i travelled from Genting to Wdlands..
at least i concluded so, because from JB to my hse is damn FAST!
so i thought, ok lah, maybe Malacca to Wdlands...
but nono, tt'll be SIAO...
so Genting luhs... ):

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when i was on the bus...
i dont know when i started to frown...
but i realised i've been frowning for sometime LOL...

and guess what, its my thinking processes AGAIN ):

i was thinking about BCS because janphua called!!
then i really dont know what to do about it...
its freaking irritating lah...
plus she's coming to tonn on Sat mahs...
but i have NO direction on how to go about our website ):

and then my brain switched to something else...
then back to BCS then back to other things...
then back to BCS... then to the show on Mobile TV...
and then back to other things and so on...

i have a complicated brain LOL...
*like since when i dint know ): *

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so one more interesting thing is that ive an interesting family manns :P
i think EVERYBODY does...
just that to find out what it is,
it requires some effort luhs...
as ive seen in the past few years...

so erm just to let u know...
i dont know since when it started,
but there's a 'phone-hanging' trend muahahx...
i think since sec 3 or 4??

as long as someone starts crapping or elaborating nonsensical stuff...
as in stuff that doesnt help make decisions or comments tt are REDUNDANT...
we just hang up on each other...
at least me and my mum do tt half the time...

and just so happen that i hang up on u,
dont get offended... cuz i'll try my best not to...
but im starting to think what happens if this becomes a HABIT lol!! :\

and the lamest parts are when we have to call back...
cuz the point wasnt answered LOL!?
wah seh...
the other time i asked, "what bubbletea u want, i treat?"
then my mum replied, "so now u got money to treat bubbletea ehs?"
and then followed by, "so how's ur contact lens? got settle anot?..."
then i ANSWERED... but the conver went out of point...
so i hung up and then i forgot tt she havent replied me on the type of bubbletea she wants ):
DOTS!

and i guess my family's like quite open?
nobody really gets offended unless it becomes serious?
with like reading hidden meanings??
but i guess we just speak our mind...
and raising our voice doesnt mean anything...
and if we get high? just get high lor... LOL...
with reference to High School Musical LOL!! *damn lame*

and i enjoy the free expressions at home...
LOL sorry for the ears that have to bear with my whining/nagging/hyperness/noise/grumblings/frustrations...
whahahx!

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THINGS TO DO

so tonight...
gtg chiong Socio...
hope i can finish the slides and everything by tonight...
then can send to Mel and June.

then have to send OB articles and stuff to YQ/Sinee...
tmr's submission le!! ): *excited siah, one LESS BURDEN!*

then i have to chiong BCS alll the way!!
and i've no idea wads Jan suggesting...
ive been trying to figure it out on my ride home...
but im really CLUELESS somehow...
whatever crappy Frames luhs *i dont like!*

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big dreams ehs...
breaking it down...
i wonder if it's possible...
but i wanna find TP's grand this year...
maybe im super individualistic...
but i'd like to spend my breaks there... (:

and yeah, i really miss the alternate Sundays where i go Ju Eng Home and teach basic guitar with daddy!! (:
its like my highway to de-stress can!
somebody help! i need to a porthole to breathe...
a regular one that appears every now and then!

oh and as i was on my way home,
i was thinking/singing this song that we learned last October at Phu Kieo, Thailand!
there were nice people teaching us this song...
pretty cool, as in i dont count cool judging by rock-style or what...
i mean cool as in the energy in the melody...
the song is a Christian song with some meaning along the line of how faithful God is to us (:

i cant translate it cuz my Thai is really basic manns...
but i think better than my French? LOL
erm yeah so here it goes, in phonetic Thai...
except that some symbols cannot be input-ed.
*i cant write Thai either*

Cong Mi Khwaam Chua

Cong mi khwaam chua nay pra?ong thaa
Pra?ong pen thuk sing, pen thuk yang
Thik cay kong raw kaw pung pin

Cong mi khwaam chua nay pra?ong thaa
Pra?ong pen thuk sing, pen thuk yang
Thik cay kong raw kuaw pung pin

Mi khwaam chua sak nit
Pu Kuaw ko khruen day
Plian sing ray nak cay kluay pen diI
Loom khwaam chua, Loom chay
Loom khwaam chay rit dek
Ca day hen tung kan arsak chan

Du khon nan thii kaw hay
Pra yessuu song rak saa
Tham pra sanyaa
Thii song prathan hay
May mii luua ray l33w
Thii yaa kuun bay
Maa loom cay chua nay pra yessuu.

* i know its damn hard to read...
cuz of the absence of the strokes and the inaccuracy with the absence of symbols... ):*

im not sure if i posted this song before...
but its super nice...
it somehow tells the heart of these people...
a sad but happy story LOL...

yeahx...

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moving on...
i cant wait for D&D!!
i hope its gonna rock manns...
but im still hoping more Zilraians can go luhs...
dont anti-climax ehs! i cry ar! ):

and i hope that i can handle my doom from now till 27Feb ):
3 more quiz, 3 roleplays, 2 presentations! ):

jiayou jiayou can wans!! (x

`loveBECCA! (:

becca (: ♥ 8:31 PM


Wednesday, January 23, 2008
SIGHS...

dots lah...
sighing has become a norm from ytd night onwards...
cannot cannot cannot!
must learn how to adapt to crazy workload (:

- d o t s -

i need to SLEEP EFFICIENTLY!
ok i know the phrase sounds weird :P
but i dont believe in how many hrs of sleep...
i believe in peaceful and effective sleep...
but at the rate the stuff i have to do keep appearing in my sleep...
aka becoming my nightmares, or in other words...
im worrying too much LOL

i need to chill manns...
stay in a cold goods storage compartment and CHILL!

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so because of all this things going on to create stress in me... LOL...
then if u realise, i've been thinking and observing my limits LOL...
dots manns...

this is what i do when im alone...
i damn THINK alot...
my brain cant rest!! ):

so i've realised that im quite TYPE A according to OB...
when it comes to handling responsibility...
according to OB Type A = easily ganchiong/worried/stressed up cuz takes work very seriously & will chiong all the way...
Type B = very relaxed, and leisure and all this is super impt but i think not very goal-oriented...

LOL

so its like...
arghx... u know when Type A works with Type B...
A is super exhausted of explaining to the distracted B who takes things super CASUALLY...
and A is usually efficient within own capabilities...
while B sometimes will either give up or whack through even if not quality work...
so yeah sometimes B can really get on the nerves of A!!! ):
and vice versa, only in long term LOL

ahhhh siianx...
ok jiayou jiayou can wans!!
i soo deserve something good at the end of all this!!
and i know i'll make it through in the end (:

wahahs my childhood...
im not deprived lahs, but its just some cool training...
*if mummy reads, dont laugh k?!*

so when i was younger,
i always have to finish my homework before sleeping...
no matter what time also must ton...
usually is, Chinese hw must do until cry till 10pm then sleep...
*considered very late already hors, if i dont sleep by 9, i feel damn weird!*

plus if i dont finish my hw,
or i whine and make noise or whatever lah i cant rmbr...
i only knw that i DONT show attitude when im younger...
just very hyper and clumsy and accident-prone and whatever...
and if i dont obey, i kena whipped by cane ):
until blueblack or whatsoever... >.<

and mummy plans my time for me...
i just do whatever im suppose to do...
and i guess from there i learn how to be smart manns...
take advantage of being good and get all the rewards possible...
or curry favour oso can LOL...
and talk at the right time to get wad u want...
mood is very impt! :P
muahahx, damn cool training i've got...

ohoh and if i sit at the piano ehs...
play wrong key, play 10 time still wrong...
*piak* there goes the CANE on my fingers ):
then i'll cry cry cry...
then i'll still play, but suddenly correct alrdy at the first time... LOL...

and i play one song can run abt the hse like 10 times?
damn cool lahs, exercise legs mahs (:
muahahx, i was a cool kid ok! (x

other stuff tell ya another time :P
this is secret manns...
cuz my childhood is special...
and cool training makes me BECCA! (:
and yeah tts why i love getting busy...
and finishing my responsibilities come great sense of accomplishments (:
this is BECCA! (x
know me more another time :P

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so lets see what else r e m a i n i n g that i have to do:
cmmsk
-touchup on research
-presentation/roleplay details + slides?

ob
-EDIT by TONIGHT! ):

bcs nightmareweaver.
-behaviours/links/online order...
-finish menu pages = at least 10 ++!?!
-update links
-do FAQ (YK faster send!!)
-tonn with Jan on Sat to finish this stupid thing! ):
*dont streess dont sttress!*

socio
-screenshots
-socio comments *CRAP i forgot to ask abt it!! ):*
-socio slides touchup
-socio slides collate and send to Mel before friday
*pple faster send me lah!*

French!
-dialogue!?! *when must hand in??*
-practise for roleplay... ):

MKG & MICRO finally over!!! (x
*lets celebrateeee...!*

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whaseh, my blood pressure rise alrdy...
damn STRESS arx ):
2 roleplays & 2 more presentations ):
*cry liaos, cui*

then Socio exam *2nd feb*
BCS exam *5th feb*
DIE LIAO havent touched anything manns...
except Socio one chapter today...
and BCS my FIRST chap like 2 wks ago??

seriously, i need to make frens with stress!
and i dont mind challenges and all...
in fact, i realised that i like to be 'pushed' or 'push' myself on...
if not, i really can ROT...
but then, i cant priortise... ):
i dont mind paying millions, (if i have), just for a secretary to help me plan my time...
and PRIORITISE my life!!

pls know that im doing my best alrdy (:

`love BECCA (x

becca (: ♥ 8:18 PM


Tuesday, January 22, 2008
wah sehx "nice" day!

"nice" cuz there's so many ups and downs!
just in ONE day...
can u imagine how many ups and downs we've actually been thru in our entire lives?

no. 1 DOWN...
i damn wanted to blog this right during BCS...
cuz i was really freaking stressed...
but also good lah...
cuz if i blog during that time,
all u see in this entry is CRAP...
and u wont understand a thing... ):

wahlau.... wahlau wahlaus...

1: stupid DREAMWEAVER...
i think i do at home i feel more relaxed...
cuz i have the knowledge that my comp loves me NOT lol!
as in everytime something crops up in the document...
i'll blame the comp if im at sch...
if im at home, i'll slowly figure it out patiently and believing tt it can be rescued!
but either way, the final outcome will be the same lah.

2: pressure & peer-added stress
the more questions people ask u...
just because each of us know only a certain part of Dreamweaver...
with our little knowledge, i believe we can combine our efforts/forte to make gd out of it...
but with grp mates ard...
experimenting/self-exploration is really restricted...
and then u just get even more STRESSED...
cuz when one person cant do something, u're expected to solve it kinda ting??

plus my tutor is really hopeless in teaching de lah...
alot of probs (tiny ones) ive to explore and SOLVE MYSELF...
all he can say... is ask the textbk...
or otherwise he'll joke about it, if he doesnt know the answer...
until my peer got like pissed...
only that she showed it in a joking manner...

3: im being myself ):
i know what im like manns...
i like my work to be structured and certain...
i dont like not knowing how to do things on my own...
i like to be independent...
i feel really CUI if i dont know how to do alot of things...
but if the journey to know a particular thing seems Long & Tedious...
i'll be the first to GIVE UP! ):

so i dont like dependent pple...
who keep asking me stuff...
and blur until u tell one time, must repeat 20sec later cuz she lost it...
oh manns, this sounds soo like my sister ): LOL...
but im not referring to you ok?
its just something i've came up with as i walked out of sch today!

and i super duper hate slow-ness...
maybe because im impatient LOL...
but BEWARE: stuff as named above really STRESS me & FREAK me out!!!
esp today... *chill becca chill* ):

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no.2 UP-ed

shopping!! retail therapy?
maybe because after a stress-out...
(such that i wasnt even in the right mind when my proj grp met up to rehearse MicroEcons presentation for 15mins later)
it was that BAD...
i totally freaked out during the rehearsal...
till i had to go to the toilet to CHILL lol!!! ):

so i went back to Wdlands straight after my presentation...
and i decided to CWP to take a look...
i went to a couple of shops...
*oh btw, i got my D&D ticket today!!! (x *
then i was trying to picture how i might look like LOL?? :P
haiz, what would i stand out with? ):
i dont have a model's figure...
nor a model's looks...
i only am becca (:

plus was looking around like how i wanted my 21st bdae to be like...
then i realised im like really broke lah...
so during this 4 yrs i really have to SAVE UP! (x
even for my dressing only... ):
sighs... everything i looked at isnt very cheap...
but i found something random for CNY (:
my FIRST pinky/reddy stuff for CNY shopping LOL??
as in everything else i've alrdy bought is like BLACK? or other colours except any shade of red ):
*ah ma sure scold one!*

then i saw some random slippers on offer...
offer also not cheap lah!
but for the random brand...
i think can lah (: im satisfied...

BUT I ONLY HAD 4 BUCKS!
so i settled for Chicken wings!! LOL...
for racheal lahs... i owe her, cuz i borrow her bag without permission ):

and oh wells, before that, i tried on a formal dress...
but its not full length...
but its alrdy $70!!!
i dont knw manns...
i think cannot make it lah... ):

budget ar budget...
im spending more than i can save ):

and im eating ALOT everyday manns...
going ard sch with elaine is like that LOL...
jking...
but BistroWalk's brownie is really nice (:

today's brownie and cupcake from a random stall outside Lib is also YUMMY!! (X
CHOCO ROCKS (:

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i need to:
-grow taller...
-train some swimming/running stamina again... ):
-bcome less horizontally-challenged!

ok for serious stuff...
i need to:
-FINISH MY PARTS FOR BCS (tts if it can ever be finished)
-finish ob editing
-finish cmmsk 1pg summary.
-finish cmmsk research ):

*i miss having random huggiex! LOL*

`BECCA can do it! (x

becca (: ♥ 8:04 PM


Monday, January 21, 2008
sighs, gimme some MOTIVATION!!

gimme some MOTIVATION ehs!!
its only MONDAY...
and i alrdy starting to feel CUI ):

no.1 Regret today...
waste 2 hrs to wait for French lec ):
cuz i contemplated that my cui tutor will be doing BCS lec today...
i actually alrdy want to go alrdy lehs...
and dont get wrong impressions hors -- i dont pon lecs/tuts de!

but then Mkg ended early...
was super nervous lah...
and if u know me well, i can 'whack' well...
i cant anyhow hoot one answer come out de...

so i guess u know my Mkg oral assessmt's status of survival alrdy lor ):
according to XQ, my 1st qn the marks is kinda gd... (x
but erm i know that my last few qns is CUI wans...
anyhow 'whack' mahs ):

so after Mkg i went to Lab to check if BCS is rev lec anot...
but it wasnt...
then i ask Elaine if she's gg...
wait for her to reply, 45mins passed...
then was like aiyah 1 hr, pon BCS...
can lah, do research...

but i wasnt concentrating,
eye pain, head pain...
CUI...

was contemplating not to go French de lehs!!!
because im not sure if the movie is nice anot...
haiz, i think waste time de...
after going to youtube and all tt to see its trailer...
i still went for it, and come out thinking i wasted 1 hr ):

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no.2 Regret

i regret wearing contacts today arh...
super LONG day...
plus i dont know why today extra blurr-ed...
arghx! very hard to focus during Lec...
and very hard to see properly...

almost like got double-image or wad...
and i kept SQUINTING...
tts the worst part...
squint until i headache siah...
esp when i used the comp at Lab arhx!

arghxxxx...
super wanted to take it out immediately...
esp when i was on 168...
giving me even more headache...
plus the air-con on the top-deck was spoilt.
felt like i was suffocating can...
its not just sauna, it STINKS...
and its urgh!~ ):

super wanted to alight at IKEA alrdy...
when i went down to the bottom deck...
and the air-con was perfectly FINE! lol!?!
walaux... suffer for nothing... ):

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sighs... but CANNOT QUIT ar!!

jiayou jiayou...
tonight must complete:
- OB recommendations
- BCS dreamweaver!?!
- Micro speech?? LOL

must sleep early siah...
cannot destroy my good start of reaching school only 10mins late for lec today (:
tmr got OB lec...

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just a seriously RANDOM thought lol...
maybe sometimes my brain works too much...
muahahax, only tt it doesnt put itself to gd use like Einstein would :P

music?

haha i think music -melody- makes me memorise things better...
erm i cant concentrate studying when there's music playing...
is like during exams, the songs will play in my head instead LOL?
but its like to memorise certain situations/scenarios tt happened...
the accompaniment music makes it easier to memorise...
*with reference to Phantom POTO :P *
i think this only applies to good soundtracks, with outstanding melodies... (:

and just a random clarification...
u know when sometimes particular songs/melodies seem to click...
lol as in u just feel that magic tinggi in the song whahax...
i cant express it, u must feel it urself. LOL
perhaps its a thing about perception?
because depending on different situations,
i think it clicks different ways MUAHAHXH...
gedit if u can LOL... :P

*i really miss having that magic connection with my piano ):*

*randomly but seriously one day, im going to play on a transparent Grand (x*
oh manns, just imagine it!
the ringing of the white keys...
the entrance of the blacks...
the emphasis of them in unison!
oh manns...
muahahx, i dunno whether got diff on a transparent one anot...
i only know this was how it felt when i played the cool Black Grand at the chapel of my grandma's funeral.

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hmmz okok look forward and dont sigh for now...
because it will pass no matter wad (x

i seriously want to either take a flight on SQ to somewhere cool,
or go onboard a cruise for the coming March hols :P

`BECCA chiong chiong chiong, MAKE IT WORTHWHILE! (x

becca (: ♥ 8:32 PM


Sunday, January 20, 2008
sighs! but dont quit anw! (:

ok today wake up super reluctantly...
got church service at 10am...
and mummy at a wonderful time nagging...
cuz i returned hme at 10pm from vivo after sentosa ytdy...
outing with Fyrtho rmbr ?? (:
about 30 pple was present by the time i left.

haiz, abit lagg...
there wasnt much hyper-ness by the time i reached them...
ooh btw i was at beach station, then i walked to siloso beach after not being able to get through anybody...
then carmen FINALLY called back...
and i walked all the way back to PALAWAN ):

then they were playing Monkey...
and erm quite a handful were there since Morning!!
i reached at 2pm++...
cuz i didnt want to get BURNT...
i could get sick before exams are over... ):

so we played captains ball too...
i brought a vball (:
erm its not for the beach actually...
shhh dont tell racheal :P
whahax i think she knows lahs, but it'll get spoilt this way but i tried my best to take care of my bdae pressie!! (x

erm yeah Captain's ball...
the guys lah...
there were like 5 girls altogether only ):
and like at least 3 times the no. of guys!!
then they keep doing full-court throw...
walaux... then we play wad??? *diaox*

then vball is like nobody really feel like playing...
plus after not swimming for so long, i went to swim with Mal...
and got uber EXHAUSTED lol!?!!
my stamina damn lousy alrdy can ):

then erm it started raining...
then we went to bathe le...
i didnt want to bathe in open shower...
cuz all the kids were there and the drainage sys was really bad... *EWW big time*

oh before that, we did play go back jump!?!
and erm the 'niu nai' game LOL?
and truth/dare... DOTS...
*srry but i dont like truth/dare...
maybe cuz i dun dare & cuz my truths are kept to myself largely...
esp when i dont know the people really closely...
and im not the type that just WHACK lol!*

then we left sentosa and reached Vivo by 6pm lahs...
DAMN EARLY CAN...
rembr all the FO outings, Zilra outings...
its always like after sunset then leave Sentosa de...
whahahx, feels weird, though i prefer to leave sentosa before sunset...
but erm also lah, after sunset then got the high-ness :P
only that high untill too tired to eat dinner le ):

then at Vivo...
the rest took damn LONG to go get their food!!
so me mal and nad went first...
dont know where to go, just go lor...
until we ended up at KFC unknowingly...
we finished eating at the amphi alrdy, then the rest come back from buying food LOL??

then we went to accompany May to get her LJS dinner...
and my hands were dirty from eating KFC...
so i left my hp with Nad...
a very very WRONG decision *haiz*
im too used to this happening alrdy, so dun worry i wont be a bimb the way u want me to whine back for my hp :P

but oh wells, i wanted it back cuz i hate losing stuff...
and esp NOT MY HP..
even though its not ex... :P
yeah so it turned out to be that they passed around the few others who joined us later...
like Eileen and ShawnBOo aka posterboy and chrystal (think she nvr play lah)
yeah so tts it...

then i got it back just before i had to leave...
left with Gwen and Gina...

whahahx i know a few more who leave in the NORTH :p
BOo: AMK
Ali: Smbg
Gina: Khatib

muahahx...
okok will upload the fotos another day...
cuz from today till next Sun = CRAP manns...
from next Sun to end of Feb = H***!!!!!

arghx... butttttttttttttt..........
that's where it suddenly snapped in me today at service... (:
i wasnt really paying attention, i understood what the speaker was preaching...
but it didnt really get in, cuz i didnt feel connected to it...
like frankly luhs...
BUT at the end, he rounded up with a video, just like wad Mr Pras would HAHAHX!
so its a movie 'Facing the Giants' i think hahax...
the clip was about rugby training??
and the main thing that strikes is... "DONT GIVE UP!" "DONT QUIT! "

SO.... that's something new i learned today...
really got to chiong and survive...
reap wad u sow...
and jiayou for the end result will be great!
at least for two weeks it was (:
1st week- Mkg submission and process + TP Openhouse
2nd week- loads of crap like proj processes & hiccups in proj! + Nadia's bdae and Sentosa with FYR

so.... JIAYOU...
today i got alot of crap manns...
i sat down and wrote out alrdy...
all the stuff that i've got to FINISH BY TODAY...
die die oso cannt go slp!! arghx...
here comes my SLEEP DEBT againn ):

`BECCA wont quit! (x

becca (: ♥ 2:05 PM


Saturday, January 19, 2008
woohxooo

damn happy!
i managed to do a frame for bcs dreamweaver!!
without the stress compared to when im doing it during proj mtg in bcs tut...
without the textbk!! tts like full of illegible paragraphs just for ONE action!!

actually this morning i really dun wanna explore BCS dreamweaver...
cuz it'd waste alot of time and my braincells!! ):
but then again, why not give it a try?!

so i went to see online tutorials and all...
and i made an amateur page alrdy!! (x
super happy, *accomplishment for a noob ehs!*

maybe im beginning to like DREAMWEAVER (:
if only i could weave my dreams LOL

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actually my main point was to blog about this girl i met yestdy at Nadia's bdae party!
i forgot her name oops!

she actually finished grd 8 for piano in sec3!?!
and is going on to dip even before tertiary...
like wahlau... smart kids lahs...
or perhaps just the perfect planning/prioritising of time!

oh wells, then comes my dream again...?
it somehow, still in the back of mind, keeps nagging at me...
what if tp had a piano ensemble...

i definitely would need alot of prioritising of time!
and i probably dont have enough time for my friends and other stuff i want/need to do...
and i probably wont be able to participate in openhouse, otc, fo, all that...
haiz, i dunno lah... but i really want it badly ):
but most of all, it requires people with passion and commitment!!!

but im serious ehs...
when Mel told me the dance ensemble was playing with the grand and singing...
i was like "AHH WHERE IZZIT? I WANT TO SEE !!" :p

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then all of a sudden, i miss speaking thai LOL...
i actually meant singing thai whahahx...
cuz its easier to understand/memorise lyrics than sentence structures and all.. ):

then it reminds me of my French role-play...
we're sooo going to die!!! ):

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KK IM LATE AGAIN...
tell u all more about my fun in sentosa later tonight! (:

hope we camwhore alot...
and i hope somebody else will bring a beach vball!

`BECCA loves (:

becca (: ♥ 10:18 AM



arghx cui ar cui!

wahseh morning work is damn PRODUCTIVE!!
i think next time i sleep at 10pm wake up at 7am to do also better than chionging until 3,4am?!
the ONLY REASON why i still do,
is because i cant sleep without the peace of knowing i did my part! ):
at least tried my BEST to complete my part!

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ZILRA TABLE...

i thought its going to work out lehs...
then i damn happy...
so i went to reserve ticket first...

then ar... then...
CUI... havent exactly cui yet...
but then i was super cui-ed by it lahs!
damn PEK CHEK...

uber irritated can...
its damn hard to coordinate this lah...
u think very fun to go msn 20 over Zilraians in the midst of my projst ar?
u think very easy to start conver with some people you've not met in at least half a year ar?
wah seh, and i did all this because i thought we could make it possible at least.

arghx!!! throughout the whole OB tut, i wasnt paying attention luhs...
was thinking about how cui manns...
lol and i know tt someone really hates to hear pple say zilra cui LOL...
but not exactly lah ok?
just this particular time.

plss! dont make it so hard luhs...
i feel that DnD isnt any fun without my bestiies around!!
u wanted it, or at least u were the one who suggested it...
and i thought it wasnt a bad idea...
sry if i sounded bit naggy...
but u also have your own choice k, nobody forcing...
just that was kinda disappointed. ):

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NADIA'S 17TH BDAE!

my rawker ar...
her bf damn nice lah...
"stole" her contacts and called up everybody...
together with Seri's effort....
though maybelle and damien couldnt go,
i went... though i thought i may become abit EXTRA there...

but i really had fun manns!!
it was super cool luhs...
her STUNNED face!
was like making her lagg in emotions whahahx!
and i got her a card, super LAST-MIN!!

and Natasha was there...
we were laughing and talking about the tp rawks times...
and were talking about why her bf nvr add mass dance song into the "stolen" playlist LOL...
super nice meeting them up again...

the candles were cool manns,
the magic candles! (:
and we took quite a few fotos...
only that my cam cui LOL... no batt :P
cuz i just brought it out again, without charging since TP Openhouse!

so they cut cake and all...
then we got to rush hme cuz its like late le...
then got these 4 guys and 1 girl...
nadia they all the seniors lah...
about 19 yr olds...
they offered to accompany us out...
we thought, they mean WALK...
but no, they mean DRIVE...
like for less than 100metres!?!

guess what, me natasha and the other girl had the shock of our lives lah...
the car that we were in, the guy reali is SHOWOFF lah can...
they just passed driving and then they wanna show off their skill...
u really can see that they're joyriders can!
we nearly jumped out of seat the moment he stopped for us to alight luhs!! ):

*damn scary!! <100m>

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SENTOSA tmr!!

crapp lah...
i think nobody got vball ):
sad case...

reminds me of 2i outings to sentosa and all that...
vball is koped from sch de...
then zilra outing oso, june brought her vball or wad?
then 1H05 outing luhs,
i forgot who bring de... (:

really missed zi-highing with the rest and the vball at night in sentosa!!
zilra, u're missed!!! (x

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ok my eyes really very tired...
cant stay open le...
im going late tmr ):
because i think i'll be damn tired...
i need to catch up with my sleep debt first ehs!

so cya all!
hope we have a good good time there...
and hope i dont turn lobster so easily!! ):
and hope we got enough cam batt and time and enthu-ness to camwhore MUAHAHX! (:

`BECCA cant wait for tmr! (:

becca (: ♥ 12:14 AM