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Tuesday, July 29, 2008
gahhhs!!!

morning online lessons till 11am...

did my fieldtrip reflection for GEOG online subsequently...
GOT DAMN PISSED WITH MYSELF MANNS!
for losing the observation sheetttt... ):


lunched @ 3pm?

==================

super hate LOSING STUFFF!!!
in the 1st place i hardly lose any...
sighs, its irresponsibility?
just felt damn contradicting...
ahhhs nvm, forget it... )):



sometimes i dont know why im born with a contradicting mind!!
perhaps that's why im always indecisive )):
i'll usu balance pros & cons,
and end up with NO CONCLUSION at all...
damn hate this too... )):



on the other hand,
im very happy i've completed my geog reflection (:
and i did it as best as i cld ((:
spent 3hrs doing routing, can u believe it anot??
sometimes mummy cant help but say... "you're too detailed..."



s i g h s, i should be concentrating on my upcoming tests & exams alrd..
and today's free day from sch is almost over now that the sun is setting soon ):


-off to buy Cador's Superman cloth! & meet Jan!! (:-
**and nice one, my lounge duty is on a day i cant make it!** this week only...):



Love Becca (:
may God one day break the chains in life that we may all fly.
i guess its actually abt whether u give urself a chance to be understood..

becca (: ♥ 4:15 PM


Monday, July 28, 2008
I LOVE SSM ((:

hahahs!
BOTTOMLINE:
I really love SSM!! ((:

woots! awww so gonna miss it in time to come!


1) i think im damn lucky :P
i kinda had alot of time @ top table...
thanks Elaine for the bartending opportunity!!! ((:
i really didnt think i'll ever get the chance esp when im in SUGARLOAF alrd!!
and i re-learnt Latte & Cappucino...
and i got to do mocktails lehs! :P
*i'll probably nvr work @ a bar in the world out there... so this is so cool!*


and i got a chance to do waitressing before captaining which makes life smoother ((:
and i got prac opportunity to practise for prof test 1!!
and i got the chance to do VISTA for once ((:
had like 7 weeks of Toptable!?!? muahhahahs!
seriously i think im damn lucky! woots!



2) i really learn alot!!!
i see how people show their true colours in the last straw...
i see different working styles through out the entire ops.
and i realise, its really hard but the best method is to adapt wherever you go!
and i see how i can work with whoever better ((:


some pple can lead while others really cant even if they tried their best...
some pple can support/follow leaders while some has too much ego mind you...
some pple can suckup like there's no tomorrow pls!!
some pple can try their very best &&& still CUI apart!! really pity them... :X
some pple's attitude stink like hell...
some pple adapt very well to others' working styles...
some pple have high tolerance...
some pple LOVE to HELP!! love them to bits & pieces manns!! ((:

some pple should check themselves first...

i learn alot just by observing...
but i know im quite cui sometimes too...
gahhs, its not that ive sooo much to say about others & nth abt myself...
but i kinda wish someone will tell me how i fare too... :X


but overall, SSM is something progressively encouraging IF you seek to improve.


3) i shant complain anything about today's ops...
it's kinda smooth to start with (:
but i shant crapp abt the nasty parts, or it will just stain my blog :x

i only can say you changed my impression of you from knowing you 5 yrs alrd!

im so gonna miss SSM )):


=+=+=+=+=+=+


sighs...
i is CUI alrd...
hand swollen, leg muscle strainned!
tired like mad...



1 TTO tour evaluation
1 GEOG quiz
1 BESE test

coming right up!



tues - buy red cloth for Cador :X
wed - buy Superman tee for Cador & Cador outing & meet Nicolette + Eldora!!
thurs - BESE test & SU teaparty
fri - Oriental interview & Prof test PRAC!!

sat - S.A. handover cermony & BSC subcomm camp
sun - BSC subcomm camp
MONDAY => PROFICIENCY TEST 2 FOR SSM!!! :X


-i hope i can handle this week-




LOVE BECCA! (:
sighs reality. i finally see the full pic now.

omgireallydamnhatetoseeyoulikethis.
ithurtssomehowseeingyoulikethisevenfromthedistance,idunnowhy..

becca (: ♥ 9:20 PM


Sunday, July 27, 2008
gahhhs! lol

sighs so many things...
dying to blog every single thought...
BUT i've forgotten most of it by now...




so once again, just random points.
-race against time LIKE NOT AGAIN ):-



IVE FALLEN SICK.
and i really hate it, but it feels like ive given up hope on getting better...
lucky im not with terminal illness or wad,
i guess im not mentally strong enough to wanna live longer then ):

s i g h s!
and my body is telling me to take a rest to recover badly...
but can i afford to?? )): what are my priorities right now??


1st Sunday that ive time to myself!!
slept an hour before gg for Orientation @ Wdlands church...
wth!?!? i feel damn unwelcomed pls.
perhaps cuz the leaders themselves are blurified alrd...
i dont know where to report, what's the prog.
and an long polite sms to the UNKNOWN sender,
returned with
2-word aimless replies )):
ooh i love the ROOFTOP, got the titanic effect HAHAS!
and its super nice for emoing/thinking abt stuff!
i think u'll find me there as long as its open ((:


really wanna at least START my BESE portfolio!
8 sections, 1 extra elaborated... siao liao!

helped Racheal with her ARTS Proj...
went taking & searching for photos!!
im NO artistic fella pls!
but i really did like to get things done...
sounded like im more excited for her proj than her!!! :X
-f o r e v e r the same blurified sis i have-


blasting music off my comp now! ((:
hahas cuz my parents are NOT HOME :p
Journey- Angela Zhang
When You're Gone- Avril Lavigne
Beautiful Girl Reply to Suicidal - JoJo -damn MEAN!-
Bye Bye- Mariah Carey
I'm With You- Avril Lavigne
Perfect- Simple Plan
Qing Tian- Jay Chou
Nobody's Home- Avril Lavigne
Teardrops on my Guitar! -Taylor Swift
This is my Now- Jordin Sparks
Let me take you there- Plain White Ts
Behind these hazel eyes- Kelly Clarkson
She will be loved- Maroon 5
God help the outcasts - Disney!
Open Arms!! - Mariah Carey
(i prefer the Sg Idol version!!)

...and some others...


are wad i listen to almost everyday (:
hahas typical OLD faves!
sighs, sometimes i end up more emo than ever )):
im going mad alrd! :X but dun worry i'll hangon there! ((:


Cambodia trip!?!?
i think its kinda confirmed ytd night or wad...
i'm going Cambodia 1-5 Sept!


Zilra outing :X
i really dont know how to plan this one!?
5-6th Sept stayover??
but i'll touch down in the morning lors!
erm is Kleon really opening his house?


GAHHS GARETH!!!
why why must 6sept!?!?
:X jiu must great minds think alike de freshie!


$20 to Yanti tmr...
someone pls remind me that is if i see her in the toilet before SSM!!
why?


...BSC subcomm camp 2-3rd Aug
S.A. handover ceremony 2nd Aug...

gahhs, i really dont know lehs...
i actually joined BSC to support my fellow mates there yahs...
not that im so free u know... ):
feel like ponning the 1st day of camp
BUT THE 2ND DAY I HAVE TO LEAVE EARLY
why?


...PROF TEST 2!!
im so not going to cui this round...
with all the training @ Amara,
means confidence-training actually...
i really promise to do my best manns!!
means no straining/loss of voice @ camp,
means no getting sick again!!
means no tiring myself out...
wad kind of camp is this manns!!? )):
-wrong timing-


my BLUE top!!
i really want to buy that dress/top from Eldora's blogshop...
i think im serious HAHAS, $23 i think??
i dont know how to meet her or wadeva, with my weird schedule!


Bodyshop BLUE eyeshadow!
ahahs i think Jan oso damn tempted!
sales ending on 30th lehs!!
im going to share with my sis ((:


what a spendthrift! )):
no lors, i dont spend REGULARLY...
but i do spend alot in short bursts.


sighs, as i hear all the songs playing in my playlists...
and even in worship today...
i feel like ive lost the passion/joy of singing...
cuz ive kinda given up hope for my voice to return too..
s i g h s.
if i cld, i'll just cry (as if it'll help)


my shoes!!
i badly need a new pair,
before this one gives way...
and i really needa GOOD pair before my feet rot from blisters!! )):
pain endurance is one thing, skin complexion is another...
worth it or not is a total different thing!!


JAP roleplay props & memorise script ):
will probably be another tide of stress coming...


Oriental interview!!
im going for it with Elaine on Friday!! ((:
banquet again ar!! :P


Piano??!
hahas im working on some pieces...
but gahhs, without daily effort, it'll probably go NOWHERE at all!!
and i actually contemplated doing DIP. for it!?!? wth!!
and i damn miss NLBP adult choir...
i miss singing with them & playing the pieces ((:
but oh nevermind, I CANT SING now )): -sobs-
and during the NEW church orientation just now,
i damn wished that Cvnt @ Wdlands will have a piano u know!?!
wads the point for the state-of-art facilities & theatre like effect...
WITH NO PIANO!?!? )):
pls pls, God provide (:


and talking abt piano...
infront of my piano...
is the BALLOONS blown by human breath...
lol, 3 weeks past, and they're still alive lehs!!
trying to preserve it siahs :P
(see Serena!)
hahas i kept my promise!


16th Aug!
yippees, some pple celebrating my bday...
like belated 1 mth :O
hahas i dont mind!
seriously dont have to treat me,
got prezz can le JKING!!
just be there can le ((:

-marche-KL's 7course fusion-KL's jap restaurant-canopy?
hahahs some choices, i dont know the name of the place lahs!


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Slight Overview of my life from Sat-Sun

SATURDAY
Field trip was interesting,
felt kinda enlightened,
but class wasnt as cooperative,
pity the tour leader!!
almost felt tt others will think we were trying-to-suck-up.... ):


BEFORE field trip!
cuiiied!!
i was just saying i think i'll fall down with this slippers... AND...
i fell down while running back with Elaine & Angelia from Cheers LOL...
the slippers i was wearing damn slippery & i lost grip of the wall...
and piak i went on my left thigh...
nice blueblack & abrasions manns! :X


Lucas' 1st mth!!
whees! my baby cousin :P
yay i have some guy in my maternal side of relatives alread!
FINALLY ((:
time to bully OOPS!

-spent the last of my camera's batt taking photos for racheal's proj,
cldnt upload his cute pic!! aww-


oh btw, i found my way there from sch lors!
Tamp Ave 5 is my grandaunt (uncle's inlaw's) hse! LOLOL!
reminds me why i should know my territory well LOL!
3 bustops from sch, i thought how far :X


went to buy GOLD lol!
seriously im not quite interested lehs...
so we trade in old gold for a new bangle!
nice nice ((:


dad drove me to Kallang, meet Elaine & Kleon!
2 Squash matches & prize presentation!
LOL someone only interested in hot guys LOL!!
okay lahs, i think only 1 can pass, not the BENG pls! :P


slack @ Leisure Park!
learned some new things from a touch screen on Wine in Cold Storage!!
1) Asian spicy food -> fruity wine
2) Creamy pasta -> dry Chardonnay (creamy & buttery finish)

3) Chocolate dessert -> Moscat sweet dessert wine!! :P *tried b4!!*
4) Fruit pudding -> Bortrytis Riesling!
5) Reds for Reds, Whites for Whites duhh!
6) match the weights (full-bodied/med to outstanding tastes)
** pepper sauce on steak --> type of red **

DAMN COOL!!


reached home dead beaten!
and sent photos to JAN (:




SUNDAY (today)
service @ 10am.
not in the right mind! cui! :X

church orientation...
LJS dinner...
went ard taking photos!
rushed home to work out a plan for Racheal's proj!!

somehow this is wad older siblings do...
unless u're not close to urs luhs :X


and here m i...
LONG LONG POST AR!


pics another day (:

loads of things in my mind once again...
different set of things already...

but sighs. when can i take a break from life??


oh shit! SSM TMR...
pls like WAKE ME FROM DREAMING...
its like waitressing is slack but i dunno since when im standing in for host for half hr!
and im not even done with my prep yet!!! )):
ohoh but i so wanna give a try on making the Crepe Suzette tmr!!
OH SHIT, i havent even printed my notes! is cui! )):
bye ppls! time to go!




LOVE BECCA still! (:
missingyouevenmorewitheachbitofmemorywithyouinside. )):
7 w e e k s.

becca (: ♥ 7:11 PM


Saturday, July 26, 2008
hiiie!! (:

wahhahas!
is chatting with Angelia & Cador mass convo nowww...


eeee i damn jealous...
i want an older brother...

can become my personal punchbag.
and personal challenger HAHAHS!
but erm yahs, sure VERY NOISY wans!


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TODAY'S HIGHLIGHTS??

LATE for lec )):
chionging submissn againnn!!
online submission for GEOG!

dressed up for Top table (:
weird combi lahs!!
Elaine's proj grp mates, Kleon, her sis & bf, me!
LOL... but we ate our way through!!


Vietnamese Set ((:
so-so lehs.
VERY GENEROUS WITH ONIONS!


left toptable with Ms Mark & Mr Goh & Chef Ken laughing!!
wth!?!?
they see me, then start talking about retro style...
then think hairspray, then LAUGH!!??!
at least its not really directed at me!
but its nice to see Mr Goh laugh & Ms Mark smile GENUINELY ((:


rush to meet Angelia!
watched DARK KNIGHT @ TM GV ((:
"WHY SO SERIOUS?
Smileeeee!
Come I help you smilee... ((:"

JOKER.
-creeps & shivers down my spine!-

decided to go BSC camp briefing in the end!

took bus 15, 27, 161...
went to Sengkang with Graciie, Farhan, "Curly" LOL!

went to CWP to return VCD!
then headed home (:


dinner-ed & tv-ed!!
i caught an eps of beach vball drama serial!
I SO MISS PLAYING VBALL LAHS! ((:


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today i missed my pianoing session which ive managed to keep to, this few days!!
arghs!!


and remind me to call Elaine & Janice manns!!
now's abit offpeak hours ehs...
but Elaine: i need to ask u about chopstick stand boxes!
Scandjan: im gg to pay $10 of camp fee for you first
(ur mthly instalmts will never end like tt LOLOL!!!)


dad showed me my phone bill...
basic price with all the free how many sms/airtime...
is $14.00!!
but my bill upped 4 times the amt!!! ($51!!)
siao ar, usu worse come to worse is $33++ only lehs!! )):


TMR OFF TO FIELD TRIP ((:
oh btw...
i've really fallen sick already!
jiayous manns, looks like im pretty sickly this few mths!! )):

and medicine only mostly makes me go sleep (rest)...
doesnt quite CURE me! ):




LOVE BECCA!!
missingyoulikemadd!
dontwantyoutogoininseptlehs..

becca (: ♥ 12:14 AM


Thursday, July 24, 2008
PHOTO TIME!! ((:

YO PEOPLE (:

hahas as u know i seldom have time to blog photos...
inclusive of now!
so i'll just do a short short one...
so sadd, still dont have time to do one on MY BDAY!!! ):


YESTERDAY...
rembr i said i feel like cooking...
yup yup :P

i made pasta by myself for dinner okay!!
had some leftover and dad & sis tried too...
they say nice okay ((:
but i personally think the creamy sauce was a bit too diluted ar!


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Zilra outing @ Chomp Chomp 190708



scand & i...
waiting for Graciie & her bus gang of 9 pple!
and Xiuzhen & Sylvia & Chernron!!

my scandals :P
if u still dont know who they are,
i think you're cui pls! cuz they're all over my blog ar!!




the big big legendary gang!
wahahs LOVES ZILRA ((:
may Zilra remain as legend in our hearts ((:



the bday stars :P
ronald.becca.jan.weiqiang.
(supposed to have MANY more)



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TPSU AGM 08/09
total memories of last year manns (:


I REALLY MUST BLOG THIS...
this photo is dedicated to Fungyong!
he saw "FY"...
and thought they typo and so he have the honour of having his initials there!!
he started telling everybody...
when we realised that instead of AY -Academic Year...
it was FY -FINANCIAL YEAR...
we laughed like mad i tell you!!!

becca & jolene...
you owe me my pay of $2.30!!! ):



becca & fion!
wahahas, camwhore-partner!
long time no see!



becca & chianyi RAWKER :P
wahahas, i still rmbr her as from P30 ar!
Maybelle & I always have to locate her cuz she'll run away halfway!! LOL oops.

becca & kimbo!~ :P
(wahahs, i realise my eyes quite big here :O)
it's the angle manns!!

liyi & becca (:


weng & becca!
LOLOL, we look quite takglam ):
but hahas, the pic was sorta a conver starter as to "are you coming later?"
LOLOL!

becca & natasha/nadya (:
woots! my other Rawker from P30...
totally rawking freshies, both also from VENOS...
walaus, kope away de ):

hahahs she's the sweet one who asked me out to lunch...
while i was grumbling abt the pple who ps-ed me!

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ahhas!!! jiu lai yi ge RANDOM de!
i forgot to blog this long long long time ago...
if you squint carefully,
you'll see the heartblister -ididntlieabtit!-

anw my feet are half rotten from wearing court shoes like 3-4 times a week ):
poor poor feet!
im looking for good pairs now ((:

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hmmz, about TODAY!

class ending really early (12.15pm?)

and TTO test is DOTS,
i think nobody can complete bahs...
anw i didnt really study for the glossary test...
is dumb lahs...
50 blanks, and specific terms!
grammatic errors all over the place!

and went to CWP to buy stuff...
window-shopped... and saw Seetoh @ the Vaio roadshow.
then meet up with mummy & sis & fren for Gelare treat ((:

came home and showed the mime to Sheryl.
-So You Would Come. (felt like a dance suddenly!!)
-We Are the Reason... (brings back memories! and i kinda forgot half of it :X)

then watched Sky Of Love woohs ((:
rented the VCD ar!
and ripped it into the comp :P
ehs, its never quite the same watching the 2nd time...
but i still cried!!? walaus ):

sighs.
I HOPE TO NEVER EVER LOSE ANY OF YOU I LOVE.
it'll probably drive me nuts. honestly.
i thought Mika handled it pretty well though she nearly committed suicide.
oh wells, there was a part, Clifton slipped into my mind.
sometimes just when you think it only happens in dramas,
you suddenly realise DEATH is SO REAL.
actually sometimes, im kinda afraid that any one of you will just go like that...
perhaps me instead..
gosh. wads with the sudden emoness!??!
oh wells, just take care of yourself deariies!!
while we wait for the next time to meet up & treasure it manns (:

~~~~~

the other thing is...
I'M FALLING SICK AGAIN...

and this is really no joke...
there's this irritating throat dryness & bitter taste..
and i know its cant mean anything good...
just the sign of fever coming soon bahs )):
sighs, that'll be the 3-4th time i fall sick since FO!! )):

and good luck to me chionging GEOG CASE STUDY tonight!
submission tmr 12pm ):
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.
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God take care of those deariies I've always loved (:

LOVE BECCA! ((:

pls do not frown, for grey skies turn blue too..
do smile so much more, as the sun will shine once more..


becca (: ♥ 7:31 PM


Wednesday, July 23, 2008
non-typical Wednesday...

reached home @ 4pm!
never before, cuz i always have some reason to hang out at school..
LIKE PROJECTS...
like meeting Mich for lunch & catchup session!! (:


TODAY's WEATHER...
totally ruined my morning!
rushed like mad, sorta...)):


JAP LISTENING TEST ar!
studied in the bus... )):
quite efficient though.
i think i'll pass, sighs there goes all the As! )):


BESE was fun?
i kinda like the roleplay stuff,
but i hate the length of lesson being allocated 3 hours...
even the 2 and half hours can KILL!


======================


YESTERDAY was like slacker-day!!
totally relax infront of the comp woohs (:
but i guess i should have had prioritise studying for Jap first.
but i think it's quite obvious i prefer French to Jap :O


and AT NIGHT!
i spent 3hours trying to take a pic of my passport foto!
deadline for submission to F1 Tung Lok Co. is today!!
alot of pple still duno... :X
and MANY HOURS uploading fotos into comp, then shutterfly!!
as scandjan requested! (:

*thank God i only have ONE scandal, be honoured (:
or if you count Graciie, that makes it TWO! wahahas!*


MY COMP is giving me probs...
internet explorer just shuts down as and when it likes!!! ):
and MS word sometimes too...
BUT MY COMP IS MALE -- IT CANT MULTI-TASK!!
with many windows opened but only working from some...
it will suddenly "forgot" what to do next!! ):
some say is memory space...

but what do you think when my last count of photos ytd night is 3000++??
LOL now you know why,
but what can i do about it!??! :X


spent 1hr on piano ytd,
playing 2 old scores and 5 lyric-less songs i randomly came up with...
obviously i'm not able to reproduce it again LOLOL...
but i damn liked it actually... ((:
*i realise i actually like playing aimlessly, just the way i like it.
(without scores lahs, i didnt write it out --silly :X)*


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JAP ROLEPLAY coming up )):
so super uber siiccck!
i hate memorising foreign langs in such a short short time!
in total ive learned Eng, Chi, French, Thai, Jap before...
woots! but quality downed... )):
but i love learning French & Thai!! (x
but without practice, it just downs all the way )):


TTO TEST tmr
havent started studying yet ar!! ):


BESE test next thurs
GEOG test @ 12th Aug


BESE INDIVID PORTFOLIO!
grr, ALOT to do lehs ):


TTO tour @ 26th July
TTO TOUR EVALUATION @ 2nd Aug is can die ):


PROF TEST 2 @ 4th Aug
somebody can revise with me not?? :S




SUGARLOAF GROUP PROJ
@ 11th Aug!!

come and support kk!?!? loves! ((:




CULI TEAM SERVERS @ 19th Aug
i still feel quite awkward without assurance from Sarah... ):

these are impt dates for me so far...
ooh still got others like...
S.A. handover ceremony @ 2nd Aug
BSC subcomm camp :X @ 2-3rd Aug
Dajie's belated bday date with me!! @ 16th Aug

Covenant's 30th Ann. dinner!! @ 24th Aug

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Mummy's on course this few days...
and i've been eating dinner out most of the time... ):
BROKE!


oh wells, i think some people still owe me some money ehs?
*hint hint!*

crap, do i owe anybody any?? )):
pardon my forgetfulness!
dont be shy to come and ask from me!


actually feel like cooking some simple stuff for dinner...
but for 1 person only!?!?
abit dumb right, still need to washup... how how!?!? ):


alright, it's time i eat dinner & start STUDYING!! :X



remember somehow, somewhere, you mean the world to someone
even when someone else means the world to you

LOVE BECCA! (=
reallywannabethereforyou,butdontknowhowto.
Only once you’ve loved yourself for who you are
then will worthless remarks leave no scar (:

becca (: ♥ 6:24 PM


Tuesday, July 22, 2008
UPDATES (:

okay it's been sometimes since a proper entry (:

i realise i blog less frequently?
though my posts are still quite long!
anw i think they're alrd shrinking...
cuz i kinda 4gt wad to blog admist my BUSYness!


NO SCHOOL TODAY!!!
utterly rocks, without having to take MC...
even so, it means having to spend 3hrs in polyclinic!




oh wells, here's an eye-opener into my life (:


FRIDAY
i was like happy-gurl-of-the-day pls!
ahahs May says "Becca's finally back!"
oohs, after so long. that's really true!!

i didnt know what projects and time-mgt stress cld do to me...
but no.1 my complexion got worse!!! )): sighs.

u just dont know how carefree i was on Friday without realising!
its really back to being me again ((:
i love gg to sch again!!
and I WAS REALLY ON-THE-DOT PUNCTUAL FOR LEC OKAY!

anw
CLASS END @ 2PM!
wad was i doing all the way till i reach home ard 12.30am!?!?!
hmmz, went to IT lab to meet Elaine & Kleon,
went to TM alone to look for my court shoes
(UTTER DISAPPOINTMT trying on every single potential shoe!!)
ended up shopping ard LIKE MAD...
late to meet the rest (ALOT of pple) for BSC interview.
*i actually hesitated quite abit,
i dont know how im going to handle SU & BSC!!
and HTM workload... gd luck to me! ):*

then hung ard to wait for Jan who had a CHAIN OF EVENTS gg on!,
had dinner & went home.
*i cldnt act pissed -failed-*


SATURDAY
so addicted to shopping,
since im really DEPRIVED pls!
made a list and went to meet Jan @ 3pm.
ahahs it was initially dont know suppose to be what time hor??

went to AMK to shop.
had lunch @ the old sch Jap restaurant i always went!!
SUMO HOUSE (:
then shopped like mad ar...
is window-shop first pls :P

reached chomp chomp @ 7pm like that LOL :P
poor larry was too punctual oops!
and kim too ahhas! (damn scared she gt pissed actually)
and since she knows the place better than i do,
handed all the planning to her (:

then went to Frolick for ex but nice frozen yoghurt.
met Beatrice (prog) there!
for a moment its like some TP illegal gathering LOL...
damn cool (:

went to playground to camwhore and climb tt web tinggi...
with the guys shaking it like mad WALAUS!
i actually got height phobia lehs!!! :X

then rushed home with jan. (:
hahas i didnt know the journey is so much shorter than gg TP!!


SUNDAY
service @ 12pm, but having ushering duties @ 11.30am in FORMAL
*sometimes i kinda regret getting involved,
but i rembr i made a promise with God.*

if i can be so committed to all my passions i have now,
why cant i do the exact same thing for Him,
even by just being there for awhile?

like ushering for Gradday : ushering for service
like choir for Sunbeam : youth choir
like FO & OTC : GL @ church camp
like SSM & banquet : IC @ youth's camp fnb ops.


s i g h s.

then had work @ 4pm.
it ended ard 12.15am lehs...
wahs i got damn pissed actually...
perhaps i kinda presumed tt they got used to the fact tt i end work punctually @ 11pm every Sunday night!!
because i'd die for SSM the next day lehs!

but being the only girl (other than the interns),
Jason
just called for a debrief and reallocate jobs just like that...
the SO-MANY guys just had to do some heavywork and relax the entire time...
and i with 2 other guys had to do the shitty job of counting
317 napkins? and 30 over other HEAVY table cloths lahs!
when im having a stupid headache.

got totally pissed and just ignored every single person who talked to me!
and wahs Jason was damn irritating pls.
putting aside he's random teases and fei-hua,
he kinda "scolded" ME when i didnt check back of house for napkins.
like why the hell pple put napkins there??
and why must it be ME?? the other 2 guys cannot ar?!
u also never make it clear lehs.


)): anw i really promise myself this time.
NO MORE WORK FOR NOW ((:
i think i deserve a good rest!

until the next one,
let it be SSM's 19th Aug
(which Sarah hasnt emailed Mr Goh wth!?!? i feel damn bad being the 1st person to email him on the swop!!)
and then the next being the F1 banquet!

reached home by cab like DAMN LATE.
and with my stupid headache.
i just
collapsed on the bed after changing.


MONDAY
wahs, i thought got slack post, then work the night b4still okay lehs...
nice one, i dont even know my post alrd
from packaging TO outdr sales TO dont know wad!

ended up helping Angelia with the cake counter.
then Amanda with hot counter all the way. ((:
hahas i really love it when i get the hang of things.
but am really NOT satisfied with my performance manns!!
its like
I'VE NO MENU KNOWLEDGE AT ALL...
from all the post-hopping business!

wahs! and is like even if we sell everything also cannot meet $1500 lors!!!
is like walaus, he is super unreasonable!!!
some of us were really irritated.
he's so money-faced but at the same time,
pushing us unreasonably.
chef slow also not our fault wad.
not enough food in total also not our fault lehs!


had some Caesar Salad table side prep in place of lec.
damn cool pls!! ((:
i actually was quite keen on trying out BUT
seeing how Daryl & Adeline nearly died with all the stirring movts,
hahahs forget it lahs!
nice lesson bahs - Crepe flambe!!
ehs all the pple involved - customer & volunteer is all from my class lehs!! ((:

hahas after SSM,
went to Bedok intchg for dunch @ 6pm?
i die of hunger every Monday.

slept throughout the bus ride.
AND the splitting headache came back!!
not enough rest and sleep ar!!

watched So you think you can dance III.
and slept halfway on the sofa...
all the way till next morning (TODAY)!!
and appeared on the bed!! WOWS.

that's how tired i am!


TUESDAY/Today
no sch.
was so afraid tt there is,
that i called gevin!!

i dont wanna get another random non-graded pass for nothing.

spent the entire morning @ the comp!
did all the usual stuff.
blogged for Zilra.
uploaded fotos into comp.
still yet to upload into MY Shutterfly!
spent some time reading my older posts too...
and spent almost 2 hrs searching for vacancies for SIP in Disneyland!!
(retarded siah, its really damn big their website!!!)

am going to spend the next hour sleeping i hope?
i just feel super tired.
fyi. my entire body is ACHING like mad!!!
and ive not the slightest idea WHY!?


i really wanna watch Sky Of Love again.
but i dont know where to go to watch it online!
LOL sighs.

hahas, and im still stuck with this song.
I'm With You - Avril Lavigne

-what a rest-day! half of it is alrd gone,
when im suppose to study for Jap test (tmr) & TTO test (thurs)!!-


=======================

i cant really rmbr wad alrd.
but i dreamt something happened to some people last night.
gahhs! i think one of them was my grandfather.
super random.
but this is where i hope DREAMS DONT COME TRUE.
if sad dreams do come true, i'll probably lose 3 family members in time to come.
CHOI.

oh and just before Sunday's work or so...
2 damn diff things were pounding on my mind...
really wished answers will unfold soon.
but sometimes, its better to not think?

and i realise that im really writing alot.
very randomly, sometimes nearing the end of boring lecs.
and oh wells, some pple who photocopy my notes get to see it,
but dun worry, probably never the person intended to be.



ultra long post ending now.
take care pple, you're loved loads (:

Love Becca too.
God please take care and protect those i love and cant be with 24/7.
and show them you love them too (:

.theonlythingicandoevenwhenallelsefails.

becca (: ♥ 1:51 PM


Saturday, July 19, 2008
GRACIIE'S TAG!!

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs. whees!
B) Tag 8 people (zzZZ!) to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
1stly, damn dumbfounded, becuz if i really love him, im the kind tt will really put my entire gullible trust in...
i dunno what kinda silly things tt i may do when my brain shuts down,
but dont worry, with my fam & lovelies to fall back on i'll be fine (:
perhaps i may be open to explanations, but save ur crap if u cant put it properly.
oh sincerity counts ((:

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
hahas! obviously there's many crazy dreams i have...
but right now the biggest miracleS that cld happen will be
a chain of dreams LOL
- to have money to study Tourism/Hotel
deg in Aus/Switz
- to get in SIA after gradding. :X
- to Osip in Disneyland if possible LOLOL!
- to GPA 3.5 <

#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?
after seeing SOOO MANYY weddings in Amara banqueting...
ehs, they are alll damn SWEET lehs!
hmmz, i want a loud gown & a sweet princesslike evening dress, plus a tiara is a must! :P
a waltz would be awesome, wine & drinks on host ar! (but NO drunkards allowed),
a phantom opening for the aisle WOOTS!
oh its a must to have a grandpiano in the room manns!!!
and fanfare for 1st dish is a must manns!
ohoh a vid explaining HIS side of the story, and then MINE lol!!
ohoh! and i want sword bearers, they are DAMN COOL, but but means i must marry a guy with much rank ):
oh before that, we could have an engagemt by the sunset beach :
P

oops i just realised its kinda extravagant! ): WHAHAHS!

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
not really, i hate being uncertain of what lies ahead, so dun worry it'll never be ((:

#5. what's your ideal lover like?
woohs hahas i dont know! i guess this kinda thing is slowly revealed as u find yourself liking someone LOL!
oh wells, hmmz okay lahs, aft observing myself for awhile...
i realised i prefer guys:
-with some musical interest
(guitar/piano!/theatrics/musicals!)
-who can lead somehow, decisive perhaps?
-who is capable? (studies/work i dont know!?!?)
-who cares about his future ar!
-who cares for others before himself.
-who knows his limits!
-who is trustable (no sly motives)
-who isnt flirty beyond comphrehension (totally turns me OFF/ perhaps cuz no security?)
-who knows how to respect girls for who they are!!!
-who knows how to love his family as it is now.
-who knows how to treasure & appreciate little things.
-who's lively/outgoing/hyper LOL! cuz i am.
-who has initiative, cuz i totally dont. :X
-who's NOT egoistic, dignity is another story.
-who's calm and steady (cuz im not??), knows how to handle things...
-who's confident but NOT OVER. i totally hate overconfidence
.
he doesn't have to be perfect physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually...
i'll accept you for who you are if i really love you (:

ok THAT'S ALOT now that i realise... i shld stop LOL
if not i really gg to be spinster alrd LOL!! ))):
and tts what mummy says too!!! ): lol
but i believe God will bring me my ideal if i should get married (:

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
S I G H S.
can i say none? the key is first.
i'll nvr get attached to someone who loves me first, cuz chances are i wont really love him with all i can bcuz he didnt quite stand out when i first met him, i'll sorta feel kinda trapped actually, cuz i cant accept him for who he is naturally...
also perhaps not someone whom i loved first, cuz i'll still feel that perhaps he's just trying to obligate and make me happy, and is not truly happy... ):

only way is by divine appt, we both love each other at the same time, takes a miracle...
so perhaps, i'll remain a spinster )):

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
S I G H S. as long as it takes, but sometimes i really dont know why.
it's like "waiting for a raindrop in a drought" but the process counts, and u really learn alot.
it brings smiles out of nowhere and also tears when u're all alone and ur mind runs wild. ):

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
woohs, sighs... somehow it always happens, because im not the type that will take the first step.
i'll just treasure the friendship for what it is, and innocently, not asking for more.
its really damn depressing, but if i get my focus right in life, i should be able to mind-over-heart aft a few teary nights.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
hmmz, if there is, lets say im trying not to think about it?
but oh wells, esp ytd im DAMN HAPPY ((:
and as May declares "Becca's finally back!" from projects' stress, time mgt probs etc.

#10. Is being tagged fun?
erm so-so? sorts thoughts? digs secrets LOL!
things that i wouldnt just blog out all the time hahas!
hahas but i think overall, im quite open on my blog lehs!

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
hmmz, mummy and i were just chatting about this like few days ago LOL!
hahhas, i think i'll be married le (28yrs old lehs!!)
otherwise will be settling down after coming back from Overseas Studies!

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
MY LOVELY DEARIIES!! & MY FAM!!
the people whom i can be myself with ((:
do i have to name everyone of them? i think you-know-i-know can alrd ((:
when you matter, i'll really be there for you whatever it takes.
im sorry i cant express it properly, but you'll know with time (:

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
LOLOLOL!!! GRACIIIEEE!!
hahahs, on surface, she looks damn dao & fierce LOL, but is actually DAMN NOISY/LAME/COLD...
but on another level, she's actually quite a nice friend and can click with almost anybody, spontaneous and unique (:

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
married but poor.
what's better than sharing a joy that money cant bring (;

#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
hahas! ehs, try to think of what to wear? meanwhile go thru the day's prog...
if i forget while im in bed, means that i'll probably forget for the rest of the day!!
but sometimes if i wake up frowning, i'll start thinking abt why i am (nightmare? something upsetting?)
and think until im so tired that i fall back into slp AGAIN...
which is the reason why im really late and totally grumpy & cant be bothered sometimes.

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yes of course, if not why ever get into one when u're not quite for it??

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
it'll never happen, rest assured.
firstly i believe Love, after heart matters, is a Decision.
it kinda also tells, what kind of person you are lehs...
and how serious u are about it )): not mehs?

#18. What type of friends do you like?
LOL classic lehs...
hmmz, true friends, with common interests and know how to appreciate innocent friendships (:

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
work aside? cuz ive a long list for that...
i hate sloppy workers and lets hope our friendship dont get tangled with that... ):

seriously dont HATE anyone, really no enemies (:
hypocritical behaviour
(i dun really attack the person u know, serious, unless it's on long-term)
backstabbers?
do things for own gain
, hurting others at expense
(seriously, those who come begging for acceptance after dumping u one way or the other deserve to be looked down...)
i honestly wont call such people "friends"... it'd be a lie.
just perhaps acquaintances i cant really treasure as much.

but honestly deep down, i just wish such pple will be able to experience wad true friends are like in the right light (:

Tagged by: Graciie


anybody who feels like doing, can just do...
dun wanna tagg anybody wahhas :P

-i took almost 1 and half hours!!!!-

becca (: ♥ 10:03 AM


Thursday, July 17, 2008
CONGRATS (:

today's my LAST MAJOR presentation! ((:
i still have a jap roleplay which is in the crapps right now :S
but it's like 1 step to a better lifestyle ((:
ONE STEP ONLY... :X


hahas i felt that even we were like the "last" to present.
we ended it loudly ((:

i was really worried cuz nobody was really interested to practise,
time constraint too, heck morning tutorials lahs!
we were all relatively stressed LAST MIN... like got use like that...
i think only daryl's the only cool and calm one LOL!
and everything went well ((:
turns out to be the only group with a pic-vid starter,
special features!!
and the ZAI group that ended right on the dot when the clock "clicked"!!!

woots!! ((:
super cool manns, from Mkg phobia of time shortage, it's like phobia alrd.
and somehow i dont know why i tio end-presenter AGAIN!
so if not enough time, is I DIE. ):



Culi National Team...
walaus, i emailed earlier than the rest lors )):
i kinda really wanted to serve on their practice quite badly...
i wonder if mr goh's bias or just blurs ):
i hope i still stand a chance to swop BUT BUT...
i feel damn bad although she willing didnt mind to swop :X



MONEY!!!
wahahahs! my dad just gave me $$$ out of nowhere?!?!
$10 for my cab fare this MORN
$20 for NEXT TIME emergency cab fare
LOLOLOL *drools*


and and...
mummy forgot to gimme my allowance this morning...
so kinda borrowed everywhere i went )):
i owe 3 person about $2 each ):
and she compensated by treating me to MOS shrimp cutlet burger ((:
wahs my 2nd time entering MOS burger lehs!
then went to buy contact lens solution hahas! random.
then searched high and low for new pumps for SSM- BESE- WORK...
but cui lahs, nothing suitable...
(but my dad suddenly offer to invest in GOOD ones for me!!
means even if its really damn damn ex as long as its good for my feet!)



WORKAHOLICS...
lolol now my mum and dad is having a LAME arguemt abt this...
whahas! dad just took up 2-in-1 jobs = 2 branches...

ai zai!! LOL, seriously manns...
and he's trying to show me how he can pull it off...
jiayou manns...

one day i shall be as strong no matter what happens ((:
sighs, shall i just like STOP KILLING MYSELF... lol...
whahas i feel so dumb sometimes...
but yet it's really a pleasure for me to work.
although obviously, sometimes there's crapp @ work too.




T I R E D
i was suppose to come home and slp straight after tut!
but but, somehow i always have something better to do LOL.
so i did quiz with Elaine first, with Ole-bb dieing on me every now and then.
and then back home,
i suddenly rmbr i havent had the time to finish contacting Zilraians!!!
cui ar! paiseh jan, i always last-min then tell you!!
but bcux of this, i always like tell u my plans 1 mth in advance right??? ((:



ok time for dinner...
then some piano/tv/movie-ing...
then i should expect some sms-spams cuz alot of pple hvnt reply yet!
then it'll be early lights out for me.
IM SO GG TO BE PUNCTUAL FOR ACCTIN LEC TMR (:



ohoh, and im yet to hit the stores...
i'm dying to find something irresistable somewhere so that i can buy it!!! LOL.
retail therapy anybody? :P



Love BECCA.
ijustwannaseethatyou'refine.thatsall.
pleasestaystrongwhilethegloomycloudslinger.

becca (: ♥ 7:10 PM


Wednesday, July 16, 2008
what a LONG day... :\

Jap tut
was all about results & handing in of roleplay script for me...
got a B, tyconess lahs!
failed the Lang section but Culture gave me that B ((:


BESE ppt
woohs, i think our group was not bad...

unique format of presentation (:
3 pple did SIA including me...
and all the more i know its super competitive...
but if you could, pls grant me a dream-come-true to be airborne in service (:


1st to confidently go for attire assessmt,
only one who didnt bother to touchup LOL,
pass okay ((:
purposely used GEL today because i really hate having to retie my hair 4 times a day!!!
thanks to my new cut. )):


Proj mtg...
super last-min.
splitting of parts...
sensed some tension/disagreemt... gahhs!
oh wells, i really dont know what to say.
sometimes it's abit hard to be accommodating as a perfectionist.
but yet i hope everybody's effort is appreciated,
(i mean others in this case)
however, sometimes i really dont know how to compromise like that.

s * * * i hate changes.
and here comes the Literature belief--
u can turn any useless facts to your advantage with enough evidence!


Further-edu-seminar...
i went alone. met Serena there.
missed lunch ALTOGETHER!!!
or do you consider lunch @ 6pm?? )):
so going to die of holes in my stomach!


i wanna study my deg overseas ar!!
i hope to get exemption with my credits in poly.
BUT i still wanna do industry placemt (hands-on)
i dont wanna sit down and study the mgt level im left with!!!
sighs... ):
BUT i dont even have the money wth!
Blue Mountain Hotel Sch
Le Cordon Bleu

International College of Mgt, Sydney
Aus Int. Sch.

s i g h s.
AUSTRALIA? SWITZ? :X

but studying overseas means long-dist rships with family/friends...
i dont know about sacrifices luhs, see howww...
hahas Kleon & Elaine like tempted too siah! ((:
all go together lors LOLOL!


Squashy!
hahas randomly last-min decided to go Kallang with them..
Elaine's match @ national level?? woohs (:
went to support!


Old Airport Rd
had dinner there... or u mean lunch...

ate ALOT!
durian thinggi rocks!! ((:
chatted loads...
Kleon had 2nd dinner while his parents came...
Kleon's parents drove me all the way to WOODLANDS, to my doorstep!!
returned his pictionary & Elaine's strybook.


decided to go to the piano...
i tell youuu, i NEARLY slept while playing...
i rmbered my brain totally switching off manns!
wah seh!
CUI-ED APART ALRD!
still got ppt & speech to get done before i slp
TTO ppt tmr!!! )):


tmr i'll end sch @ 12pm sharp (:
then im gg home to SLEEEPPPP!!! (((:


P.Q.A.F...
LOLOLOL!!!
damn cool abbrev, although i dont know what it means...
but today it's found new meaning LOLOL!
i sure rember the guests i served and their names, @ Vista prev ((:
hahhas! enjoyed it totally!


oh and i think i write alot more these days... (:



Rmbr BECCA.
itsokay,i'llmakeitokay.
solongyou'rehappy.

sdaolsessim

becca (: ♥ 10:19 PM