i didnt lie about the HOURS gone into it okay... :P
almost thought cannot complete!!
but the anticipation to see your expressions kept this going ((:

messy messy table!!
really scratching our heads cuz lack of inspiration...
scared not nice/creative enough :X

DINNER @ my house! (:
hahas this is taken by Jan

TO: Serena (:

times spent together... (:
real blessings to know you guys!!
and perhaps this is the best gift to give you guys...

by the scandals ((:
-done by Jan-

jan. jan .jan, who's jan?
this is my scand jan!! ((:
seriously without her last-minute coming over to my place to help out,
i think the scrapbk may not even be possible!! really!

hahas! one of the better pics, when im like totally dressed DOWN!! :X
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

NEXT DAY
(on the way, after making grace & cy wait DAMN FREAKING LONG...)

with that few hours of sleep...
now this 2 are bickering LOL

hahas i like this defect hahas!
looks like cut & paste magazine :P
presenting to you... my scand dont know doing what!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@ Topone KTV, Bugis!
(hahas we were trying to rush for the 1.30pm reservation by Cy, & when we were there,
looking for the name ' Changyong' but DONT HAVE!! almost gave up when we saw the familiar hp. no. corresponding to the name "Mr.Li" !! LOLOL damn funny ...)
.

Jan & CY

Jan & Becca (:

Graciie & Becca!!

Serena. Jan. Becca
camwhored ALOT... :P

Yi Bai Wan!!
ahahhas, the super lame song...
"If I had $1,000,000..." in dialect

uber CUTE retarddd & becca :P

Jan & Graciie...

the sisters!!
hahahs, damn funny pair...
abit like mother & daughter also! oops!
and that 9-yr-old is entertainment LOL ((:

i like this lights & lighting effect! (:

love BECCA ((:
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@ STEAMBOAT!!
.

my fried rice, yummz!
but overall the food not very appetising :X
still, home-cooked steamboat is the best ((:

time for joke-of-the-day... :P
1st candidate: Grace Phua!!
2nd candidate: -shoots i 4gt her name oops!-
(cy is amplifier/joke-tester only lahs LOL)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

@ Macs
-chit chat session-
.

nice effect!
graciie & jan (:

retards in the making :P

retards final stage...
award goes to....... LOL
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

OUTSIDE MACS...
(waited sooo long... finally can give liaos LOL
tried very hard to conceal the surprise you know...)

grace & jan

becca (: ♥ 11:15 PM


Thursday, September 18, 2008
b a c k once more (:

er as you can see...
i've been working my ass off :X
lol but perhaps really, work takes your mind off alot of things...
cuz u're kinda forced to make things go right at work,
duhh i dun wanna die :X

=+=+=+=+


and im officially EXHAUSTED!

FIRSTLY, LACK OF SLEEP! :X

my bones are aching to the core...
and my back is really damn strained...
imagine carrying tables & heavy stuff in HEELS...
i'm worried myself, so i hope i dont worry others too..
anw, only scandjan knows..

and my feet is as good as rotten!
i need better shoes, gg to shop for a pair later ((:
hope i get good ones cuz this pair is really worn alredy..
such that every day before work i have to put superglue!!
and so thinned that walking on stone paths hurt my feet,
and blisters below the cuticle area of my toes!! :X

been working +/- 12 hrs for 4 days in a row!!
and of which 3 days are 7am...
hahas, and i always arrive after 7 LOL! :X
will be doing 7am on Fri (TMR) & 11am on Sat!

as you can see, today's my off-day kinda thing ((:
and im freaking happy (=

=+=+=+=+


alright, work is pretty fine...
kinda enjoy working there...
although it's saikang to the max!!

but at least there's apple to rant to LOL...
and being my dessert, buying breakfast and all (:

and there's jason & lawrence...
super nice bosses, hahas but can be kinda scary too!!

er then the irritating jerry LOL...
seriously lahs! tahan awhile luhs...
but when he and jason together, i really wanna DIE :X

and there's alan...
HAHAHS, he really has the naggy mother image LOL!!!
oops i didnt say that :P

then there's others as well...
erm some gets on my nerves, cuz they can really TAKE THEIR OWN SWEET TIME...
even after the short serious briefing on crazy setup for Fri!
and nice one, i was the only one who didnt really eat dinner ytd cuz i wanted to go home early (7pm) to teach Racheal chem!!
but in the end, WE ALL WENT HOME AT THE SAME TIME (9.30pm)!
BUT...
there's also good work budds who just pei he very well ((:
love them loads manns!! things are really done damn fast...
loved Sun & Mon budds loads!!

Fri & Sat got BIG events :X
and i just hope we can cope & have fun in everything we do admist the STRESS (:
jiayou to us all manns!
and TPSU OUTING coming up on Sat @ Sentosa, i hope i can make time for CADOR ((:

=+=+=+=+


alright life's getting better for now ((:
hahas, perhaps the downs really meant alot to me :X

oh wells, to my SCANDJAN!
dont worry about me alright,
i promise you that smile will come back (:
told you, just a little time will ease it abit..
and when i can finally say it out, i will (:
LOVES to the max!

hahas and oops! i havent follow-up with Apple for your timeslot tmr!!
will do it later (:



anyway, just watched finish 200pounds beauty...
F.Y.I. my life only started when i woke up @ 1.30pm today!
tts how tired i am.. lol
gtg run some errands soon, it's freaking 5.21pm alrdy!!

kk gtg, byebye!
LOVES BECCA..
rmbr me (:
thnks for that long-awaited sms reply tt i thot is nvr gg to come...
mademescreamatwork...
sighs, really hope we can meet up on your first book out (:
loves!

becca (: ♥ 4:51 PM


Monday, September 15, 2008
x.x

it hurts big time...
it hurts like mad...
what can i do to reverse time?
perhaps made sure that this'll nvr happen at least?

perhaps treasure it with my life...
perhaps never dream too far...

maybe i think too much,
but the way it's making me feel,
it cant be too far from wad it really is.. :x


all this thinking is so uncalled for...
and driving me NUTS by the minute! ):


ive really been doing my best to hide all this crapp...
that it wont show on my face, nor spoil my day...


been working anyway...
and at work, it's really ALL work...?
i guess as a result, i pretty DAO :X
and VERY individualistic..
and i tend to IGNORE nonsensical qns naturally...

will be doing 7am for Mon, Tues, Fri...
been doing consecutive days for 3 days.. :X
my leg is numbed from pain alright... gahhs ) =


*my sis said its scientifically proven that pain releases happy hormones or something...
if that's really true, stab me right now, i'll be grateful..


just one vid for you tonight (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhLnsD603aE



LOVE BECCA..
my greatest regret..
is destroying a friendship into awkwardness just like that...
self-created, self-deserved, self-hurt.. >.<

you still live in my memories very vividly...
andimtryingtoblkyououtformmymindfornow, forfeartearsflowatthewrongtime... )):

maybe crying it all out, will make it alot better... :X

becca (: ♥ 11:03 PM


Saturday, September 13, 2008
cui-ed...

found it unbearably hard to wake up this morning... ):
and dreaded the travelling journey terribly!

reluctantly dressed up for F1 briefing @ Esplanade..
Humble House is really cool, honestly!
but i guess Chicken Rice @ $9.90 will make you lose appetite?
at least when you're feeling less wealthy...

briefing was really FAST! for us only..
i was transferred from GrandStand to Paddock Club!
er... and we're like serving VVVIPs?? :X
i really look forward to it seriously,
BUT really abit nervous too :X

hahas we had free lunch, chicken rice though LOL...
then went to lib & rooftop to slack while waiting for the rest...

then met up with Josslyn and went shopping @ RafflesCity!
then went to my fave place to play the minigrand...
while we waited to kena chase away AS EXPECTED! :P
we were so intrigued by Swissotel!!! (:
70th floor was like uber coool lahs... ((:
she kinda made my day!

didnt feel like gg home anyway,
keep dragging time cuz i dreaded to be alone @ hme suddenly.. :X
then shopped ard CWP, had bubbletea...
then took a long walk!

reached home like 4-5hrs aft briefing!!
and kena scolding :X
had fave CRAB to celebrate Racheal's bday (15th Sept)
and had chem tuition with her!
kept pushing back cuz she never do her hw!!


===================================

im much more cheerful now...
but perhaps its just a facade i've created...
cuz i dun wanna have pple see me emo the entire time again :X

perhaps tts the reason why the independent becca required so much company today...
perhaps to get busy and try put away things that i dun wanna think abt anymore...
but it just keeps getting back to me when im alone with myself once more...
and sometimes i just cannt ctrl the drops tt fall by itself!!

thisissoooself-created!
nobody'sfaultbutmine...
ionlyhavemyselftoblame :X
forididntknowhowtohandleit... ):
idaresayididtry! butnothardenoughtosuppresseveryounceofit :X
imsosorry >.<



LOVE BECCA..
istillloveyou,letmedoitquietlyoncemoreplease...
todayifindmyselfsoridiculous, tomissyoutilltearscome.. ):
when i'm not even suppose to love you...

g-o-n-e.

becca (: ♥ 10:30 PM



sighs..

Yesterday...

went for k & dinner @ bugis with Cy, Jan, Grace, Serena!
it's like a farewell something for...
Changyong - enlisting 13th Sept
Serena - OSIP China 14th Sept

was supposed to meet @ 12pm,
but thanks to Late Queen lol,
we arrived ard 2pm!!

K-ing felt pretty short as a result,
and had some simple steamboat for dinner!

went to Macs to slack/camwhore/chat...
then FINALLY! we presented the scrapbk we made to them...

then went home (:


===================================

hahas if u managed to find your way to certain parts of my blog...
what i meant abt getting inspiration, that something special, chionging it through 12hrs...
was THIS SCRAP BOOK!!

Jan came over the night before,
and we were trying our best to finish as much as possible...
i stayed up till 5am to the finishing touches & the cover page!!
once again, suffocating in the toilet with lighter & paper LOL!

ahahs, the funny part was Serena saw me & grace @ the toilet when we sneaked out to let grace write her part...
LOL, we all just stunned there!!

oh wells, hey guys,
dont know what else we can give you but memories...
dont worry about the $$ spent, not little, but i really dun care (:
hahas, it's a lot of effort & time though...
treasure it with your life LOL,
now you know we love you loads ((:


and i hope we nothing much will change the next time we meet again (:
hahas, slept 4 hrs the night b4,
and i even dreamt of what your reaction might be!! LOL wth...

===================================


time to go...
have F1 training @ 10am @ Esplanade!!


byeee...
LOVE BECCA..
srry for being so emo ytd, i dunno wads wrong!!
or rather i cant explain... but im trying very hard to suppress it, thus all the quietness...
im very afraid tears may come! >.<
6hrsb4ugo...

becca (: ♥ 8:31 AM


Thursday, September 11, 2008
grr dead!

time passes so fast...


how i spent my yesterday??
you're not going to believe it!

went to school to serve @
LA Fest - Wine Appreciation course!
hahas, quite fun... drank quite abit (:
- Riddoch Sauvignon Blanc
- Riddoch Shiraz
- KingFish Cab Sauv
- Black Tower Pinot Noir
*Mr Goh & Mr Sim gave me & Josslyn that entire bottle!! idk why!!*
- hahas maybe its not so good alrd LOL -

though it'll end ard 2pm as Josslyn predicted...
in the end, MR GOH WAS LATE!!
we waited for 1hr for him :X
anw its from 2-5pm++!!!
damn shit, late for work ):


sighs cleared up 90% before leaving our tutors to the rest...
they let us off first! ((:
share-cabbed to Newton...
flied dwn to Amara during PEAK HRS!


reached Amara rather flustered...
served @ FNB night ((:
HAHAHS, DAMN FUN!
we were having the tp/fo craze among the 5 of us!
-caroli, celine, xz, apple, me-

then here comes the crap...
we cleared up until 2am...
changed & did more stuff until 3am,
i was doing admin lol!
then cabbed home DEAD @ 4am!!

woots, crazy!
oh wells, once in awhile is okay bahs (:


anyway, RESULTS
i've got mostly Bs & 1 C+ for Accounting!
gahhs, gpa 3.02 ):
DROP AGAIN!!
i seriously wonder how much more can i drop before reaching a 2.XX )):


that's all peeps (:
oh wells, before i go have brunch...
i'm still stuck with this old fave
I'm With You - Avril Lavigne! (:


LOVE BECCA..
sighs i wonder if i can chiong it through in one day (i mean 12hrs)...
the becca u see tmr, is the result of a victory or failure LOL!

becca (: ♥ 12:41 PM


Tuesday, September 09, 2008
piggish day!

i think my blog is deprived of photos currently...
haven't uploaded Zilra photos yet!!

and looking through my 200 albums, i found this...

looks similar to the one taken in SKY OF LOVE right!!
hahas, this is from my old phone, that cannt send photos to my comp~~
and it's STOLEN long ago ):
speaking of losing hp, i left my current hp @ housekeeping on Sunday for a few hrs!!
they were damn nice to keep it for me ((:

=====================================================

so here's some of those im missing right now ((:

PAMMY!!!
wheys, damn long nvr see you le!! )):
must meet after ur J1 promos alright!

(1st row)
JARED . ME . CHAR-DAJIE . JOELBENN . PAM!!
it's damn long since i last seen YF peeps... ):
though it's abit awkward now? but i still miss you guys!


ALL MIMERS!!
oh manns, i really miss miming with you guys... ):
in the first place, i really miss miming, it's been sometimes since i did so... :X



DAJIE & BECCA (:
whahas, the uniform that was on us for a period of time!
and tts like abt 2 yrs ago!! time flies~

FION!!
hahas, met her from random clique LOL!
seriously random (:
and longgggg time no see~




MAYRISSA PURWANTIII~!!
hahas, thanks for the exam wishes...
but they dont count until i see you in person!!
hahahs, i hope we meet on Random Outing day!! (:

i dont know where to find photos now...
but i sure do miss Peishan freshie & her clique!!
hahahs, FYRHTO long time no see~

andd... comes the final showdown DOTS...
though we meet like most often but still not very frequent...
missing my deariies!!
GRACIIE . ME . SERENA . JAN! ((:

and...
KLEON . ELAINE . GRACIIE . CHANGYONG! (=
hope your wrist gets better Kleon!
and.. when's our glam outing again, Elaine!??!


yippees! looking forward to meeting some deariies this Friday!
woots (:

============================

just one word for today...

PIGGISH!

i slept like 3 times,
and all 3 times were woken up by...
THE FREAKING PHONE!!
so many pple suddenly have to call today ~
and when i checked caller id = 9 NEW CALLS,
excluding those that i picked up!

gahhs, and i think my mood for anything else is cui-ed
cuz i've got so much to do!
like packing away my notes & text blah blah blah :X

before i go, here's another 2 nice songs ((:
缺氧 - 杨丞琳
http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=WkS57NdKEvE&feature=related
洋蔥 - 楊宗緯
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LL7-erLaTHY

yups, ciaos!
LOVE BECCA too (:
hope i can rush everything out, NICELY in time ((:

becca (: ♥ 3:14 PM