*___ WiL u rEaLi B deRe __

Monday, June 29, 2009
TIREDDD!

omg im really a walking zombie right now...
like seriously, i feel like i sleepwalked home ytd night, sleepbathed & sleepsmsed and all that... :X

SO WHY AM I SO TIRED!?
i went to chiong work!
3pm-3am Sat
7am-2.30am Sun..

not including travelling time or admin stuff.. :X
so i literally slp 3 hrs wakeup WORK, slp 3 hrs wakeup SCH..

grrr to be continued... :X
classwork is getting heavy,
cuz im bloggin during Ticketing Class LOL!

becca (: ♥ 10:18 AM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009
:)) UPDATES ((:

OMG I GOT INTO DISNEY ((:

although i didnt get my 1st choice of resort hopper..
but i think i ought to be contented enough..
and thank the Lord (:

but then..
once again, hearing about
SWINE FLU...

just makes me scared but helpless,
worried but useless...

i hear my CG mate is quarantined..
doesent sound very positive to the ears..
but just pray that in His timing,
all things will work out for good to those who love Him (:

Love Becca.

becca (: ♥ 12:59 PM

Sunday, June 21, 2009
school's starting... :X

oh manns, i really starting to miss my super-shiok paced life..
everything just at the right time!

grr, SCHOOL'S STARTING AGAINN...
and im really dreading it this time,
more than i ever do..
bcux i know this half of the sem is gg to be pretty suffocating!

firstly, sorry to all those who've been asking me out & kena rejected!
LOL, im really busy...

and im really lack of sleep today...
so im really grumpy now... :S

but just a few happy things HAHAHS...
i went shopping today with mummy @ fareast!
focussed shopping horr!!!
1st time buying clothes in like EONS... :X

BOUGHT:
-a black highwaist flair skirt!! woots (:
-a pair of plain black velvet heels..
-a smartcasual trenchcoat-like dress in checkers! (((:
other than that, is all my usual necessities...
-stockings
-contact lens
-etc...

happy siah! BUT...

AMOUNTING TO...
around $200 LOL, with the bulk of it on contact lens... :X
mummy wants me to change contact lens if i go disney LOL..
saying im spoiling my eyes working like that... :X

hmmz.. im really K.O.-ing...
since like 5pm?? :X
but had to hold on through dinner...
cuz it's...
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
had a simple meal @ yoshinoya lol, random!

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UPDATES
TPSU camp -- TRESPEN! hahas familiar faces really made my day... i gave out as much as i could, until i really nearly cui-ed for work :X

WORK -- glad i reported early @ 5pm instead of 7pm.. my 1st fear was to miss briefing & screw up, but turned out service was incredibly cool for me that day, even when i had an ongoing headache!!! (: thank God for seeing me thru!

PAY -- hahahhahas! 3 paycards in 1 shot, make me happy only.. st regis pay, FASTER COME LEHS... make me scared only... LOL!

FORECAST
Mon -- proj mtg 11am, sch 1-6pm, meet may??
Tues -- sch 10-6pm, french class 7-9.30pm TIRED SIAH!
Wed -- sch 1-3pm, stregis 6-11pm COLLECT PAY??
Thurs -- sch 9-11pm
Fri -- sch 9-12pm COLLECT PAY??
Sat -- WORK! hahhas big tiring day siah...
Sun -- church.. or work?

Love Becca.
sometimes, i cant help it but see flashbacks of the past...
happy and sad.. i cant forget what's been a part of my life..

becca (: ♥ 9:00 PM

Wednesday, June 17, 2009
DISNEY INTERVIEW!

okay, i shall just blog about the main thing today (:
then some peek into my life this week... lol!

DISNEY INTERVIEW...
is like the big thing of today...

hahahs, seriously loads to say about it!

first major thing that flipped me was..
ironed my clothes, dressed up, did hair...
wake up extra early with abt 6 hrs of slp after work...

then checked ole-bb one last time for last minute stuff...
and sure enough, ASSSSS! BIG TIME ASS..
from video to phone interview... FINE...
sure enough, screwed my mood big time..
-dresscode change (of cuz i cld have worn fbts & shirt & flipflops!!?)
-venue change (5 levels diff in biz sch..?)
-TIMING CHANGE to earlier 15mins (the last freakin thing u cldve ever done!!)

flipped me enough to not feel like going anymore...
took my own sweet time getting frustrated dont know what to wear LOL...
and boarded the bus all stoned...
and ranted to Racheal over the phone...
managed to get thru to Mummy as they're in KL!!
and ranted to her like mad..

THANK GOD FOR HER...
i was like crying in the bus with my make up not running ahhas!
and she just chatted & prayed for me.. (:
by the time we finished, like bill damn shiok & time to get off & cab to sch already LOL

reached venue 10 mins early, WOW..
and just went straight to interview..
did pretty well (:

BUT the main thing that composed me together...
-mummy's grandmother-story on changes LOL
-just ranting to God the entire time..
-looking through my very own CL & CV & Ref Lttrs..
-and recalling what someone complimented me 2 days ago...

it really encouraged me today (:
thank you.

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after which dragged Racheal out to meet me at Bugis...
cuz i felt too chio to go home like that LOL!
splurged at MOF for lunch...
too broke to shop at all...
but window-shopped awhile anw (:
btw, cramps & stomache at the same time can KILL...

took 960 home... freaking long bus ride, slept ALL THE WAY..
bcux racheal's ezlink value cant afford to change bus LOL!
then watched Ghost Rider & fell aslp on the sofa in aircon till 8pm..
woke up like a hungry ghost,
and seriously demanded Racheal to buy dinner downstairs even when i know ahma bought dinner already...
ate 2 dinners, felt damn shiok ((:

watched old movie 13 going on 30, dvd..
really nice one...
shows how to treasure everything in life while you can (:
really enjoyed it, though i used to hate it HAHAHS!

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SNEAK PEEKS..

PAST weekend
other than Amara cum St Regis work on Sat.. LOL
Sunday -- church, CG bday lunch @ pizza hut, mrt-ed with Ruth, reached work early..
Monday -- work, homed @ 10pm??
Tuesday -- work, french class @ 7pm (Eunice is damn cool ahhash!)
Wednesday -- Disney interview, bugis, sleeeeppp!!!! ((:

seriously chionged work from sun-tues..
never going to happen again, esp when sch's starting and all
did SUN 4pm - 2am & slept over impromptu 3-6am,
then MON 7am - 8pm & went home,
then TUES 7.30am (late) - 6pm & went french class..

FUTURE week
Thurs (tmr) -- 4 Seasons fieldtrip 9-3pm
Fri -- proj mtg, tpsu subcomm camp
Sat -- tpsu subcomm camp, proj mtg, work @ Amara
Sun -- ushering duty @ church?? EMPTY DAY TO CHIONG PROJ.. =X

hahhas, busy becca as usual (:
i like to keep busy though, since young..
BUT i hate last-minute plans & once again dont expect me to be there...
unless u tell me 2 weeks in advance...
that goes for every aspect of my life, including my family.. :S
i hope i change that soon LOL.. :S

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THINGS TO DO URGENTLY..

MY LODGING ARTICLE!!!!!
grr, outline done thoroughly...
filling in the blanks are greatly needed..
submission due on next Monday..
needs to be bound somemore :S

SAVE UP lol!
i think i can save around 75% of my $500 earned this 3-week holiday (:
or rather HOPE hahahs!
it sure will enter my fund for disney...
hope i can reach my goal of at least $1,200-800 in 4 mths??
(excluding my expenses & tithes... :X)
LOL dreamm....

Love Becca.
thanks for making my day (:

becca (: ♥ 10:07 PM

Sunday, June 14, 2009
short short UPDATE!

hahhas been busy like mad this week...
as you can see, im sure...
so im here to sneak a short update...

been working my ass off!
im trying really hard to reach my target ok...

1) WORK
hahhas, im alternating between Amara & St Regis for now (:

Amara is banquet as usu...
but today's breakfast, i went to Shutters, quite fun but felt damn out of place!!

St Regis is like CULI!
kitchen work & PASTRY!!! & plating (:
atmosphere is so much more cheery, cuz less responsibility...
only today damn stress, i realise i cant do pdtn cut!!!

2) TIME MGT
mauuahahshs, im really proud of myself for working this out!
every day's routine for this week
-wake up, lunch b4 12pm
-proj 12-3pm
-work 6-11pm
-sleep 1-2am?
and i finish my parts for project pretty efficiently i'd say ((:
and in btwn! I EVEN GET TO DO MY OWN STUFF!!!!
like watching Travel & Living, playing the piano, playing viwawa for nots!??!?

3) DISNEY INTERVIEW!!!
oh my God!!!!!!
finally, i get to hear something from absolute silence in the past week!
hahhas, but im wonder if im equally worried/nervous/enthu/whatever anymore...
it feels weird really!
sighs, maybe i worry myself too much to be any more worried HAHAHS!

i hope and pray all goes well (:
i really still want it just as badly

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just some random stuff i wanna say, (:

to a random you:
i saw the stress in you,
(i really think that guy dont have to right to tell you off infront of the rest!! ASS!
and even if u're correctly accused,
he's as FOOLISH to repeat the same mistake only that his staff is the audience this time..
WHAT A FOOL!)
hahahas i guess working life is like that...
kinda showed me what to expect next time..
although i dont know you at all LOL!
but i can see you're doing your best,
and are SO MUCH better than the other 2...
just hope you jiayou somemore,
glad to see we made your day,
and the smile come back to you!! (:

OH YES!
i bought a new off-shoulder top from cheryl's blogshop (:
hahahs, for one thing...
i dont blogshop becux i dont trust descriptions & sources...
plus i dont how to use this account thing...
i dont mind cash straight in the face though hahahs!

NEXT WEEK
-work @ amara
-disney interview
-4seasons fieldtrip!
-lodging article MUST FINISH!!
-french class...
(st regis is full of french chefs, and makes me so stress cuz i understand NOTS, they speak TOO FAST!!!)

Love Becca.

becca (: ♥ 12:56 AM

Tuesday, June 09, 2009
Jan's Bday!

ok... this is a very very belated post!!!!

and this is my fave pic of the day (:

oh wells, so before i tell you what happened...

let me do a post dedication to...

SCANDAL JANICE HUAY!!

muahhahs, so much planning and effort to go into this hor!

from what i see, it looks pretty successful...

but that is, one damn tired becca hors!!!

and i dont do this for normal people usually...

how about, i dont do this at all??

you're the FIRST person i really plan a big bday surprise for!!
be honoured siah (:

woohs, so basically i know scandJan since when we're year 1 in TP. (:

not for Zilra, i'd probably never known her!

woohs, so who is this ah huay?

a pretty girl with big eyes and 2 dimples... hahahahs!

alright, although she has many scandals and so on...

but she's a dear friend i had since year 1 and not about to let this friendship go to waste!

woots, she can be quite crazy sometimes too...

trust me, looks can be deceiving!!

but nevertheless...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:

you're 1yr older now, coming to experience more stuff in life,
and one step closer to the adult world!

it doesnt have to be good or bad,
take in ur stride, and jiayou for your future endeavours..

i wish u success in your ambitions,
but most importantly, happiness in whatever you do...

because some people almost never ever find it...

smile always! and you know i'm always here for you ((:

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6th of June 2009

as usual, im always extra-looking forward to this time of the year!
because its the only time im assured that Zilra clique will have a reunion.
during our chain of bdays!
-grace, jan, becca!-

i miss those days greatly,
and u can ask my other friends around me...
i have tears in my eyes as i speak of those days...
and till now, i cant help it either...

although times have REALLY CHANGED!
but this day, i was really very very happy to see all 5 of us again (:
after that last gathering on 12 Sept, a farewell to both of you...
never again, UNTIL 9 mths later...
that lunch at Seafood Harvest..
was really a reminiscence of the past..
i miss it soo soo much!
and you have no idea..

if you realise...
this surprise thing really disturbed me alot...
and i sacrificed 2 hrs while having limited time to study for my test,
JUST TO PLAN THIS in black and white!
u can ask Huiqi, how disturbed i was!
that even she scolded me!!!

with such great detail and so much hope,
ahhahs, i was almost scared of my perfectionist side surfacing again!!
LOL, but okay lahs, i planned everything such that if pple should play me out...
SO BE IT...

and really, it happened...
their response disappointed me alot...
but hey, im not taking it personally lehs, dont be angry hor!

oh wells, and IF YOU REALISE...
the real surprise...
is not the destination, the place, the route, the money, the whatever...
it is the people...
i planted different people to appear at different times, coming with different "presents"...
hahhas, i bet Jiashengs' was his jokes & entertainment!!
weng was the cake lahs, obviously...
and this takes ALOT OF BRAIN CELLS to do that hors i tell you first...
and alot of hp batt & smses & calls = HP BILL EXPLODE!!!

in the end cui-ed at home after everything lors!!
ohoh, slept 3hours doing Jan's 120 photo-collage!!!
OMG... :X

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NOT-SO-HAPPY UPDATES..

unfortunately, my day didnt end so well...
oh wells, i didnt expect organisers to have fun anyway... :S

but why are you so against me..
REALLY..
i do have my own stand, i dont have to give in to you when you're wrong...
but you enforced it, and i showed you the result..
are you happy?
idk lahs, izzit just your nature to be so negative?
or izzit just that point that you had to enforce so badly??
i still care about this friendship,
that's why i care about what you think,
and how i can make changes to suit ur suggestions..
but it brought me one big round..
to shoot me down..
is that it?

Love Becca. (:
sighs, you didnt have to do this now.
and haunt me with that dream last night..

becca (: ♥ 12:56 AM

Friday, June 05, 2009
once again... )):

sighs. ive enough of this.. really..

went out with mummy today...
more like i date her out to movie,
cuz i wanted to watch Dance, Subaru!
thought she'd be interested,
wads more, she's a good atm partner to look for lol!

Dance, Subaru!
a really really nice show in my opinion..
liked the entire biography of this pretty, strong-character, graceful ballerina! (:
showed alot of trials which are pretty real too..
worth watching definitely!
-hahahs, jan i think u might want to watch it!-
also, sounds like my unfinished dream of thousand years ago LOL!

oh wells, but as things turn out...
a happy day spent with mummy...
obviously has other unusual stuff...
like looking for some FOOD COURT?
SERIOUS CHATTING abt individualism & teamwork..
and WINDOW-SHOPPING of cuz...

but omg, its just had to end badly..
i dont know why...
from buying a skirt i just fell totally for...
to just walking separate ways home...

let's get things out straight...
although this is only my point of view..

-shopping with you means i dont need to spend my own $$ which i've been doing so for as long as i rmbr, firstly cuz i dont have time to shop like that...

-i seldom shop at all these days, cuz im really project/work-crazy already, and cant afford these time to shop! you opened up my shopping mood, and just wanna close it like that, obviously i wont go without buying anything esp when i saw something i like!

-its almost as it seems, u NEVER like wad i buy, be it price or design or cut.. are you wearing or am i wearing it?? if i like it, i'll wear right?

-but if i said, i like it cuz it looks like the type of casual skirt American kids wear, i've always wanted but never really found the correct type, and plus to be truthful, im thinking of wad i'd wear when & IF i get into disney sip? (sounds crazy) but how dare i say this to you?? will u even understand??

-and i already expected the reaction, outrightly is the design right? (since the price is like $15 lol!) but just you focussed on whether i'll wear it? did you ever consider how much ive to consider what i buy becuz of YOU!? (for price, i dont even settle for branded stuff!!) for anything else?? not for i need cash sooo badly, would i even consult you? since im the one buying/wearing!

just so much for shopping...
i know some people hate shopping with their parents..
but the truth is, im not at all embarrassed or dreading shopping with you at all...
just hope you dont make it all worse..
from what im already tolerating well..

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the other topic that made this all worse...

you just had to bring in some remark didnt you??
saying im rigid and all...
its the truth, im fine, it's true i wont settle for anything less than wad i like!
(this is the same for MANY things that i've passion for..
from htm to tp to alot of things, and u're never happy/proud of anything...
-used to though... when i get what YOU want for me-
FINE, but is passion such a dread to you??)

but you really didn't have to add on righT??
although, i know since young, u love to do that...
that's why quarrels NEVER end, esp with you,
usually me where i just shudup totally...

i really wonder...
if parents are suppose to understand their kids the most...
then i think i've lived as misunderstood...
i know you care, and i can see that...
but do understand what i go through too..
(i.e. nagging me to eat, when projects are like killing me,
yes eating is impt, i can always eat @ midnight and cold food,
but projects not done/ deadlines not met can ruin one entire day & SEM! & GPA & Life)
-anyway, i've kinda eliminate this time mgt prob this sem ((:-
but i bet u wont realise it anyway...
it'll still seem all the same to you...
(i.e. Dad once said in Sec Sch, a FAIL is a FAIL no matter how many marks u've improved)

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funny how i've to watch ur reaction and play around it...
i've got enough of it all my life!
im tired/sick of it!!!!!!

that's why, i say i rather live alone, be alone where i can...
less worries about other people...
and other people dont have to worry about me too, since they never really did...
they only cared about themselves?
and im tired of caring for them while i can...
and yet never really being appreciated.. fine..

also the reason why im so much more individualistic in the past one year...
if i can do it, i'll do it myself...
why bother others who have their own worries...
(and usually cannot help you)
till the day i breakdown, then let me pick myself up again...
if life isnt suppose to be led this way,
then tell me what's the best way (if not none?)

OMG, i've been crying since the shopping thing in AMK Hub, in the train home, walking home, and even as i blog this super long post... and my eyes are like damn tired wearing contact lens somemore! >.<

Love Becca,
at your own risk..

becca (: ♥ 3:35 PM

Tuesday, June 02, 2009
HAPPY UPDATES!!

dajie & me...
pweetttyy (:

ive got alot of happy updates lahs...
just hadnt had the time to even touch my blog!!!

although i always go check for tags LOL :P

ok back to point...
actually even now,
i needa to rush off to proj mtg @ 12pm @ TP pretty soooon...
havent even had my lunch...

so shall do a really short & sweet one ((:

in no arranged order...
THINGS THAT MADE MY DAY! (:

1) Char & Galv's wedding...
omg, pretty dajie i think she slimmed down ((:
havent seen her for sometime,
probably MIA-ed to partoh lol!

went for both church wedding & wedding dinner...
had loads of fun dressing up too ((:
hahhas, its just part of the fun i think...
not like wad her mummy said, "i think i know how u'll look like when u become a bride"
omg LOL!

.
oh and pple ask how are we related... LOL...
i'd just say dajie lors lol!

and oh, getting a gift for them is really nerveracking...
firstly, not all my friends are getting married now,
no experience in getting wedding gifts lahs...
thought of the perfect gift that they would like/useful too...
BUT IT'S FREAKING $85!!!!
in the end got them pretty glass bells with gold plated decor (:

2) OMG OLD FRIENDS!!!!
wahs, they really made my day to the max...
can ask huiqi how long i can msn her about meeting them that aftnoon!!!

these friends are from my prev church (:
spent 10yrs with them but knew them really well for the last 3 yrs??

ok im pretty open with anything now after all that politics :X
so i'd just say hi to you so long as u dont dao me! ((:
and im not afraid of what others would say! (:

but omg, seeing them literally made me so excited!
hahahhas, thanks to char's wedding, if not i think it'd be another couple of yrs b4 i see them again...
MISSED PAM SOOOO MUCH!!!
hahahs literally started a long catchup convo ((:

MISSED Jared, Justin, Alissa, Christina & others...
omg, literally hao jiu bu jian!!
catched up throughout the entire reception hahahs!
updated each other with life... (:

make me happy only! LOL

3) Youth GDOP

1st youth global day of prayer in Sg i think..
my 1st time attending/helping out one too!

quite awesome...
the whole setup and everything...
including the lead singer's voice... OMG (:

only thing i didnt like was the lack of systematic ctrl,
when literally the ENTIRE audience was asked to get up and paste this cute little thumbprint!

hahahs pekchek manns, was shouting at the top of my lungs as marshal...
cuz the rest of the helpers didnt know what to do either!
errr, so very quickly managed to clear my adopted aisle (((:

4) Food Fest Expedition w Xinyi!

hahahs, uberly yummy...
shared food & spent $7.50 each :X
but she spent MORE than me, buying home groceries for her mum!!
i love food fest...
ELAINEEE... hahahs i know u wanna go :P

5) I really went to cut my hair...

$21.90 @ Jean Yip LOL!
the guy like not interested in cutting can...
but basically, im glad my hair is neater in a sense...
BUT it's freaking short )):
the length is still around there,
but u'll see a deflated french bun when i tie it now ))):

i guess, i just dont like changes...
ahhas, mummy says im never satisfied when i cut hair LOL!!

6) Finished FNB bvg list ytd ((:

yays!!! finished the sample cocktail & winelist too!!!!

hahahs, going to consult Mr Tai today @ 3pm!
i hope all goes well...
the only thing i know is i think our bvg report will be damn freaking LONG!!
wine itself takes up 1page :S

tell me how!?!?

7) almost done mastering LoveStory cum VivaLaVida!!
wahhas, i really like this kind of pace of studying...
got time to do my own things...
got time to efficiently finish my project ((:
yay, just abit more finishing touches...
i hope i can play it on my own (:

8) Eagle Eye the movie
whahas, racheal sis borrowed this from her friend...
watched it ytd night till 1am (:
OMG its cool!
but tragic, cuz it just shows..
what Man makes will take a turn in time to harm Man again..

so much for IT advancemts..
plotted your own death ))):

gtg liaos,
before Gwen beat our butts LOL (:

Love Becca..

becca (: ♥ 10:22 AM