i just wanna dedicate this post to all my lovely people.. that i havent been able to meet up, cuz our schedules clashes all the time.. and all we can do is wait for each other after sip, or try so hard just to meet up?
i just wanna say im missing you guys.. it's actually okay, if you dont miss me lol, but looking back.. the times we hang out together, few but really the happiest (: the memories we created together, few but impactful (:
i just wanna wish you guys all the best.. in whatever you do.. even if we're too busy to rembr each other, at least i do right now..
on the other hand, happy Halloween wherever you are :D i hope i have a really happy and fun one tonight too, although at 1.14pm, it sounds like alot of last-min notices )):
LOVE BECCA (: dear friends, where are you now?
becca (: ♥
12:44 PM
Thursday, October 29, 2009
my heart beating damn fastttt!
wahhahas just did a manual heartbeat estimation.. its around 140beats/min!??
what do you think can make my heart beat like that? LOLOLOLOL.. come on, guys and eyecandies are sooo yesterday!
guess guess??? okay im not telling you :P but hint hint, it's one step closer to my DREAM (((:
OMGOMGOMG.. i noticed the difference on the website almost immediately.. but i thought it's just a teeny weeny update?? BUT NO? whahahahs, okay fine.. although its not a big recruitment.. at least they're open!!! FINALLYYYY what ive been waiting for.. all the camping around their webby :P
and my heart really skipped a beat! maybe my heart can beat really fast for a guy.. but nopes, it wont ever skip a beat like that!!
hahahahs, you must think im either maddd? or if you know why, you must think im a sucker :S
anyway, I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK.. i care about i what i think.. which is.. "should i really go for it?"
you must think im really silly, getting all so excited about it, and then questioning myself.. after all, the first thing i scanned that app form for was.. the word "height" LOLOL! but DONT HAVE LEHHHS!
oh wells, many other girls out there must have seen the same page today too.. and im quite sure they just put it up ytd or today.. whatever, sighs.. question is, do you think i can make it?
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hahas, do you know the purpose of blogging today, WAS NOT THIS!?
i meant to blog about the movies i watched.. and my emo-today..
firstly, my toe's really killing me.. to the extent i think my brain lost a screw.. i start to think i could have blood disease & then maybe cancer.. and you wouldnt see me tomorrow..
guess what, the thought of that.. made me teared THREE freaking times today!
i guess i just dont wanna go so soon lol.. loads of unfinished business here ): SIGHS.
secondly, the movies i watched LOL.. i guess had a part to play too..
Love Actually.. old show i know, but realistic and sweet.. but one thing that really struck me was.. speak your mind this Christmas.. (:
Just like Heaven.. super super just how i felt today.. oh wells.. i just cant describe! :X i can only say, treasure all your loved ones around you while they're here aites? and live life to the fullest, or you'll regret the day you're gone.. ):
My Sister's Keeper.. you've no idea how i can relate to that.. all the family mess and all.. perhaps abit more dramatic, but it felt exactly the same when i was on the hospital bed..
500 days of Summer.. totally reminds me of myself! grr, except that im the guy in there.. that spells what im avoiding all this while anw.. but i still feel that 500 days is SHORT alrd! come on, whatever..
Definitely Maybe.. yep another old show i was yet to watch.. sometimes, it really takes a detour i guess? but do we move on, or do we continue to waitt?? or do we just let the heart decide? or how about do it my way.. kill that thought....
hahas, my mind runs really fast and far.. and sometimes i guess i myself cant even catch up with it..
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anyway, it's 4am to wake up tmr.. just to report to work @ 7.30am!!! with my ejournal still 60% done.. and just about 10% of my energy left..
LOVE BECCA :D - iwishi - becca (: ♥
10:17 PM
Monday, October 26, 2009
too many lanes to walk..
grrr... i just wannago chillout somewhere somehow..
i really enjoyed today's auditing (: i actually love work every day.. not exactly one day that i rembr dreading..
only that doing night shift till 10pm followed by 9am morning shift... IS NO JOKE AT ALL...
oh wells, but aside from WORK-fun.. and the randomSELF-fun that i get from listening to random songs, watching random dvds that i rent, ranting to myself, stoning in my own world... and then perhaps the occasional HOME-"fun" like quarrelling with my mum or fighting with my sis and then getting rejected to go to the movies? LOL
i've enough of that for 2 months now.. and i just wanna have some CHILL-FUN :D
i dont know, but something like: - shopping for clothes excluding formal wear.. - pedicure after my feet recovers from blisters?? - planned fun, rather than jumped-in holiday to Sentosa.. - replied messages from dates??! LOL
like you know.. just put aside everything for that solid24hours.. okay, make that 12hours?? and just have pure fun! (: definition of FUN for that matter = really letting loose and being my natural self set in, professional aside and personal unleashed...!
grrr i guess im just needing some timeout.. alone or not.. like seriously.. enough of half-lid wakeups and dark circles? then act one cool and steady professional auditor today?! enough of tired feet and worn-out shoes.. and muscle aches, and blistering scars... )): enough of sleepyheaded bus rides? or otherwise visited & re-visited memory lanes on long journeys home..
most of all, ENOUGH OF SERIOUS SERIOUS POSTS... with rants all over the place .. :S
though i havent touched my ejournal still, with only skeleton to hand in.. which i'll soon REGRET )):
LOVE BECCA (: i really need a bit more cheer in my life.. becca (: ♥
8:19 PM
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Jackpot ops!
arhhhh.. i thought we won't kena night shift lehhhs! thank God it's only 7 hours.. cut the boring 3hrs by 1hr LOL
and i thought the gel foot-padding i bought would make life alot easier in my fave heels! BUT omg, i nearly died still... grr! lucky got my parents to fetch meeee! :D
things i enjoy @ Jackpot: cashiering duty but i dont really get a chance to! - computer records - shortpayment voucher - coin exchange! (seriously act one busy one LOL)
things i enjoy @ Gym: stalking people!!! whahahahas! besides the illegal workouts & amazing race to closing??
things i enjoy @ Bowling: the illegal sneakouts into the music room to visit the mini-grand of course!
come on, now you know why i love my SIP :D
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on the other hand.. - i miss working with our team of EIGHT! - i miss having weekends OFFF (super looking forward to the potential Sunday off next week!) - i miss my dear friends whom i'm yet to catch up with!! - i've been missing out on alot of outings/gatherings... - i've been treating home like a hotel as usu?? - i've been splurging on low salary?? LOL foolish right?
k lahs, life goes on.. but pls remind me to do START MY EJOURNAL!!!! ):
and boy, next week, will be interesting ((:
LOVE BECCA :D arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh! sing to me, will you?
becca (: ♥
11:39 PM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
OFF DAY :D
funny how i can't really sleep longer than 6hours.. when my body really needs it.. forced myself to sleep longer, but i wake up every hour until 11.45am??
throughout, i had sooo many WEIRD RANDOM DREAMS!!! i think the last one, was some holiday in a rundown chalet.. with my family.. in some air base LOL!?
anyway, had lunch with mummy @ RP foodcourt.. omg, their food selection is so much better can!
then later probably dinnering @ TP :D going back to sch for OTC INTERVIEW!
on another note.. i dont think i'll be able to go otc lorrrs.. so what's the chance that i get in? i know you'll say, year 3 alrdy still scared cannt go in LOL..
anyway, my body muscles are still aching from Sunday's illegal gym workout LOL.. i cant sneeze/cough/laugh properly.. so much for working every inch of muscle in me ):
yup yup. i needa go iron my clothes already, am on a tiny bet with mummy.. 1-for-1 exchange! hhurhur!
LOVE BECCA :D becca (: ♥
2:20 PM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
WOOHS so long since i blogged!
hahahs, never did think i'll stop bloggin for so long..
anyway really had so many different things running through my mind this week! but i just dont have the time/energy/open-eyes to actually blog it down even when the PAGE TO TYPE IT ALL OUT is like OPENED RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!!
oh wells, so here's a little catchup session!
FIRSTLY, when i've been looking forward to finally an offday.. today i forgot that tmr's OFFDAY for me!!!! :D -guess im kinda used to working everyday like that alrd-
RANDOM THOUGHTS...
1) i miss working @ island bowling centre!! where i can sneak into the music room everyday.. where i can learn to bowl.. where i have the company of such nice seniors :D
2) 2 compliments & 2 staredowns ytd.. compliments really make my day (: so silly but as little as one abt my hair or something.. it gives me at least that bit of encouragemt to go on :P considering i had a weirdout situation ytd that got me damn damn PISSSED!
i dont really mind guys who staredown girls along citylink or what.. somehow, i dont even notice it!! (though some of my friends really will glare back LOL)
oh wells, its not that i wanna flatter myself,
becuz my work look of me differs from my actual self.. cuz i believe that everybody will want a nice, professional look to serve them?
BUT come on, be discreet abit can? shows alot about one's dignity as well lehs! esp a bunch of TICKO-PEHS!! omg.. think about ur age, then take note that of your actions can... so old already, still dont know how to ctrl ur eyes? wth!
3) nice supper out ytd night with SIP gang :D supper was fun.. pratahouse & icekimo rocks! but it really drained out all the energy in me.. such that i almost died trying to wake up this morn @ 6.30am!!!
4) what'll be the jackpot in your life? me inclusive, i feel that many of us chase happiness that doesnt last.. and even beg for it, hunting everywhere.. seriously in desperate need of it, and finding it in all the wrong places ):
i see these people throw thousands everyday in the FRUIT MACHINE RM... omg.. damn sadd sight too... just waiting for that small payout as consolation, and trying to be the one that hits big! zzzzzzzzzz!
this money could be used to do sooo many things!! and i think abt pple who have to work so hard to pay for dream uni, dream internship whatever nots... ):
5) The grouch! this was the case that pissed me ytd... even YY got a shock can? and guess what? SHE CAME BACK TODAY!!
its okay if you dont trust interns.. i understand.. BUT your attitude sucks big time alright? grow up seriously..
we seriously felt like cursing her not to strike anything.. but decided not to, and guess what she struck many times..!!! (small payouts luhs) and she was damn stuckup... GRRR! and keep glaring at everyone.. :X
but seriously the one and only flabby lump always eating and playing the jackpot.. confirm is her.. on the other hand, maybe she's pregnant flabbily?
6) Amara? i really loved working there.. enjoyed all the times there, and boy am i willing to VISIT! but i really take it that my time there's over, and i've moved on to explore other things (: 7) an honour..!
i really find it an honour and privilege that we were asked to be internal auditors for my SIP (:
all 8 of us!! im so looking forward to next week... and i spy an offday on the weekend WOOTS finally! :D
oh wells, its only after training today, that i realise what an interesting opp it is.. and also the responsibility & risks involved!
anyway, i really enjoy every single day of my SIP ((: i hope everyone else do too! oh wells, i think alot of it is about perspective.. and through this, i get to meet so many diff pple, diff personalities, diff rxns.. some are so impartial, while so are so relaxed.. some are really stubborn & one-kind.. while some have an inner kind-hearted soul.. some seem so dao.. while some actually are so work/member-oriented.. either way i've managed to find some little thing to respect each one of them, and im glad i did :D
GOING TO WATCH SISTERS' KEEPER TMR! be it alone or not, i just wanna watch this movie... been camping ard the websites waiting for the timings to come out ((: and finally!!
the trailer is pretty emo i shld say, but i think it's a really good movie that die die must watch :D
LOVE BECCA (: it's all abt priorities? i know where my heart lies alrdy, but sometimes i refuse to admit.. due to priorities once again... becca (: ♥
7:10 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
MY very nicely spent OFF DAY (:
woohoos, its almost the end of my offday (:
although i didnt get to go Wavehouse in the end.. my parents managed to request for a tour ard today ehehs! very good service ((:
we toured Cafe del Mar too! and i managed to convince them that we should come here again someday.. ahhahs, not exactly their thing, but not bad lehs, means im influential LOL joking!
this time spent at Sentosa... i got to swim as i wished, i got to catch my sleep (really slept ALOT) i got to relax, eat ice-cream, have fun!!
just what i wish ((:
funny how i got to fulfill it on a random offday like this! i wasnt intending to join them for this random hol either!! :P
anyway, it'll b 7am for the next 2 days... THURS: finally!!! our weekly sports day, im missing the whole gang like nuts already!! hahahs lunched with Cherina ytd, and peekaboo @ Jolene & Sebby :P
for fri, sat, sun... can emo one corner already! you know the first thing that me & yuying do when we got our roster, is to highlight lunch buddies!!! :D but we've none on the wkend, UNLESS PPLE MISS US ENOUGH TO MEET US UP! )):
hmmz, im looking forward to the events that'll be working tgt!
GYM OPS i seriously think its BORING... island bowl has so many things that i can find to do... like sneaking into the music room...! compare that to gym, and you'll most likely start cussing )):
compare 1 phonecall per hr @ GYM, to 10 phonecalls per hr @ ISLAND???
anyway, i think i do very well in finding things to do... other than the locker keys... i ended up helping Nora do abit of accting (cuz we do that @ island) i ended up helping Joanne, do the Cherina part of magz @ the gym..
so we ended gym ops on a high note..
oh besides that, im really glad that Yuying & I can start to click really well already ((: ehehhs, with fadz & yuying, gym should be a breeze :D
LOVE BECCA :D i might, i might not.. i dun care!! maybe it doesnt really matter anymore (: in honest words, i really enjoyed our convo ytd night.. (: becca (: ♥
9:25 PM
Monday, October 12, 2009
GYM OPS ZZzZzZ!
alright gym is not exactly my kinda thing...
i thought doing on-the-job with the others, the other day... will change my impression of it... YES IT DID...
but now.. after coming back from Island.. ZZZZZZZZ!!!! damn boring lahs! whole day fold towels, greet members, fold somemore towels, ARRANGE LOCKER KEYS (my fave job: got complimented & rated 9/10 for it okay!!) LAME!
oh I SLEPT ONLY 4HOURS ++ ))): damn freaking sad! because the day before, i ended @ island around 8pm++ and NO CAR RIDE HOME!!!!!
and 7am shift = 4.30am wake up lehhs! siao lahs )):
NOW? im @ Sentosa.. and i like it here ((:
straight bus from work to harbourfront ROCKS ((:
first thing i did was to SLEEEP! and boy, i really slept like a pig.. then we went for some crrappy dinner nearby.. ):
just went for evening dip in the pool! then i really feel like going over to Wavehouse for a drink.. (but my parents super not sporting..! dont know how to drag them there to accompany me!) hope everyone's doing fine for SIP (: so many things i wanna do!!!! LOVE BECCA :D becca (: ♥
10:54 PM
what are we all looking at??? "sexy arch" ?? HAHAHHAHAS! (internal joke for a tennis player in a hot serve LOL)
different cams, same nice photo because its still the same US (:
becca (: ♥
3:18 PM
Life: treasure it as it comes (:
hey people!
back again to blog.. but first thing first..
take a look @The New Paper @ Fri 2 Oct's pg 13 headlines...
those having attachment now, you'll feel what they feel.. those who've lost someone before, you'll feel how they feel..
or otherwise, you can just say you dont care at all.. dont care abt ur friends/family.. dont care how long you/they live.. its okay, just dont regret that very day..
but what i wanna say is TWO things..
1) treasure life as it comes.. you never know who will go tmr, you never know if YOU will go tmr.. what will you regret if you were to go tmr? i dont know abt you, for me i know i've alot of things not done yet.. so many things i wanna do on this Earth first! so many people i still wanna catchup with.. so many milestones i still wanna achieve.. so many to count ): -but at least i dont rmbr regretting that i wasted a certain day of my life yet-
2) the impact of your presence.. reading the article, it seems to me that that one guy made a very deep impact in quite a few pple's life.. it doesnt have to be 100 odd pple.. but even just one life.. yes, you've made your impact (: i dare not say, i've really made an impact in anyone's life.. oh wells, but i hope to before i leave this surface of Earth.. ((:
on a different note, SIP THOUGHTS :P
one month's past.. that's really FASTER than i expected manns! but i guess it's only because, there's the EIGHT of us to make it go faster ((:
honestly, i really didnt expect my SIP to turn out like this! -1stly, i WAS supposed to be freezing in the States for my 1st time.. but nopes, no more flying to do ):
-2ndly, i thought it'll be just another phase of life to get over, but nopes, i started to love this place since my interview! (:
-3rdly, i thought shit i dont know anyone here, everybody so weird/dao one! but nopes, i ended up playing sports with them every Tues, and they become the reason why i look forward to work the next day! less any 1 of us, and it wouldnt be right already! ((:
alright... i dont know what im in for LOL! but life's really uncertain, and i cant plan ANYTHING at all... totally not my style ): and when i cant plan, i tend to do everything on my own! (shop, watch movie, anything you name it!)
so im really eagerly waiting for the ROSTER to be out.. supposedly by email TONIGHT! i hope it really does come out... so i can start planning OFFDAYS ((:
on another note, we'll be splitted into pairs/triplets.. working on various shifts once the ROSTER is out! means Sports' day wouldnt be full attendance anymore )): and lunch hours will be only a few of us if ever we had the same.. how sad!
yesterday's sports evening was SUPER FUN (: badminton cum vball! got damn freaking HIGH! played near Uncle Timo's hse.. then went for Thai Express @ J8! homed like one dead-beaten prata.. HAHAHAHS! i guess i'll miss this times the most! (:
damn lazy to post photos.. but you'll see when you get to see it!
AHHAHAS
kk im going to do stuff now.. that's all (:
LOVE BECCA (: becca (: ♥
2:28 PM
Monday, October 05, 2009
super lazy to blogg!
firstly, i've got my sip journal that i do everyday... its short & sweet believe me!
and then i've got pple to rant/catchup with.. so i hardly need to blog this days (:
oh wells, but on another note.. i'm really glad we had this GYM training today ((: otherwise i dont know how im going to try to like it! oh wells, i've my reasons AHHAHA! but i really like today's ops, so maybe my impression will change (: by the way, one of the ITE interns totally reminded me of Jared A.!!!! OMG, every single expression, reaction, word, everything... only that she's a girl LOL!
and i'm looking forward to tmr's sports session with my mates ((:
and catching up with various pple today felt good! how about brief catchup HAHAHAS!
i really really really wanna do so many things manns.. - tan like seriously! - shop for anything... :X - go to timbre againn! - anything else, movie anyone?
im enjoying my sip bcux of u guys!! but i also cant wait to be deployed.. so that i can stabilise my offdays.. and basically, meet pple that i really have been wanting to meet!!!
k lahs, i need my sleep for tmr (: before i bang my head on the bus window & get more bruises ))): -can you imagine i got 2 balukus bcux of falling aslp like that!!! OUCH!-
LOVE BECCA (: what a day.. oh wells.. a little afraid to fall off any side of the fence... becca (: ♥
11:12 PM
Friday, October 02, 2009
I LIKE TODAY (:
anw this is the 748th post of my blog... random right, but 747 reminds me of Boeing 747... i wanna fly lahs... holiday or not, i just wanna do some travelling ((:
i really liked work today... firstly, we started the day by meeting up freaking early, just to get cake & card to surprise Yuying for her bday! sweet mates right??? (:
then we missed shuttle, freaking SIX OF US LEHS! so had to hitch TWO rides!!
then we went to jackpot for on-the-job training... rotational basis! super relaxed, but i like the environmt, super hospitable & nice fulltimers as well!
then we surprised Yuying...
then after work, accompanied Elaine to wait for her bestie... had Thai Express (like finally!!) then had Icekimo woots!~ (: then homed in 1.5hours journey ))):
I REALLY SUPER LAZY TO POST PHOTOS LEHS!!!! be it fb or blogger.. or even upload it... CUZ IS REALLY ALOT!
by the way, i managed to stay up ytd night and changed my hp!!! yay, i've scrutinised all my contacts to fit into my sim card.. leaving out those whom i dont really contact already! and then dl & adding 88 songs to my new w595!! -super happy-
LOVE BECCA (: you guys make me look forward to work/outings every other day!!! cant wait for our SCC dayout tmr hahahas.. becca (: ♥
11:33 PM
Becca & Elaine @ Iceskimo, Thomson ((:
Happy Birthday Yuying (:
Seb's trademark post LOL!
the girls @ Island (:
my fave pic!!
becca.amanda (nyp intern!)
damn cool pic..
what are we all looking at???