Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Eventful :D

okay. life's been pretty eventful for me actually..
such that i'm so lazy to blog everything!

suddenly i've got so many photos & vids to upload.
better still, FB hates me when i upload VIDEOS!! )):
*always for some reason fail/ deleted!*


let's digest my life for the past week (:

CNY was mostly visitations..
having fun with sleepovers :D
reunions with fam & friends..
and then collecting hongbaos of course!

But CNY AFTER-MATH was equally fun..
it's really F-R-E-E-D-O-M.
shop as i like :D
with my sis as fashion consultant..
or how about opinion security LOL :x

Spending away my FREETIME..
was the other significant portion of dramas, healthy lifestyle?
doing the things i wanna do but never had the time for...
that includes watching HaiPai,
(finally finished it today! :D)
and then running diff parts of Wdlands,
then swimming.. i wanna go cycle soon :D
then eating homecooked food,
eating with my familyy!!!
sleeping full 8 hours! ((:

Of course im not that free either..
mum's constant nagging for household chores,
the debt i owe for 3 years already :X
and polishing my dusty piano..
until have to go buy polish :X
then uploading photos & all..
but most imptly,
planning SURPRISE :D


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASLYNN!
leap year baby :D
hope you really enjoyed ytd.
why you never cry!!!!
hahahas, but from the sound of your voice.
since the time i told you you gonna have to look for your card..
i know you're really damn damn surprised! :D
it wasnt easy assisting - giving ideas every night, meeting to do the card, cake and all..
but most imptly,
Han is really damn sweet to put so much into planning this for you okay! :D

not bad right.
random dinner date with me can come out with so nice surprise.
next time you better jio me out more HAHAHAS! :P


alright.
it's almost time to go prep for tonight's DND!!
there's HTM Grad party @ Marriott tonight.
even though i dont really have a clique in htm..
i just wanna have fun tonight (:


OMG!!! YOU KNOW WHO JUST CALLED?
some guy from tiger..
i think its regarding my mail that i'm not in sg so i cant attend the interview on 12th march..
does that mean i still got a teeny bit of chance to fulfill this dream??? :D
gahs, mixed feelings.
how i wish the person who just called was from SIA instead ):
oh God, do tell me this is the open door you have for me,
not just a random door of false hope to be shut soon )):


that reminds me of the reality of this week.
been running away.
just wanna run away from everything.
take a break (have a kitkat)
forget about everything for this while.
do the things i just wanna do..
and just learn how to be innocently happy..
throw the LeftBr & perfectionist in me..
have fun, relax, i think i deserve it at least for this while. (:


still got alot of things to do.
made my list.
one of which, is Zilra's bday plans.
filling up apps for jobs/ camps..
polishing my accoustic after i buy more polish..
and more social plans..

tell me. i'm never free LOL :P



LOVE BECCA (:

becca (: ♥ 3:29 PM


Thursday, February 18, 2010
Random Thoughts (:

i guess the one thing im scared of being free is..
think too much..
you know how my brain can run like mad ):
.
oh wells, for now i'm pretty happy and carefree..
just that these are some random thoughts,
some of which, i've been avoiding...
.
.
let's start on a happy note with...

1) Clique Reunion
the bomb :D
totally made my night!

you know the feeling like how this fire almost died about 1year ago..
and to see that things didnt fall apart in the end..
that we survived the cold dry period..
its amazing (:

i recall always looking forward to our birthdays..
just the 3 of us for a starter.
graciie, jan, becca..
always the best parts of the year :D
where we definitely would meet up,
surprise each other..
have fun. (:

it's just so indescibable how things have become.
celebrating the 21st birthdays of both changyong & serena.
and then the frequent oh-so-random meetups!
and the sleepover times too.. :D

considering.. the reason behind all this. lol.
we've come a long long way...
looking back. it feels so surreal.
a good kind of surreal. (:

and i just wanna thank God for them (:
the friendship, the memories, the time tgt.
may it last as long as it possibly can (:

looking forward to 15th March already :D:D:D


2) Life after Grad
my biggest frustration. ):
sighs. it twists and turns every nerve in me!!!

like i once thought,
my dreams were all nicely laid out in front of me.
it was a nothing-can-go-wrong kinda perfect plan..
and even if it were to, it felt just so safe..

but i was wrong ):

now im so far away from anything that seemed like my dream.
left dangling in midair.
too tired to think of alternatives.
just wanna runaway.

actually its not all that bad.
but as long as no secure answer lies in front of me,
its as good as nothing.
aint it?

gahhhs! i need to know which door will be promising.
which door is THE door..
i hate trying one by one,
and later get disappointed ):

such that.
i dont even know if i should just go ahead with more applications.
or just relax, and wait for it to come to me.. ):

like i've let everything hanging for quite awhile?
or at least it feels like quite awhile already ..
like so much for the ideas of pianoing & partiming..
and the french i wanted to learn with no money..
which amounted to nothingness ):

supposingly Tiger is supposed to schedule a presentation sometime soon..
but is that what i want?
will i settle for something less than what i wanted?

supposingly Friends is like my last resort...
but will i be happy there?
i know i'll earn avg, learn alot alot.
might beg to have time for piano teaching..
but will it work out?

supposingly hotels are my final destination..
would i wanna do it now?
try the industry now when i can do it later after my deg?
i wouldnt mind a concierge job, frontdesk job.
but...

i guess bottomline is..
i still wanna fly.. )):
it's like going to the airport.
it's now my inspiration yet my pain ):
gahhs, i think im weak!

just when i wanted to give up this dream..
people just keep encouraging me to keep trying..
why is everything always like that???
will i regret?? what do i do?!?

GAHHHS I WANNA SCREAMMM ):

i dont wanna fall into the same trap as Disney..
i dont wanna give up better options,
just becux im not ready to refocus my dream,
so impractical..

sighs. screw the perfectionist in me! )):


3) Research Paper
i think it's gonna be okay after all (:

guess what?
i was like 5 mins late for the 15 mins interview..
that i bus-ed & cabbed over to TP for..
so retarded really.
i mean the journey VS the time spent..

but it turned out better than i had expected :D
im not a Crap-er..
but i could carry it off WOOTS (:

and the best part was to know that i wouldnt fail my submission :D:D:D
my tutor rawks!
made my day mann (:

that's why i was so happy & energetic enough to bake heart-shaped cookies for Clique right (:

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Plans:

Make solid plans for Zilra's bday

& coordinate with Luffy :D

ideas are only ideas,
until they are carried out!

Crash Jas' house next week :D
i hope it'll be fun!

Go out, hopefully without spending $$
i wanna do stuff that i havent been able to do in a long long time! :D
like slack at the beaches & the parks..
like swim, cycle, fly? LOL




LOVE BECCA (:
pls make everything okay..
and i still believe dreams do come true (:
that's if, you bother to reach for it at all..

becca (: ♥ 11:42 AM



Happy CNY Reunion w Clique :D

another steamboat dinner!
and my 3rd reunion dinnerr???
.
honestly i think i didnt eat much lol.
but the company was the most awesome :D
.
after dinner, went over to Macs for eh.. dessert? lol
chat alot alot
until we missed our last train,
damn dumb! ):
.
but it was just so nice to sit around,
laughing and chatting..
listening to each other..
i like (:
.
.
but i was super duper late!! :X
OOOPS.. here's why..
.
i felt so free after the interview session for research paper @ sch...
its just such a good feeling.
.
and with the abundance of time in my hands,
i baked lovely heart-shaped cookies, white-choco oatmeal (:
(clique say taste like subway lehhs! not bad right?)
.
after which, just when i thought of polishing my dusty piano..
it felt so nice to play on it on a super QUIET afternoon!
i like how it sounded like a grand piano, just becux its quiet :D
.
so i started playing and playing and playing..
and i decided to figure my latest earworms..
but failed for the tsubomi! too complicated!! )):
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.
left the last one which is this one just below.



Yu ai
woots. i think i spent about 2-3 hours on this piece!
and awesomely, managed to get out the melody and all :D:D
(this is the real reason why im late LOL :P)
.
by the way, its damn hard to figure it from a computer!
have to keep walking to play/pause.. ):
so much for not getting the mp3 hahahahs
listening from my hp will be definitely faster (:



Tsubomi
it's so damn harddd! )):
got so many melody transitions ):
unlike the previous which is full of repeats!
.
so hard to copy lehhs,
that i just gave up after awhile..
it is indeed a damn nice song,
but need patience, and when i do have that then i'll tell you about it (:



失落沙洲
this song has been running all around me for the past few days..
has its bestest way of finding me at my most emo moments..
gahhs, and i can even hear until cry! ):
.
might try to figure this today (:
should be quite simple?
.
==========================
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unlike most holidays..
i feel free yet busy..
hehs, trust me to always be able to find things to do!
.
(maybe like what xinyi says,
i should just take time off to relax during these last holidays before working.
could turn out better than going part-time right away?)
.
lets see the list of things i can do (:
.
1) polish my piano
2) polish my accoustic
3) bank in last pay cheque
4) bake somemore?
5) watch tv/dvd
6) watch movie! :D
7) shop for dnd clothes!
8) figure more songs
9) change blogskin
10) ROTTTTT ! lol
.
oh did i mention after spring cleaning,
i realised that i've got ALOT OF TIME CAPSULES in my room!!
not literally..
but i keep alot of so-called sentimental value stuff..
that is like time capsules everywhere..
LOL. like wait until no value already,
then can throw next spring cleaning..
HAHAHHAS!
.
you should see my collection of..
movie stubs, entrance tkts, developed photos, little keychains, cards, letters, postcards, pens?? etc. etc.
oh, and diaries! hahs!
.
it's damn interesting to read back.
and look through all those stuff..
but it only happens once a year,
during SPRING CLEANING lol!!
now you know why i took 2 days :P
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okay time for lunch?
.
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LOVE BECCA :D
treasuring my freed moments? (:
im so free i could kill a bee LOL.

becca (: ♥ 1:10 AM


Sunday, February 14, 2010
Happy CNY / Vday :D

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE :D
and cum Valentines' Day LOL.


hope couples out there wont be too sad?
though most outlets are closed, no place to go except super ex places or homes...
hope your surprises for your sweeties still work out LOL.
(this goes to all my friends who are attached and been staying up late to do surprises lol :D)


and CNY celebrations?
other than the stressful shopping trip,
which i managed to go home hands-full & happy at least :D
and the crazy spring cleaning 48hr-routine..
(lol i'm glad its over, and i like my room a teeny bit more now :D)

this year's pretty cool, in both ways i mean.
sleeping 3 hrs & rushing for 8am service in the morning, is oh-so-never-will-happen-again please! ):
(nearly died of headache later in the day!)
plus the insane cooking agenda for lunch is totally SIAO!
imagine me helping in the oily kitchen in CHEONGSAM, bangles, earrings and all.. lol no time to change at all!! ): and frying ngor hiang & ribeye with DAD LOL!
(hilarious but awesome time!)

and then i started this whole im-so-bored-can-we-play-taitee!?
and guess what?
it became gambling den,
with my aunt as banker HAHAHAHS!
the cool part was my earnings :D
-but shhh, still got part 2 tmr noon LOL-

and with my headache, i fell aslp on my sis' bed when visitors are still around! omg!
woke up, had loads of awesome leftovers for dinner..
and watched HBO ALL THE WAY...
(CNY got all cable channels on complimentary :D:D)


here's what's made my day...

just a bunch of words for you to make out my thoughts of this really awesome movie :D

friends. bond. hope. hopelessness. romance. failure. being there. reconciliation

reminds me of just 2 things:
1) follow your heart. do what you love, do what you wanna do (:
2) i need a holiday to somewhere far damn badly LOL. :D




LOVE BECCA (:
i hope you guys are having fun too :D
and pls dont remind me i've a ppt on CHU SAN!!! ):

becca (: ♥ 10:59 PM


Thursday, February 11, 2010
SPRING CLEANING PART I ):

okay before i do the really dusty parts.
i want a break! ):
.
Today's really driving me crazy!

i just finished packing the clothes properly.
ironed EVERYTHING like for the 1st time in my life,
and washed the wall.. lol

.

my hands are blistering already,

as if im not ugly enough already )):

.

my wardrobe SU**S!

omg, i realise i got too many casual clothes.

my going-out clothes is like PATHETIC ):

.

and im grounded to do SPRING CLEANING 24hrs today..

how to shop for CNY?

.

i couldnt even go to school,

when i kinda promised Farhan i would go back and help the booth... )):

.

.

.

okay, so this year's Spring Cleaning is not as simple as cleaning up mess..

but like shifting furniture ):

got so fedup just now!

.

my room is small enough already.

and shared with my sister somemore!

and still wanna add cupboard ):

.

our house is so freaking NOT-SMALL.

but why no space?

because got too many barang barang!!

.

GAHHHS! okay.. so now, you know what?

my room looks sooo GROSSS...

clash of colours. )):

im so going to call the shots today!

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.

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but first, needa clean up the DUST! )):

i think im going to get asthma soon..

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then, reshift more furniture..

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then, get rid of my unwanted wine bottles...

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then, pack my 3 cupboards of ever-so-many things & softtoys lol..

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then, find time to POLISH my oh-so-dusty piano!

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then if have time, polish my acoustic guitar..

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then if really got time, shop for CNY clothes tmr??

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but before that, i so need a mask to exfoliate my stupid burnt skin!

i look so hideous now )):

.

and if really got time, CLEAR AWAY MY POLY STUFF & hope i dont need to redo my last module! :X

.

and if i got time to rot, which i doubt

i might just clear my 2 years worth of mails & folders in my hotmail!! :X

.

.

.

and if i got time to take a break, or even rmbr to..

i might eat lunch & dinner soon..

and rmbr to drink water..

lest i fall sick for CNY ):

.

.

cant wait for tmr's TOPTABLE meal :D

i hope it doesnt disappoints (:

and just before i forget.
oh God, please open a way for me to work..
if you could provide $60K and let me slack for 1.5yrs, it could be a blessing.
but i rather spend my time working for something i want, then wait for it to drop from the sky...
.
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FAREWELL XINYI!! D:
you've been such a good listener, such a good going-home buddy to me!
such a good friend & sister (:
dont fear being alone.
God is with you, and may He bless you as always :D
we'll miss you!
-wait for me to come & join you 1.5yrs later!!-
.
honestly i cannot imagine if im the one flying to Aus this coming Tues.
yes, as much as i cant wait to study abroad,
do something i like, pursue my dreams..
but i cannot imagine how many buckets i'll fill,
how i would cry my lungs out..
to think i'm going to miss so many people,
miss out on so much..

.
you know what?
i think this may be the exact reason why God didnt let Disney get through..
because i just had too much to let go in Singapore.
too much left unsettled...
maybe that's why.
-im still waiting to know exactly why-
.
.

okay back to SPRING CLEANING.
here i come armed with duster, cloth, pail, mask!
dont play play ar...!

.

hehehs, but blasting music while spring cleaning.

keeps me going! :D

-although my fam sure faint,

but TOO BAD ALL PS ME TO STAY HOME ALONE!-

LOVE BECCA :D
let's hope i dont turn uglier by tonight :X

becca (: ♥ 2:55 PM



MAKEOVER PLEASEEE!

okay you know what..
i really feel like i need a makeover..

like makeover EVERYTHING. really!

while going about my usual stalking on fb,
shopping for cny stuff,
just basically going about today's life..

there's so many things i wanna do & makeover HAHAHS!



so here goes my list..
(of random accordance!)


-my nails, short for the sake of my industry!
(manicure/pedicure i dun care whatever, pls grow nicely :X)

-my hair is disastrous..
the only reason why i hadnt whined much about it, is only bcux i've it tied up 24/7 during SIP days...
i've never had nice short neat hair just the way i want.
everytime when i finally think it looks BETTER,
it's just too long :X
i wanna do something, but WHAT!?

-my clothes!
OMG ever since SIP and all,
i totally dont care what i wear anymore..
in the first place, i dont even have time to go out! :X
besides, all my mood to shop has vanished, becux i look so UGLY NOW! ))):

-my footwear?
trying to survive on blistering rubber slippers & gladiators & random heels..
i needa replace my casual heels, and everyday slip-ons? :X
and my fav blackgold pumps is giving way!~ ):

-DND clothes...
gahhs, what a theme..
kill me..! im no fashioner..
makes it even harder ):
plus IR & NEON. OMG!!
let's hope i find something soon,
or i'll just probably wear my pink skirt that i wore on my 19th bday? ):

-my FACEEEE!
omg pls i wanna do some facial..
even stay-home facial mask whatever..
just to remove my ugly burnts )):
i dont even feel like going out tmr alrd! ):

-TANNINGG...
yesh, please makeover my tan..
it's so UGLY with the halter-lines on my shoulder ):
and uneven lahhhs!

-my LEGG..
ewww the scar from falling down!
it's like the result of a rotten wound ):
and all the blister marks!!
I FEEL SO UGLYYYY )):



===OKAY PHYISCAL STUFF ASIDE!===


-makeover my dreams please... ):
my oh-so-perfect BACKUP plan..
as i said to my dear cg listeners today..
is falling apart ):
gahhs! why must it keep falling apart? ):
izzit too much to ask for? to just wanna fly? and get money for Uni??

-makeover my holiday plans..
thanks ar, KOREA FELL APART TOO..
i damn sad. they cheat my feelings!
lucky, we still going Penang..
but where got as nice? :X

-makeover my part-time plans..
gahhs, they never call us.
emailed boss, also never reply..
i think it's pretty much a GONER?
plus the piano thinggi isnt working out until i think i can commit my time even when i get a perm job?? )):
tell me how???? :X

-makeover health.
everybody's nagging me saying i so damn unhealthy.
really mehhs!?
but i survived 3 years with this non-sleep chiongster routine..
and lived 19 years and counting, with less than 1 glass of water a day..
and ehs the past 2 years? for irregular diets? :X
sighs. im getting fat too! )):

-makeover eyes?
hehs, i wanna try coloured contacts lehhs..
but i got astigmatism in one eye! )):

-makeover BLOGGG..
im kinda sick of the skin already.
it's time for something new..
but like what!?!?

-makeover ROOM...
omg, its so damn messy.
i've been leaving the junks to spring cleaning day..
and now its really bad! ):
ehs, i've got sooo much to clearrr! :X



okay, just when im making over my sleep time..
it's time to SLEEP @ 2am (:


TOMORROW IS SPRING CLEANING DAY @ MY HOME, BY ORDER OF 'THE MOTHER'...
so im sorta grounded actually? :X

thought of waking up early to clear up,
and hope to go out in the afternoon.
but looking at my list of makeovers..
FORGET IT! ):

though i'm given $150 for CNY shopping..
i'm still BROKE to the max..
becux i've un-recouped loss of $200!! :X




LOVE BECCA :D
something's missing in the festive mood.. what is it?
it doesnt feel like CNY/ Vday at alll! :X

becca (: ♥ 1:22 AM


Sunday, February 07, 2010
omg i feel soo CUI!

you know what?

at this point in time.
i feel like a big bout of illness is waiting for me..
like runny nose from the chill of aircon/sun ytd..
like sorethroat.
like nosebleed..
like gastric...
waiting for just right after my submission ):

and that im TURNING UGLY!!! )):
with all the sunburnt skin..
and fall-down scrapped knee..
and blisters from work..
and everything elsee...

EEYERRR! ):
-i felt like im dying yestdy LOL-


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ok *clicks NEXT*

my MARATHON WEEKEND...
is not about to end ):


THURS NIGHT..
surprising Serena @ midnight..
is no joke..
you've no idea how i was stoning @ the tauhuay stall..
wishing i could just fall asleep there and then..

to realise, i still got a video montage to start from scratch!
ton the night of 5 hours doing the PART 1..
wahs, besides that..
still have to think about what to do with her card!

then i still had to bake..
i warned my whole fam not to eat the last 2 eggs!
but my ah ma came home late and just had to eat 1 of them that night )):

mummy bought eggs for me @ 6am!!
and i baked the brownie,
dozing off while it was baking..
bcux i felt damn dizzy!
-damn dangerous to slp while baking LOL-

i dare not sleep properly,
set 2 alarms to wake me up..
and literally jump out of bed when i realised it rang already..
to take out the brownie and realised it's not yet done )))):
sighs. tried to salvage it ):

slept 2 hours.
rushed to pack my stuff & meet jan..
in the end,
SHE STILL SLEEPING SOUNDLY!

okay, met scand @ 12nn @ AMK
got Serena's present..
and rushed to take the video.
got chased by security >.<

when done, cabbed to TP.
went for the TigerAirways talk...
then filled in the app for Scand ON THE PHONE!!!
omg until i nearly forgot to meet Graciie before her ppt!!! )):

rushed her video,
rushed to bookshop to buy cd,
rushed to design to print photos..
rushed off to meet Jaslynn..

FINALLY REMBR I HAVENT ATE THE WHOLE NIGHT/DAY!
had some unappetising KFC snacks..
went to buy stuff @ white sands.

rushed off to Han's house..
did the present.
did the card..

HAN NEVER HELP AT ALL CANNN!!!!
whole day WoW WoW WoW!
LOL!! :P

then me & Jas was trying to guess what time CY will arrive.
hehehes! then scarly he come before we did our video LOL...

video-ed our wishes.
edited the video..
how about the guys never help at all!!
until the last part when rushing to BURN..
and guess what?
COMPUTER HANG ):
never save -.-

okay so we were sooo very late for our dear Serena's birthday..
rush like monkey donkey.
cab down to Ascott...
and tada, we reached at like 10pm++ ?? :X

thought so hard, about how to surprise her!
that we forgot she had a prog to flow OOPS! :X

it was damn fun lahhs (:
stayed over, camwhored alot..
totally DAMN TIRED i swear!

then we watched Deep Blue Sea?
watched Graciie teach Scand some korean mtv dance?
surprised Serena..
ehs, that's about it?

until... SATURDAY MORNING..

chiong out of the aptmt by cab..
just to meet fam @ T3..

had my first proper meal in 1.5 day?
i swear i was hungry like a piggg!

went for Airshow,
got burnt ):

damn shaggggg,
first time i just wanna go home..
just within 2 hours of being there LOL. :X

slept for the next 5 hrs?
then.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

omg, chiong to restaurant..
totally no energy to plan surprise.
i felt so baddd! ):
-next year??? :X-

then chiong home to sleep..
was nauseous (indigestion of 3 course meal!)
and dizzy, and light-headed..
and burnt, and whatever nots..
plus runny nose from the chill )):

read my 16 emails ):
lol accummulated for 2 days?

then come SUNDAY MORNING..

church @ 10am,
felt like a killer..
slept 10hours,
but it felt like 5 hours? ):

then met up Serena just now,
just to send bday girl her VIDEO lol!
and of course the Vivace dvd that i forgot to pass ):


-it's like hey i've a "fixed deposit bank"-
i've Han's cam charger,
Jan's gift & ribbons & thumbdrive,
Serena's dvd..
hahahas, like as tho everybody got acct with me!


erhs, later..
I STILL GOT PARTY TO GO...
OMGGG... ):
like im food co-incharge??


when can i finally do my submission due on TUESDAY!?
much less, when can i rest? :X

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The first & last thing on my mind (:

hehs. i swear i wanted to garner enough courage to do so ytd.
but i dont know why i didnt, lol.

i no longer will cry like as b4 when i think abt it..
im happy as it is.
and i believe i'll find my strength out..
i can do this (:

dont ask me how.
i dont know either.
but it felt like a damn big boulder lifted off me,
when i heard just what i needed to hear..
it's like being set free.

i dont know why it doesnt hurt so badly anymore.
but it felt like God put it in a nicer way..
hugged away my tears,
and set me free from hoping for dreams that will not happen..
and salvaged what's left of it for the better?
i dont know how.
but i heard Him just speak to me through a random friend (:

apart from the little less significant ones,
it lasted me 2 yrs for the 1st, 3 yrs+ for the 2nd,
maybe 4 yrs for the 3rd. omg no.
but i know i'll survive this anyway.
thank you Lord for giving me the strength to get by (:

wahahs, i cried like shit @ service today..
becux it was the exact same song i was singing in my head,
when i was set free this week (:

To a friend:
thanks for being just the way you are. (:
do not worry or fear hurting me,
i'll learn to get over you soon enough.
no matter how much i love you.
i know its time to close this chapter,
and work on saving the friendship that i would pay for at any cost.
lest i regret.


it has reached a point that i no longer hide anything anymore..
becux, this is me (:




LOVE BECCA :D
learning to be happy again (:

becca (: ♥ 2:57 PM


Wednesday, February 03, 2010
bloated balloon ):

BUFFET @ RWS!
yesterday went with SIP mate to RWS..
i think im more excited abt going to RWS,
rather than the $45 buffet..

plus i over-ate..
and had a swollen belly..
like at most buffets.. ):
-super not enjoyable!-

food not say damn good either.
met Alex from Amara there tho lol..

walked alot.
camwhored alot..
super ghostown can!
but had loads of fun (:

tho i think im suffering from indigestion,
after eating ytd's dinner with today's breakft/lunch/dinner.. )):

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Work after grad..
just when i'm happy to have made my decision ytd...

i just had to go lunch with mum & sis again..
a simple sleepy lunch of soyabean drink..
still okay... hmmz

until come the declaration of my decision.
that mum just had to come up with unhelpful stumbling qns..
that simply didnt help!

i absolutely HATE the way she just likes to create unresolvedness,
without helping to get a solution.
how a*sified can that be!? OMG!

gave you 3 freaking options...
3 that i have of course..
NOT 3 THAT I CANT FIND..

but all you could give me was sh*t.
that didnt help at all.
NO HELP AT ALL WHILE I WAS IN ALL THIS DILEMMA...
thanks.

now you'll just reopen the dilemma when i tried so hard to resolve it.
thanks alot once again.

sometimes i wonder.
why does my sister gets more help in her dilemmas than me?
seriously. all her life...
do i always have to be the strong & independent one? ):



LOVE BECCA.
lest those burdens come back to haunt me. ):

becca (: ♥ 1:20 PM