Saturday, November 20, 2010
woohhoos END OF 3RD WEEK!
TIME SURE FLIES...
*and truth is, it'll never stop FLYING!
it's pretty unbelievable,
that im actually going into my
4th week with HSBC next week!
and soon...
I CAN COLLECT PAY ALREADYYY :D
next week,
i can start wearing the uniform that mummy has altered for me.
and also start including my teller & laundry allowances!! (:
nahhs, that's not the point.
THE BOMB is.....
xq has asked me to start opening counter next monday!
starting with deposits only...
whereby the only deposits-only counter is the "Large Pay In" counter. omgomg!
scared siahhhhh :X
*considering i'll be having my own system & till on Monday. omg!
oh wells, it'll be another learning journey for me (:
on the other hand, aft chionging so muchh!
i unknowingly did all my e-learning up till week 3 today.
*i only know that i had a few more to complete,
until xq asked then i realised i'm completed that much! ((:
God's grace. really.
*i was literally going to read word-for-word for a "reading" b4 i did the test.
when i accidentally click in,
and it already started!
and i just do to my best ability,
only 10 qns lahhhs.
and i PASSED with 9/10!!!! (:
-that made TWO e-learning mods-
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hehs, my life pretty much revolves ard work.
*as in, the exciting stuff lol.
or if not, slacking at home?
kinda went to food fest with parents today.
food tasting, wine tasting...
i like (:
that's about it.
hehs. i need more spice in my life.
but that probably needs budget too. lol.
so for now, i'll just settle for this? (:
*i wanna go chill somewhere soooonnn!!*
Love Becca (:
smile away your tears & frowns, today will be different :D
becca (: ♥
10:49 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Updates mid-week...
today's Hari Raya PH.
and im supposed to be doing work now...
it feels like school again
14+ e-learning lectures, 8 e-tests,
notes to re-write, 2 stacks of worksheets...
ALL TO HAND IN TMR!! )))): can i dont do?? )):
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STILL...
a pain in the arse.
i'm having 2nd thoughts...
abt giving these friendships a 2nd chance...
when i finally replied her msg ytd, abt concert and all...
it's kinda like to let matters rest,
and give things another chance.
not for Jas' strong persistance...
i dont know what makes her so sure this is just a misunderstanding.
i've been missing our times tgt.
but every day of my life,
i'm reminded that things will nvr go back to the way it was.
NEVER is the word.
*times have changed, and so have people & their priorities...
# but just a while ago,
i kinda doubted my choice.
i really pondered very long b4 i actually posted the 1st comment...
i didnt have to care, i didnt have to bother.
but count it on our past 3 yrs of friendship.
i thought i could speak my mind,
just purely based on my genuine concern.
but it kinda proved me wrong.
seriously, why should i care.
im sorry you felt like a kid while i said that.
but why should you feel put down?
thanks for the honesty,
but why so honest now, when you havent really been all the past yrs?
perhaps this is doomed right frm the start.
and with all these going on,
i really dont know how to be real and genuinely be myself in front of you guys.
shld i just play along?
or speak my mind?
whatever.
i really dont think its worth my time and effort.
to untie all these knots anymore.
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Today's Itinerary
had an awesome day with my parents @ JB...
at first it was boringly shopping for groceries..
and i thought, that's it, my day is gone!!
but we found this new shopping mall,
Tebrau City (with Jusco another hypermart) LOL.
and many awesome shops like vivocity like that!
and so we ate and ate and ate...
and windowshopped...
mummy even wanna buy ring for me...
WOW.
then had dinner @ Manhattan Fish Market.
with me being a bitch,
when they didnt wanna let us sit the place we want to sit,
and mummy badly wanted to eat their crab special!
**story started when i ALREADY sat down in a section that they deemed as closed, when there's pple seated there... and they came up with all sorts of stories,
including the part where i saw their staff sleeping at the cushioned chairs that i wanted to sit...
the part i really hated were the lies to cover that up.
nvm tt... so i bitched abt their service,
and the million $$ qn was...
"so how do you intend to do your service recovery?"
LOLOLLL!
and we got the seat we wanted! (:
-service is just like SG's Iluma pls.. but SG's far worse!
***anw the food was both gd & bad lol.
the crab was over-salted!! LOL.
and the pasta under-cooked...
but but BUT!
the CRAB BISQUE was sooo HEAVENLY!! :D
that we ordered another portion LOL. (:
for that matter, we still tipped them luhs. (:
crossing the causeway to and fro was a BREEZE.
but mummy decided to practise depending on the GPS sys we got...
and we got LOST lol!
*it tends to bring us one big round & we ended up arguing here and there abt who's fault is it =.=
overall, today was fruitfully interesting (:
although we kinda spent $600RM altgt in that short few hrs... :P
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time to start doing some homework!
byeee!
Love Becca (:
i shant frown over this again.
aft all its probably one-sided.
becca (: ♥
8:15 PM
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Updates of my 2nd week (:
pretty shake leg i'd say...
(only bcux the real duties havent kick in yet! :X)
i should anticipate next wk to be stressful one?
the worst nightmare that i can think of now,
is when they make me complete e-learning in the same week as they ask me to open counter >.<
*i think i'll really cryyyy! ):
this weekend's been really slacky for me,
i'm suppose to compile my notes thus far,
and all i've done is probably a couple of pgs in front of the TV!! LOL!
-tsk-
enjoy life only! hur!
in the past week,
tying up the loose ends of my start-from-scratch banking knowledge!
just about when im getting the hang of doing cards- balancing..
*starting to get happy...
then i realised the system for e-learing resumes next wk!!
sharks.
8 modules in 2 weeks lehhhs!
feels like back to school lectures )):
looks like im gonna OT like mad soon )):
a sign that i shld sleep early tonight too...
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on another note...
i'm thinking how i should get the stuff out of KOC! ):
*my tips, last payslip, recommendation letter... :X
grrrr!
i really wanna have nth to do with them!
why cant i??
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in my abundance of time...
other than having more family time/ dinners...
managed to find some discipline to pract piano,
watch a bit of tv,
run for a tiny bit LOL per week.
then it's more fb/ miniclip or other short games... =.=
im becoming lazy!
i dun like!!
i hope to work during some of my free time SOOON!
let's hope everything works out (:
*my dreamy 21st hangs on the income of suchh :X
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THINGS TO SETTLE:
"old scores" with koc
get my 1st pay from hsbc & settle the amt to be set aside for uni for these one 2/3 mths. lol
*i've became so calculative tsk. that's how rich ppl bcome rich right??
TRY to take up some freelance job
my notes for work!
elearning stuff, b4 i get barred from my email.. :X
THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO :
mummy wanna go johor this coming wed! :D
*been along long time since i last had a break "overseas"
bcux of my block leave,
my parents booked SuperStar Virgo next march!!! :D:D
*so excited!!!*
and in the long run,
i look forward to my 'extravagant 21st' :X
and of course working so hard to study in Aus BMHS!!
AND then the real dreams after that...... (:
Love Becca (:
i feel like singing (:
becca (: ♥
10:43 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
2nd week into HSBC
sighs. although we live under the same roof, sometimes..
i just dont understand why nothing i do can make you happy.
what more then do you want out of me?
*please note that whatever i said, is just to make you realise my position, rather than your perception.
being more sensitive abt it than you need to, will only distort the picture & drive you crazy.
what more can i say?
as if this is the first time i actually quarrelled with my mum...
of course, when i first told her abt my ability to take block leave...
i only thought it was right to let her decide if i shld need to give some time next year, to the family...
outings/ holiday whatever...
*obviously i cant decide a family trip right?
*and obviously i'm not allowed to go overseas on my own right?
perhaps i didnt put it very nicely...
considering i only rmbr this when im rushing off to work each morning =.=
(but i thought family means, lose the formality, as long as the facts get across...?)
oh wells, seems like mum is still abit rightBr & sensitive abt that...
not as if she's not known me for 20yrs of my life. =.=
whatever.
tonight, she comes up to me, telling me i shld take block leave for breakthrough wkend!
which is only 3 days =.=
i need 5 days!
*what am i going to do for 2 more days??
and that's how the commotion started...
and the conclusion in the end..
is still "i lead my life you lead yours"
doesnt it always end up this way?
*a leftBr prolly can do this.
but a rightBr cant...
arent you the one who's been trying so hard to pull this family tgt, leading a more unified life, rather than separate ways?? and i thought i was helping out by letting you choose my block leave... turns out ALWAYS that i shld just make my own decision... (and i always have to regret involving you in my life.. why?)
sighs.
as if i planned to make you upset and all...
why do you always think as you would think?
why dont you start seeing in a diff perspective??
in that case, i think i should really give up trying to please you.
nothing pleases you enough.
(after all, even if something did, you wouldnt really express it right?)
whatever.
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2nd week into HSBC (:
been watching Autumn Concerto!
*yes i know im outdated,
but comeon, i'm trying to catch up with my life...
so it's not a bad start ok!
hehs, perhaps my heart is pretty dead now...
i dont really relate much,
but it's a nice story with realness in it (:
oh wells.
work's been pretty insightful.
as i mentioned earlier, its a heaven-like change for me! :D
but i really feel like a fish out of water!
to the bare minminum :X
*and recently starting to feel the stresss!!
my mentor kinda crams info into me like no business...
the thing is,
it's so ONE-WAY!
there i'm trying to ask her qn,
scared i bother her, but when i really want to ask since its flooding my brain alrd...
she say ask later,
or after work...
WHEN I FINALLY WAIT UNTIL LATER...
she gives me another task to do =.=
*now doesnt that sound like my mum?
sighs, i hope i dont burst just yet.
oh God, help me hang in there pleaseeeee! :X
actually these few days,
i found myself frowning quite often...
i've no idea why...
there's been a couple of thoughts in my preoccupied mind that i cant seem to fathom what exactly am i worrying abt! ):
although my guess is...
*stress abt nt learning fast enough,
money matters (since my salary for Oct wasnt here until TODAYYY! 9 days of suffering!)
block leave matters
and perhaps another few things?
i hope i can straighten these out for good and soon!
so that i cant start going to work happily againnnn! (:
Love Becca (:
i just want to be happy.
becca (: ♥
9:56 PM
Friday, November 05, 2010
happy workingggg (:
hmmz, yesterday was my 4th day at work...
how fast time flies!
it's going to be the end of 2010 veryyy soon!
i'd say this year is a very very UNEXPECTED year!
alot of things happened...
not physically impactful...
but mentally & emotionally indeed.
but i'd also say,
it happened for the better.
kinda dugg me out from my ditch. (:
*as 2009 ended kinda suckily (looking at it from the big picture)... :X
oh wells, where i am now.
i'm most thankful to God, my family, and my friends (:
i cant explain how unexpected is unexpected.
but in every area i can imagine, it is indeed...
out of whatever my dictionary can grasp..
and it'd be too lengthy to try explain it here :P
alot of my weaknesses also surfaced during this year.
and also ended up with alot of new things which i would never imagine.
hahahas, including a bank job...
Just some simple updates (:
as most have already known,
the month of October is like a roller coaster..
of which we have seen God's hand take control.
oh wells, considering the reality of my job-hop from KOC fnb to HSBC bank industry...
its pretty close to an illustration of hell to heaven!
every day im just so in-awe here in HSBC...
the benefits we have frm the company,
(they already asked me to plot at 10+ annual leave for the next half year to hand-in next wk!)
(the medical reimbursemts as compared to the deduction of $100 for MCs at KOC)
the family-like environmt,
understanding though firm people..
even have someone to help us buy lunch EVERYDAY without fail!
we kinda reimburse her for that luhs,
but means my mum doesnt have to cook!
mummy bought a new bag for me... :D
i kinda look more mature now,
throw the fbts aside,
now is working clothes, working look to work everyday! lol
even the mgr CSM is sooo nice!
she is stern at times,
but she can joke and just carry a convo, unlike someone lol (:
not to mention the 5.5day/ wk...
considering pretty much 2 saturdays off a mth,
*actually anything other than koc, would be better...
and i know i would survive it, having alr gone thru the worst! lol. :D
and of course being able to go home at 5.45pm everyday is a pleasure!
contacts lenses stay in my eyes for 3-hr less everyday,
and i have more time for family dinner, piano, and even DRAMA!
*i'm like watching Xia Yi Zhan Xing Fu like only nowww... lol :X
hahhas.
so comparatively, this is like HEAVEN indeed!
*oh yeahs, i went to work with a french twist for the 1st 3 days of work lol.
i kinda got used to it, having tied that for like about 2 yrs of my life?
honestly, i take longer to tie my hair into a ponytail now LOL.
but at least i can save on hairspray costs!!! :D
and lose less hair for that matter (:
yupyup,
as of now...
i need to excercise more, as sitting down in my current job will make me FAT!
*i just came back from running 1 rnd my estate,
and that has made me DIZZY omg!
aging bones )):
and i need to pract more piano,
rather than dramaing all the time! ):
and also, i need to PACK MY ROOM.
it's so dusty,
collectively from the 6mths of hell :X
and also, do some housekeeping of my hotmail
on a side note,
i really hope that the card they FINALLY sent to my hse...
is the right one...
(if its right, i've got myself a HSBC Advance debit card for working with them LOL!)
AND I REALLY REALLY NEED MY OCTOBER PAY FROM KURIYA RIGHT NOWWWW!
would you please credit it in so i can live for the next few days??? :X
Love Becca,
happy working (:
*i've finally found back the becca who loves to work again (:
becca (: ♥
2:22 PM
